Getting Rid of a Mountain
(Minghui.org) I planned to transfer my registered residence to the city where I worked at the end of the last year. This way I would be eligible to apply for public housing, which would be a great help to me financially.
When I saw the application form, however, it includes an item “Never participated in any organization prohibited by the government” followed by a list of organizations, including Falun Dafa.
I would have to sign and confirm in order to apply. I thought to myself that I couldn't deny that I was a Dafa disciple. I did not apply, of course, and did not transfer my residence. I felt a little disappointed, but I knew that I had done the right thing.
However, this caused a big rift among my relatives, especially my aunt. She couldn't understand why I did that. At first, she scolded me, then she lectured me. She thought it was not a big deal to sign the application, as long as I could get my residence transferred. When I got a public housing unit, I could practice at home. She thought I was foolish not to apply.
My aunt knew about Falun Dafa and had withdrawn from the CCP's organizations, but she had developed a negative opinion of Falun Dafa because of what I did. I was deeply troubled, worrying that she would generate karma for herself, or worse, not be saved. I tried to explain to her twice, but the result wasn't good. Her attitude was not as bad as initially, but her opinion did not change.
Her misunderstanding and negative opinion of Dafa were like a mountain on top of me. I felt that I had to remove it in order to make progress. I asked Master to enlighten me.
Then I realized that I did not explain Falun Dafa well enough to her. I only wanted to explain to her so that I would not feel so much pressure from her. My goal was to help myself, not to save her. My selfishness resulted in her misunderstanding and negative attitude.
I decided that I wanted her to understand why I did it, so that she would have a better understanding of Dafa and Dafa practitioners. When an opportunity came, I explained to my aunt that “Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance is my belief. I cannot forsake my faith for personal gain, nor can I lie against it. I also cannot lie to my own conscience.”
I felt the mountain disappear after I said those words. My aunt was unusually quiet after hearing that. In the end, she told me that she understood. Her attitude changed completely after that.
She became calm when this subject came up again. Because of her, other relatives also changed their attitudes. My cultivation environment became better as a result.