A Young Practitioner Returns to Cultivation
(Clearwisdom.net) Regaining Health by Practicing Cultivation, Experiencing the Wonderfulness of Dafa
I started to practice Falun Gong with my mom in February 1999 when I was only 13 years old. My mom brought me to attend the exercise sessions in the morning and Fa-study in the evening. Before I practiced Falun Gong, I often suffered headaches and had a fever which lasted for more than a week resulting in hospital visits, getting injections and taking medicine. However, after I practiced Falun Gong, I never had these illnesses anymore. Therefore, I have come to experience Master and Dafa's wonders!
Sinking Deeper into Attachment of Playing Video Games
At that time, I didn't understand what cultivation is, how to practice cultivation nor could I differentiate the differences between practitioners and ordinary people. I couldn't calm down when I studied the Fa or did the exercises. Instead, I was often obsessed with playing video games. In addition, I had a strong attachment of showing off, which I didn't realize for a long time.
One day, I went to play video games in the game center with several classmates and soon became attached to playing them. Sometimes, I even stole money from home when I didn't have enough spending money. It doesn't matter if I was studying the Fa, did the exercises or attended classes in school, I always looked forward to playing games at the game center. I was incapable of studying the Fa and rarely did the exercises. Moreover, when I encountered something pornographic on TV, I didn't use righteous thoughts to correct myself. Because the topics among my classmates were all about those bad things, I developed a strong attachment to lust.
I also knew that these bad things didn't comply with Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance! Being deeply attached, I was unable to extricate myself. This was very painful and I was often in tears thinking: "Master, I'm unworthy to be your disciple!" Benevolent Master didn't give up on me and arranged for my mom to read Zhuan Falun to me. Master also enlightened my mom in her dream on how to guide me.
Lost During Persecution
The evil Chinese Communist Party used all forms of media to slander Dafa from July 20, 1999. My mom and I both knew that what the CCP was saying were all lies.
Later on, my mom exchanged experiences with fellow practitioners at the practice site and decided to clarify the truth about Falun Gong. She went to the government and submitted letters of appeal, but she was put under unlawful detention for ten days. After her release, she didn't give up clarifying the truth and took me out to post truth-clarifying posters. However, we were arrested by the police.
Afterwards, I couldn't bear the persecution and wrote a guarantee statement. I was released after my family had paid a lot of money, but my mom was subjected to imprisonment. After I returned home, I cried for quite a long time. After that many of my relatives who didn't practice cultivation developed a bad opinion of Dafa, and forbid me to continue practicing. I knew that Dafa is good, so I asked Master for help, "Please arrange for someone to wake me up if I become confused in the future!"
Gradually, I became lost among everyday life. I had learned to surf the Internet, and took up smoking and drinking. There were many bad elements in my brain, however, deep down inside I always longed for Master's help. I always ended up in tears when I was alone, often asking Master for help. I often had nightmares, seeing terrible scenes and that bad people wanted to catch me. I shouted in my dream "'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good", "Master please save me!" Afterwards, the terrible scenes would disappear at once. I knew that benevolent Master always took care of me!
My mom was released when I turned 20 years old. Upon her return, she felt pained finding that I was totally lost among ordinary people, and consistently persuaded me to return to the path of cultivation.
My mom was not in contact with fellow practitioners, and her cultivation situation was not good. There was only one copy of Zhuan Falun at home, which was brought to us by my grandmother. Due to the long-term persecution, I forgot how to do the exercises and knew little about the three things that we must do as cultivators. My mom shared with me about many of the tribulations that she had suffered in prison. To my surprise, although she was thin as a lath upon her return, she recovered very quickly. She didn't have any illnesses and even gained more than ten kilograms. After seeing this, all of our relatives said that Falun Dafa is amazing!
Master Arranges Fellow Practitioners to Awaken Me
A year later, my mom opened a store. One day, fellow practitioner A who suffered persecution with my mom came to visit our store. (I enlightened later that Master arranged her to awaken me.) Practitioner A and mom conversed for a while about our situation and cultivation state. Practitioner A became worried about us and asked practitioner B who lived nearby to help us. When I first met practitioners A and B, I treated them badly because I worried about my mom's safety. When practitioners A and B talked to me, I paid no attention to them. However, they didn't mind and kept smiling. In addition, they set up a Fa-study group in my home, and came to study the Fa and do the exercises every day. Gradually, I felt that they were so kind, as if I recognized them long long ago. I was eager to return to cultivation, but many human notions and attachments blocked me. I couldn't drop smoking, drinking and playing video games.
One day several practitioners were studying the Fa in my home while I was sleeping in the next room. I had trouble falling asleep. The sound of practitioners studying was not loud, but I could clearly hear every word. The eagerness to obtain the Fa became very strong in my heart. Afterwards, it didn't taste right when I smoked again. The money that was in my on-line game account was stolen. I was no longer able to smoke or take interest in playing video games. Then, Master helped me purify my body which resulted in vomiting and passing loose stools. Practitioner B told me, "It's Master helping you purify your body. Think about your situation last night, how could an everyday person recover so fast?" I felt very happy, "Really? Master has begun to take care of me?" Practitioner B said, "Yes! Master won't give up on any Dafa disciple. Your cultivation opportunity now is very limited. Please cherish it because you won't get another chance if you miss it! Did you forget your original home? All the sentient beings in your world are waiting for your return!" Her words really shocked me. I almost burst into tears! I thought, "I practice cultivation. I must cultivate myself well, and return to my origin with Master!"
Returning on the Path of Cultivation and Getting Rid of Attachments by Enlightening To the Principles of the Fa
I returned to the path of cultivation again in the beginning of October 2008. Through studying the Fa, I enlightened: All computer and Internet games are traps for a cultivator. If I didn't have ordinary human notions, I would not enjoy playing them. So is watching TV--all of it's contents are products of human notions and attachments. After I had enlightened to this, I was not interested in those things anymore.
"One should return to one's original, true self; this is the real purpose of being human. Therefore, once a person wants to practice cultivation, his or her Buddha-nature is considered to have come forth." (Zhuan Falun)
I enlightened that the real purpose of being human is to practice cultivation and to continuously upgrade to higher levels, and that the final goal is to reach consummation and return to a God or Buddha's world in the end. Once I understood this, all those attachments and human notions that I couldn't eliminate in the past became easier to let go of.
Master, please be reassured! I want to assist Master with Fa-rectification, save sentient beings and do the three things well.