Persistently Looking Inward and Cultivating Myself
(Minghui.org) I would like to share some of my cultivation experiences from the past few years.
Cultivating Myself Amid a Family Tribulation
My husband started a real estate business with his younger brother and another person in August 2014. My husband was the salesperson for two condo units. However, his brother moved into one of them and sold it without notifying my husband.
When he discovered what happened my husband was very upset. He blamed his mother for protecting his younger brother and yelled at her. He demanded that the unit be returned to him. He grabbed a knife and was about to fight with his brother, which terrified his mother.
I was very calm, and I looked inward. I had always wanted to own a house. Because of this, I often criticized my husband for not making enough money. My attachment was one of the causes of this terrible situation.
I am a practitioner, and I should follow the course of nature. If it's mine, then I'll have it; otherwise I won't. Teacher has arranged the best path for me. I don’t need to worry about anything. I dropped my desire for home ownership.
I began to send forth righteous thoughts for my husband to eliminate all the evil factors in other dimensions that controlled him and all the evil beings that were attempting to cause disruption in my family. My husband gradually calmed down.
“Wealth is merely a worldly possession,” I said to him. ‘If it's yours, then it is yours. If it is not yours, then it's not yours. Do not try to force it. If you and your brother got into a brutal fight over a mere property, your mom would be in so much pain.”
I added: “When your father passed away, your younger brother was only nine years old. It wasn't an easy job for your mom to have brought all of you up. Now your brother wants that unit. As an older brother, let him have it.”
My husband calmed down and stepped out the door without saying anything.
My mother-in-law was very touched by my words and appreciated my advice to my husband. I told her that I was able to help because I practice Falun Gong, and my Teacher has taught me to be a good person.
A few years earlier, I had tried to clarified the truth to her. She understood, but she didn’t fully accept Falun Gong. When I asked her to recite, “Falun Dafa is good,” she didn’t wanted to do so.
I took the opportunity to elaborate about Falun Gong. She was very happy and shouted loudly from deep down, “Falun Dafa is good!” My mother-in-law and husband also went on the Minghui website and made solemn declarations that their previous words and actions that were disrespectful to Dafa are null.
Looking Inward About Interference While Saving People
I went to a train station to talk to people about Falun Gong one morning in August 2015. As soon as I pushed my bicycle out the door, a dark bug flew and collided with my left eye. My eye started hurting, and I used a napkin to wipe it. The more I wiped it, the more it hurt. I realized that this was evil interference.
I sent forth righteous thoughts and asked Teacher to strengthen me. In only a few minutes, the pain dissipated, and my eye returned to normal.
While I was speaking to a person about Falun Gong an hour later, a man came over and started yelling at me. I tried to clarify the truth to him. However, he didn't want to listen and continued cursing at me. Other people began surrounding us. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to stop him from committing bad deeds. Gradually, his cursing diminished.
After I returned home that day, I contemplated what had happened: I had been interfered with twice in less than two hours. I needed to look inward to examine myself.
I found several attachments, and I needed to rectify myself:
Attachment to Food
I had complained to my husband that he was not a good cook because he put too much seasoning in the food. He was very upset with me for complaining.
I knew that I was wrong. Master said:
“Eating, but caring not to taste—The palate’s attachments severed.” (“Abiding in the Dao” in Hong Yin)
We eat what is available to us and follow the course of nature. After I corrected myself, the conflict with my husband over this issue stopped.
Cultivating My Speech
I often didn't say what I should say and often said what I shouldn’t. When a practitioner talked about another practitioner's shortcomings, I didn't use the Fa to measure this, but instead went along with the negativity. I did this many times and didn't correct myself.
Now I am clear: I will not allow myself to keep committing this kind of mistake. I also reminded myself that when hearing negative comments, I need to share with the other practitioner that this is not right, based on the Fa.
Taking on Too Many Responsibilities
I considered myself better than others. I often worried that other practitioners couldn't do things well. So I ended up doing everything myself, taking away others’ duties.
During Fa study, I realized that Teacher is taking care of every practitioner's cultivation. Every practitioner's cultivation path is arranged by Teacher.
If a certain task has been arranged for a certain practitioner, he or she could improve their xinxing and eliminate attachments by completing the task. If I were to step in, I would rob another practitioner of a chance to improve.
“I want every Dafa disciple to become a king. Each person is to blaze his own trail, and each person is to validate and reach his own Attainment Status.” (Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005)
Therefore, I began to pay attention to what I said and how I behaved. I encouraged other practitioners to take leading roles, and I assisted the lead practitioners.
Maintaining Righteous Thoughts
“What you eliminate from your own mind are ones which have an effect within the expanse of your own body; at the same time, you need to eliminate the external ones, which are directly related to the dimensions you're in. If you don't eliminate them, then they not only persecute you and restrain you, but also persecute other students, other Dafa disciples.” (“Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A.” in Teaching the Fa at the Conference II)
I keep this passage of Fa in mind, and I always follow it. After I finish doing the exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m., I continue to send forth righteous thoughts for half an hour towards my dimensional fields. I have been doing this on a daily basis for about two years. And I have benefited so much from it.
My mind is very clear after sending righteous thoughts. I can think very logically. I always manage to keep a conscious mind when clarifying the truth to people, and I can deal with all types of people.
Having Compassion During Truth-Clarification
I went to the train station to clarify the truth as usual on April 18, 2016. I saw a man in his 50s sitting on a motorcycle. I handed him a truth-clarification magazine and tried to talk to him. He didn’t accept the magazine, nor did he listen to me.
Later on, other practitioners also came to the station. They all tried to talk to him about Falun Gong, but then ended up walking away as well. He didn't want to speak to any of us.
We were at the station for more than two hours. When we were ready to leave, I saw that the man was still sitting there.
He had been sitting there the entire morning. I knew that he must be waiting there to be saved, as everyone in this world came for the Fa. I needed to be compassionate with him. This was the state of mind a practitioner should have, and the responsibility a practitioner should take in saving people.
I greeted him again: “You have been waiting here the whole morning. I think the train will arrive soon.” He changed his attitude and began to talk to me.
“How much do you make for handing out flyers?” he asked.
“No one has given us a penny, nor do we accept any money. All of us Falun Gong practitioners use our own savings to make these truth-clarification materials. We want to tell the people of the world why Falun Gong is persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).”
He then asked a few more questions: “Why do you want to sue Jiang Zemin, the former Chinese President? Why do you all go everywhere to hand out materials? Why do you ask people to withdraw their memberships?”
I answered all his questions. I also talked to him about how Jiang Zemin has used the military and hospitals to harvest organs from practitioners while they were still alive.
His attitude changed, and he became more supportive. He seemed to understand the truth thoroughly.
Seeing that another being was saved by Dafa, Teacher's poem came to mind:
“Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in springRighteous thoughts can save the people in this world” (“The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos” in Hong Yin Vol. II)
It kept echoing in my mind, as if the words were passing through different levels of my dimensional field.