My True Mission
(Minghui.org) I started cultivating in Dafa on Mazu Island in June 2001. One day, when watching television, a physician said, “I’m a medical doctor, but I cannot cure my own illnesses.” I knew that he spoke the truth.
When wondering what medical book he might introduce to us, I thought I heard him say Zhuan Falun. I looked for it in a bookstore when I returned to Taiwan. Upon seeing the yellow-covered book, I doubted that it contained Buddhist teachings, and it didn't look like a medical book.
I opened the book and saw a photo of Master Li Hongzhi. My first thought was that he might be a Maitreya Buddha, but I was not so sure. I then read Zhuan Falun. After reading about the issues of killing and eating meat in Lecture Seven, I instinctively thought that it represented Buddhist teachings, but it was very different from modern Buddhist teachings. I realized that this was a real Buddha Fa, and thus I stepped on my cultivation path.
The first Falun Dafa practice site I joined is located in Taoyuan City. I came to know the principle of karma elimination shortly after I obtained the Fa. One day, when I practiced the second set of exercises in the park, I felt great pain in my left thigh. I felt something crawling on it and biting me. But, I thought that as long as the music was on, we should stay still and endure the pain no matter what happens. Thus, I endured the pain for half an hour. Once the music stopped, I rushed to the toilet to check it out. I was shocked to see a bunch of red ants crawling on my thigh. Some were still biting me viciously. I picked them up and put them on the ground one by one. I thought that they were eliminating my karma, so I shouldn’t hurt them. Then, I went back and resumed the exercise.
After getting home, my left thigh was very itchy. I found numerous pimples caused by the ant bites and counted more than 240 in all. With strong righteous thoughts, I made it through the severe itching that lasted for seven days. Several days later, I was surprised to find that there were no scars. It seemed nothing had happened and felt just like a dream. From that time, I never felt itchy again when I was bitten by mosquitoes. I was once bitten by a centipede, but the wound was only a little warm, and it took me only a few days to get over it. Upon learning that I had been bitten by a big centipede, my coworker said, “How could you possibly be okay? When I was bitten by one, I had an allergic reaction and was rushed to the hospital. It’s amazing that you’re alright.”
One time, I was almost crushed by a motorized roll-up door. When I returned home from work, I followed a car entering the underground garage. The driver didn’t see me, so he pressed the button to close the door. Because my scooter was too close to the car, I didn’t have enough time to get away from it. I was right beneath the roll-up door. When I was stuck there, I felt a hand pulling my helmet to prevent me from getting out of there. I struggled, but to no avail. While I was almost dead, suddenly my whole body seemed to transform into liquid and then flowed out of the helmet. After escaping from the scene, I felt that one of my bodies made of karma was crushed to death on my scooter.
Master said in “Teaching the Fa in New York City” in Lectures in the United States,
“Actually, don’t think that nothing happened to you after being hit—a you, made up of karma, really died.”
Painstakingly Passing the Test of Sickness Karma
About two years ago, due to my attachments, I pursued ordinary people’s profits by investing in bonds and stocks. I even justified my wrong deeds with cunning notions at the human level. I did do the three things, but it was just like a formality and daily routine. I failed to elevate my xinxing, which is a fundamental part of cultivation. I studied the Fa without paying attention to its deeper meanings. Thus, I was taken advantage of by the old forces and experienced the false symptoms of serious sickness karma.
I experienced a high fever, and the entire left side of my face was swollen and deformed. Although I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the old forces, it was useless, as I was not diligent in my Fa study. Due to my attachment of fear, I went to the hospital. On the way, I looked inward and asked myself why I cultivated in Dafa.I realized it was because I dislike the issue of birth, old age, sickness and death that human beings go through. The only way to escape this is cultivation. All karma should be borne by ourselves, and no one will ever replace us. But, why did I repeat the same mistakes and become an ordinary person? Why can't I meet the requirements of Dafa? Why can't I be more diligent? As I asked myself these questions, my heart was screaming and my eyes were brimming with tears.
From the perspective of medicine, I would be diagnosed with having cellulitis. Antibiotics would reduce the inflammation, and then other treatment would follow. As infection of the head is life-threatening, I recited “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” to negate the interference. After returning home, I was in a bad mood. I had no choice but to take medicine for two days. I finally managed to study the Fa, practice the exercises, and send forth righteous thoughts. While sending righteous thoughts, I realized that as a cultivator, I shouldn’t take medicine, so I stopped taking the medicine.
Afterward, a boil developed beneath my left eye. When it grew to the size of a grape, it suddenly broke and oozed a lot of smelly pus. At that time, I felt a hard block moving out of the wound slowly. When it was near the surface, a small blackhead appeared. Later, I realized that it was the silicone plate implanted to adjust my vision after a car accident about 20 years ago. When I attended a group Fa study, the wound was extremely painful. I endured it and concentrated on the Fa. After the Fa study, I felt a severe pain several times. Much to my surprise, I found that the silicone plate was about to come out. I quickly took a photo of the falling plate with my cellphone. I was surprised by Dafa’s extraordinary power. It took only two and a half hours to complete such an extraordinary process, and I had no more problems with my vision.
But the test was not over yet. In the following month, my nose seemed to be stuffed, and I could hardly breathe. I had to breathe through my mouth. My throat was always dry and painful, and I felt very uncomfortable. One day, when I really couldn't stand it anymore, I took a deep breath from my nose. Suddenly something very stinky fell down from my nose into my mouth. I felt nauseous and spit it into the the toilet. It was an egg-like pus ball. It was really shocking to see it. Afterward, my nose gradually cleared, and I no longer had any problems.
Validating the Fa Among Medical Staff
When I suffered sickness karma, the hospital gave me a computerized tomography. At the outpatient clinic, a doctor looked at my medical record and asked if the wound was still oozing pus. I told him that the wound was healed. Perhaps he didn’t hear me clearly, so he asked again. I gave the same answer. He looked at the wound and said in surprise, “How did it happen?”
I said that when I was studying Zhuan Falun, the silicone plate came out and fell. He opened his eyes wider and asked me about Zhuan Falun. He bought the bookafter I talked to him about Falun Dafa.
He did some testing as to how the elastic silicone plate could have fallen out. He eventually gave up after failing many times. In the end, he asked for my picture of the falling silicone plate so he could use it when teaching students.
Volunteering for a Shen Yun Project
After noticing a Shen Yun poster, I bought a ticket for the performance in Chiayi City. While entering the performance hall, I found that the practitioners who served as receptionists were very graceful and thought that their cultivation state must have been great. All of them looked elegant. After watching the performance, I felt proud to be a Falun Dafa practitioner and proud of Shen Yun.
Afterwards, I wanted to volunteer for the on-site safety team for the Shen Yun shows in Kaohsiung City. But, because I was not a practitioner in Kaohsiung, I was not accepted.
One day, a practitioner asked if I’d like to join Shen Yun’s lighting group. I agreed without a second thought. Given Master’s arrangement, I joined the group as I wished. In fact, when I first joined the group, a practitioner said that if my cultivation state was not good, it would be very difficult for me to work there. I couldn't figure out what he meant. Afterward, I realized that it was a very strenuous project. I often felt tired or pain in my legs after work. But I still endured and completed my work with strong righteous thoughts.
At times, we had to work two consecutive shows. The physical hardship is not something that ordinary people can endure. Since we often stayed in our cars overnight, some joked that they stayed in a motel at night. At first, I couldn’t figure out what they meant. I thought it was great to stay at a motel, and I really wanted to know where the motel was. The next day, when I saw them getting out of their cars and going to work directly, I finally realized that all of them slept in their cars.
I’ve been involved in Shen Yun’s lighting group for years. As Shen Yun is truly the world's number-one show, I feel greatly honored to work for it. However, after a long period of time, I often felt that my skills didn’t improve. Seeing that other practitioners were so competent, I really wished to catch up.
For example, when other practitioners said what we were going to do, I should know what kind of lights and cords we should prepare, what kind of lighting effect it would produce, where the light should be focused, and why we should have this kind of light sets, and so on. All these were not something simple for me, but I believed Dafa is supernormal. As long as we really want to learn, Master will definitely help us. At present, I should just do the three things well and participate in projects as much as possible. When I need the wisdom, Master will definitely give me a hand.
Taking Up Responsibilities to Fulfill My Vows
My personal enlightenment is that as long as Dafa disciples have the heart to do something, Master will give us the opportunity so that we can validate the Fa and save sentient beings. As I use computers often, I am quite familiar with computer operations. When our area needed someone to be the coordinator in this regard, another practitioner was selected. At that time, I thought that I was qualified too, but it was a pity that I was not selected. Later, the practitioner transferred to another project, and I became the coordinator.
When I underwent the so-called cellulitis tissue inflammation, I still helped other practitioners fix their computers as usual. One day, while riding my scooter at night, a thought flashed through my mind: “Even if I collapse, I should still help other practitioners fix their computers. Even if I can't study the Fa every day, I still should let other practitioners clarify the truth.” At the moment, tears covered my face. After I calmed down, I enlightened that if I were deceived by this thought, wouldn’t my life be in vain? I am here to help Master validate the Fa, and after the Fa-rectification, I’ll return to my origin. How can I be mistakenly deluded among ordinary people and follow the old forces’ arrangement? Therefore, I negated this notion with righteous thoughts. At the same time, I sent forth a strong righteous thought: “I want to help Master validate the Fa to save more sentient beings. I should cultivate myself better in order to help other practitioners. This is what my mission is.”
Every practitioner has a different cultivation path and experience. With Dafa’s tempering, I believe all of us can find the prehistoric vow we made and fulfill the magnificent mission and responsibility bestowed upon us.
“Anyway, I just want to tell you that, as Dafa disciples, you should know how enormous your responsibility is, and this is not a child’s game. This undertaking has already come to the last stage, and I am extremely worried, yet you still do not treat it seriously. In the end, however, it will be too late even if you cry.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference”)
(Presented at the 2019 Taiwan Fa Conference)