(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998, and soon I felt as if I had gone through a rebirth. Since then, I have witnessed many extraordinary things.
Most recently, I experienced sickness karma in the form of cancer. This made me realize that it is crucial for a practitioner to have faith in Master and Dafa, immerse oneself in the Fa, have strong righteous thoughts, and truly cultivate.
Fellow practitioners, please remember that sickness is just an illusion. Thus, it is of great importance to always maintain righteous thoughts.
The stronger our faith, the more we will experience the power of Dafa. The more we keep our human notions, the more we will be interfered with.
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Zhuan Falun)
Only when we “completely let go of everything” (Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles) and truly assimilate to the Fa by “studying the Fa and obtaining the Fa” (“Comments Regarding the Fa-Rectification Made at the Falun Dafa Assistants Meeting in Beijing” from Explaining the Content of Falun Dafa), can we see through the illusion of sickness karma.
Poor Cultivation State
Because of my attachments such as a competitive mentality and vanity, I did not take “saving people before catastrophe, racing against the clock” (“Fulfilling the Vow” from Hong Yin III) seriously.
Although I already owned an apartment, I bought another one. I was still doing the three things on the surface, but was consumed by the renovation of the new apartment and placing my child in a good high school. I did not have a calm and clear mind when I studied the Fa.
Thus, I acted like an ordinary person and wanted my family to acquiesce to my demands. My health was poor and besides other illnesses, I had an ear infection for two years. Although I was in pain, I refused to talk about my condition to others.
Dafa had done wonders for my health in the past, so I was convinced that I would be fine, because I had obtained the Fa and Master would take care of me. I forgot that when I began to cultivate, I had a pure heart and assimilated to the Fa. For this I could “gain things naturally without pursuing them” (“Learning the Fa” from Essentials For Further Advancement)
Although I read the Dafa books and did the three things, my cultivation state did not improve. I held on tightly to many of my human desires, refused to listen to anyone, and could not stand being criticized.
Denying the Old Forces' Arrangements
After I got into a serious argument with my father, a non-practitioner, I lost my composure. Immediately, I began to bleed heavily, so I went home.
Upon arrival at my apartment, as no one was home, I decided to do the Dafa exercises. But, the bleeding worsened. My vision became blurry and I felt like I was dying. I was able to call my sister, a practitioner, and alert her that something was wrong with me.
After what seemed like an eternity, I felt that I was floating upwards, which felt wonderful. As I looked down, there were many people who were shouting, “Wake up! Wake up!”
Then, I saw myself sitting on the toilet. At that time, my sister-in-law called my name so loudly that I came back to my body and woke up.
My husband, a non-practitioner, carried me to our bed. He said, “There is not even enough time for a blood transfusion. Calling the ambulance will take even longer.” I continued to bleed.
My younger brother, also a practitioner, called local practitioners to send righteous thoughts for me. As a group we denied the old forces' arrangements, no matter how big my loophole was. I had to correct myself in the Fa.
“I do not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements,” I said. “Master will make arrangements for me.” I decided to only follow Master and Dafa and started reciting poems from Hong Yin.
My nephew, a young practitioner, kept reciting “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Please help my aunt, Master!” Everybody in the room joined in and shouted in unison.
Faith in Dafa Wavers
However, the bleeding continued and I felt that my life hung on a thread and my faith in Dafa started to waver. I finally gave into my family members' demands and agreed to see a doctor.
The doctors diagnosed me with late stage cervical cancer, which had metastasized. They advised that my family prepare for the worst.
I was kept in the dark about the cancer, although the pain had become unbearable. Each second felt like a year. I felt that I was left alone in the immense universe.
The pain was excruciating. Every cell in my body was like a sharp hook that bit into my flesh and my very being, gripping tightly and pulling.
Warning Bell
My mind suddenly awakened from slumber and I thought, “I can't let more sentient beings lose their chance of being saved. I can't let practitioners around me lose their faith in Dafa and their determination in striving forward in Dafa.”
My aunt from my mother's side had cultivated for more than 10 years and never took any medication. She passed away because of sickness karma in the form of cancer. Her death had caused people around her, including family members, to view Dafa in a negative light. They all believed that she died because Falun Dafa forbade people to take medication.
Her death now became a warning bell that rang in my head, “I will not reinforce the negative effect and push people away further. It doesn't matter how hard or how painful it is, I must live.”
Turning Point
In the subsequent weeks, my practitioner relatives took turns to travel with me to a few fellow practitioners' homes in different provinces for short stays. We shared experiences, studied the Fa together, and sent righteous thoughts.
However, I failed to enlighten to hints from Master and went to the hospital again when I felt that I no longer could endure the pain. While hospitalized, I told Master multiple times a day, “Master, please don't give up on me. I want to go back to my origin with you. I know only you can save me. I'm only here to ease the excruciating pain. Those doctors also need Dafa practitioners to save them.”
I was given blood transfusions, which was extremely painful. Every sweat pore in my body was swollen. As soon as the IV needle was taken out. I urinated dark red blood frequently throughout the night, but felt a little bit better each time I lost some blood.
The medical staff was shocked when I told them and ran some tests. The result confirmed that it was indeed blood. Medical experts from this areas gathered to examine the results and none of them had seen anything like this during their medical practice. My radiation therapy was stopped. I had a hunch that it was a good sign. Master was purifying my body.
Illness Illusion Lost Its Grip
While still in the hospital, I continued to recite Master's lectures and poems from Hong Yin, listened to Master's lectures, or read Zhuan Falun. Sometimes I read three lectures a day.
I talked to the patients and their families about Falun Dafa and why the persecution was wrong. I helped them renounce the Communist Party. As I immersed myself into the Fa, I knew that only Dafa could save me.
“...you completely let go of everything, behave like an upstanding and noble Dafa disciple who has no resentment or attachments, and leave it to Master to arrange whether you stay or go.” (Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles)
My doctor finally agreed to discharge me, but told my family to prepare for the worst.
At this point, the many wounds on my inner thighs caused by the radiation therapy had festered. There were also many cuts on my calves, all very painful and itchy. I had lost a lot of weight. Yet, as soon as we got home, I threw away the ointments prescribed by the doctor.
I immersed myself into the Fa and studied every lecture Master had given over the years. I sent righteous thoughts, did the exercises, and talked to my family and friends about Dafa.
Gradually, the painful symptoms disappeared and I went back to work. I came to know how wonderful it is to immerse oneself into the Fa without any human notions. The illness illusion lost its foothold in my field and could no longer manifest itself.
Full Recovery
Before the summer break, the entire staff of my school was scheduled to have physical examinations. That morning, I did the five sets of exercises twice and sent powerful righteous thoughts.
“Today is physical examinations at my work,” I thought. “All you test equipment, you're predestined to be used on a Dafa practitioner and it's also your blessing. You have your mission and responsibility, and find every part of my body to be healthy.”
I continued, “Because I am helping Master in Fa-rectification, saving sentient beings, and validating Dafa, you need to do your part in saving sentient beings. Please remember Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good. You will have a bright future.”
I also sent righteous thoughts to all parts of my body, especially my cervix, and repeated what I had sent to the test equipment. I completely let go of all worries and went to work with a light heart.
Out of 200 employees only a dozen were found to be fully healthy, including me. A close colleague told the doctor about my previous diagnosis before it was my turn. The doctor examined me very carefully and said, “You are super healthy, healthier than most. I would have never guessed that you were diagnosed with cervical cancer before.”
Family Lets Go of Hostile Attitude Towards Dafa
My colleague was so happy for me and shared the news with her husband, the principal at our school. He said excitedly, “Falun Dafa is extraordinary!” and was not worried that anyone could hear him. Now, my colleague also practices Falun Dafa.
My recovery was the topic of the day in our area. Many people learned about Falun Dafa and the wrongful persecution. It also changed my family members' hostile attitude toward Dafa.
My father was in the military and had been brainwashed by the communist regime, but now he also practices Dafa. The practitioners in my family, my parents, my sister, my brother, and my sister-in-law, became even more diligent. We form a strong one body within our family, do the three things well, and do our best to save sentient beings.
I learned through my own experience that when fellow practitioners are going through tribulations, we should not blindly blame and criticize them. The key is to inspire their righteous thoughts.
Category: Improving Oneself
