(Minghui.org) I’m a female Falun Dafa practitioner who began to cultivate in Dafa in 2011. I’m sharing my cultivation process to thank Master for his compassion. At the same time, I wish to share my cultivation lessons with fellow practitioners and validate the beauty of Dafa.
People claim that many children can see gods and beings in other dimensions because they have the spirituality that adults have lost. In some fairy tales and movies, the elves wish to communicate with children. My own experience confirms that this is indeed true. When I was young, even though I couldn’t see them, I could feel them around me. After studying Falun Dafa, I was able to understand why.
Believing In Divine Beings from a Young Age
I was born in 1983. From when I can remember, I experienced and saw things that others could not. I could feel many invisible beings surrounding my body. All of them were very friendly. I was happy every day because I could communicate with them.
I was also a little lonely, because I could not share what seemed natural to me, as people would not understand my visions without having personally experienced them.
Since I was very young, I felt how tiny one being is inside this universe. I liked astronomy and enjoyed watching the stars. When I thought about the long life of stars and the short life of human beings, I felt very puzzled and sad. When I learned to read, I liked books about the unsolved mysteries of the world and learned about prehistoric culture, the pyramids, and discoveries at the forefront of theoretical physics. In addition to having read about ancient civilizations in archaeological journals, I felt as if I had an inexplicable familiarity with some of them.
The questions I often thought were, “If the world has given birth to me, a spiritual being who can think, why would it then let me get old and die? Where is the edge of the universe, and what do people live for?”
Facing Tribulations
I clearly understood that there are higher beings in the universe. To me that was a self-evident fact. When no one was around, I often put my hands together and worshiped heaven and earth. Before a storm, I often felt the greatness of nature and the magnificence of divine power. I remember one late night when a heavy rain was brewing in the sky. The tranquility before the storm deeply attracted me.
All the residents in the community were asleep, and the night was surprisingly quiet. I walked downstairs alone, knelt down, and worshiped the unknown divine beings behind the clouds. My heart was pure. I had nothing to ask for. I only felt a reverence and yearning for getting closer to those higher-level beings.
The happy times in my life ended when I was in sixth grade. That is when I began to suffer from sinusitis and had a lot of yellow nasal discharge every day. However, it was not too severe, and so I still graduated first in my class. But in junior high school, my condition became more and more severe. My family and I didn’t know that it was sinusitis at the time. Since I often had a headache, we once suspected that I had brain cancer. It was not until two years later when I went to the hospital and learned that was the problem.
Most of the time, I couldn’t breathe properly, and my memory also declined. I had to undergo several surgeries, but they did not help much. My immunity weakened rapidly, and I had to cover myself with two thick quilts in the winter. I often caught colds even in summer.
From the time I entered junior high school until I practiced Dafa, I basically lived a life that felt worse than death. Others could never understand how bad it was. We all know that suffocation can lead to death, and I was hovering on the edge of suffocation. The spiritual feeling I had when I was a child had long disappeared. I felt as if I was drying up, and my heart was often filled with despair. I couldn’t see the life ahead of me, yet I was still reluctant to part with it.
When I was a sophomore in high school, my grades were second to last in my class. But I gave it my all and eventually got into a very ordinary university. I then worked in the media and had to move around to other places. I had several more setbacks, including difficulties with relationships. I lamented how life could be so hard!
During this period, I read the Bible and learned about some Buddhist teachings. The day before returning to my hometown, I visited one of the most well-known Taoist temples in the country. But, shockingly, the people there talked to me about tantric cultivation between a man and a woman as soon as I arrived. I felt disgusted and left.
When I Was Most Desperate, Master Did Not Leave Me Behind
After I returned to my hometown, I worked at a local television station. My health was still poor. The doctors of traditional Chinese medicine said that I suffered from a kidney deficiency. Because I could study acupuncture at home, I often gave myself acupuncture treatments. It worked a little, but it could not cure my illnesses.
Because I was surrounded by karma, it took a year for Master Li to enlighten me using different methods, and I finally started practicing Falun Dafa. At first, a co-worker who is a Dafa practitioner gave me a copy of Master’s video lecture series. I watched it from beginning to end, but due to my karma, I didn’t feel much.
Master then arranged for me to obtain a novel written by a fellow practitioner. It was about divine beings doing things in the human world, as well as people returning to their true origins. It awakened my previous memories, and I felt that many doors in my mind were opened. It made me realize that what my co-worker had been trying to tell me was what I had been searching for. I sighed and wondered why my inborn quality was so poor. But even so, Master did not give up on me. I wanted to return to my true home with Him!
A fellow practitioner gave me the precious book Zhuan Falun, the main text of Falun Dafa, and I spent one day and one night reading it. I finally became a Dafa practitioner! My body was quickly adjusted and purified, and my long-standing illnesses were pretty much cured within a week. There were minor symptoms that still occurred, but I understood they were tests for me. I recovered from all of them within a month. Since then, I’ve been healthy.
Saving People Is My Mission
After I became a Dafa practitioner, I realized that Dafa is so sacred, yet it has been slandered with lies published by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), causing so many people like me who were searching for the true meaning of life to lose the opportunity to obtain salvation. There were so many Chinese people who were deceived and held negative thoughts about Dafa. I must expose these lies! I cooperated with fellow practitioners and started clarifying the truth. At the beginning, I talked to my relatives and friends and asked them to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Almost all of my relatives have quit.
Fellow practitioners gave me beautifully made truth-clarification journals, and I began to distribute them to people’s doorways every morning before going to work. I paid great attention to how others would feel when they saw the materials. I tried to place them as straight as possible, with the most important content facing outwards. I later added a paper bag to hold the materials. I also pasted some peaceful exercise photos and two sentences downloaded from the Minghui website to encourage kindness. I wanted to ensure that our materials were presented beautifully and neatly so they would give people a great first impression.
After some time, fellow practitioners helped me purchase a printer, and I began to make materials myself and distribute them. The stickers I made included the truth about the staged Tiananmen Square self-Immolation hoax, the April 25th incident, live organ harvesting from Falun Dafa practitioners, information of the senior officials involved in persecuting Dafa practitioners being sued overseas, quitting the CCP to stay safe, and local persecution news.
I also got involved in a mobile phone truth-clarification project and technical work such as installing computer systems for fellow practitioners. I thought that wherever I was most needed, I would go do it.
I then got married and had a child, and my schedule suddenly became much tighter. I felt that I was no longer able to take on the technical work and making materials, which both required a lot of time and research. After some adjustment, I decided to do more truth-clarification face to face.
My desire of saving face was my biggest obstacle to clarifying the truth. I always felt that I had a respectable job. But when I tried to talk to people on the street, some people just ignored me or said bad things, while some mocked me by saying, “You’re so young, don’t you have something better to do?” When I encountered several people like this in a row, I would become hesitant to keep on going and felt that it was too difficult for me.
But I understood this was something that a Dafa practitioner must do. I thought about all the difficulties I encountered before practicing Dafa and why I had to go through them; I understood that if practitioners didn’t clarify the truth, many Chinese people would be eliminated when facing catastrophes. I knew I could not allow this to happen because of my attachment to saving face.
I was a bit coward and used to fantasize about romantic love every day before cultivation. At the beginning of cultivation, I often thought how such a person could take on the big task of clarifying the truth. How would I be able to do it?
As I studied the Fa more, it strengthened my righteous thoughts. Master’s teachings completely solved all the mysteries that I was thinking about and searching for since childhood. I had pieces of memories from deep in my heart that I always had a longing for something. I now understood what this was.
I know that everything Master said is true. This belief came from rationality. Since I was a child, I had a wish: if someone told me what the true meaning of a human’s life is, I would forever follow them. Life is so short, and I knew that this lifetime is not the end of life. A being’s life also has a true origin before this lifetime, and it’s extremely precious. Saving sentient beings was fulfilling such a huge responsibility. Isn’t it the most meaningful thing in the world?
When I became depressed because my efforts to clarify the truth didn’t go well, I would remind myself: If I couldn’t do it, what would happen to my sentient beings? I must be able to do it no matter what!
My first year of doing face-to-face truth clarification was the hot summer of 2017. That coincided with the release of the booklet The Devils Are Ruling Our World. We realized that the process of Fa-rectification required us to reveal to people the essence and evil nature of the CCP.
So I focused on giving people this booklet when clarifying the truth. I used my lunch time to distribute 20-40 copies. I had strong righteous thoughts: I was doing what Master wanted, it was my great prehistoric wish, and it was for sentient beings. It would allow more Chinese people to understand the evil nature of the CCP and be able to break away from the CCP’s lies. I truly hoped their knowing side could see the true situation and a bright future ahead of them.
Although it was both physically and mentally challenging for me, I experienced a lot of joy. I told people, “This book describes the origin of China. The name China literally means ‘the country in the center,’ and it is a center of divine culture. Our ancestors have advocated virtue and good deeds since ancient times. The CCP has just ruled the country for a few decades. It told us it would lead people to happiness, but why did we only experience turmoils and catastrophes in just these few decades? Why are there so many corrupt CCP officials?”
All Chinese people have many unanswerable questions deep in their hearts. I told them, “This book can fundamentally answer the questions you’ve had for many years. Find out what the CCP really is, why it did all these things, and its true purpose.”
I clarified the truth as I distributed the booklets. But I had a very low rate of helping people quit the CCP. At best, it was 1 or 3 people a day, and I was very troubled. There were more than one billion people in China and, at the time, there were only over 200 million people who had quit the CCP. If that pace continued, when would the number reach what Master was hoping for?
Master saw my wish and arranged for me to meet fellow practitioners who had been helping people quit the CCP face to face year round. They could persuade dozens of people to quit the CCP in one day. I went out with them for a period of time and learned about their methods: being straight to the point, polite but direct, and covering all the angles about the self-immolation, as well as the beauty of Falun Dafa. I could soon do a much better job in helping people quit the CCP. When we have a pure heart and only do something for others’ good, people can feel it.
Cultivating Myself and Saving Sentient Beings
After getting married, I’ve encountered many tribulations that I felt were really difficult to break through. As I studied the Fa more, I realized that I should detach myself from them, always remind myself that I’m a Dafa practitioner and why I’m here. I have to remember my mission, and keep myself away from all the temptations of ordinary society. Those are not what my true self wants. Only the three things that Master asks us to do are our goals in life; the rest can all be discarded. How precious it is to live a life that is entirely for others! I hope to become such a being.
The people around me have various predestined relationships with me, and these predestined relationships originated from our prehistorical wishes. As a Dafa practitioner with a mission, I should treat everyone I encounter with kindness and gradually get rid of my attachments, including bad thoughts, jealousy, and the mentality of looking down on others. Master said,
“I just look at your positive side, and thus I can save you. If I were to always look at your negative side, how could I save you? The more I looked at it the angrier I’d get, and then how could I save you? (Applause) So in any situation, don’t be affected by human-type behavior, don’t be affected by human thoughts, and don’t be affected by the feelings and emotions in this world, either. Look more at the positives in others and less at the negatives.” (Teachings Given on Lantern Festival Day, 2003)
I think we should be like this when we face family members and sentient beings. We should look at other people’s positive sides and not their negative sides, even if their negative sides have hurt us deeply, or even if some of the behaviors are very low and shameful. Except for the very few unforgivable evildoers who persecute Dafa, we must treat everyone else with compassion. This way, I can see hope for myself and allow others to see hope as well.
I want to use the compassion that came through my cultivation to bring out others’ kindness, so that they can identify the evil nature of the CCP and withdraw from it. This is just like lighting the candle in another person’s heart to illuminate the darkness and drive away all evil factors!
I sincerely hope that all Chinese people will be able to distinguish between good and evil, break through the obstacles caused by the evil CCP’s lies, and make the right choice!
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