Cultivating Every Thought
(Minghui.org) When I was studying the Fa and browsing the Minghui website one evening two days ago, I was tired, and I wanted to relax for a short time, so I browsed some ordinary websites. I became interested in several bad messages and images that I came across on those websites. I knew the messages were bad and I wanted to stop reading them, but I was so fascinated that I could not leave the computer. I got dizzy and the attachment of lust and other bad thoughts surfaced. As a result, I did not send forth righteous thoughts. I was full of regret and wanted to cry.
This was not the first time I had behaved like this, and I was distraught for several days after the incident occurred. I felt I did not deserve to study the Fa, to clarify the truth, to send forth righteous thoughts, and all the other things that a Dafa practitioner should do. I stayed in bed and asked myself why I could not let go of lust after so many years of cultivation. I thought that maybe I did not deserve to cultivate any longer. I heard a voice say, “You are an insult to the title of 'Dafa practitioner.' How dare you clarify the truth? You should not study the Fa. How can you eliminate us when you are so bad yourself?”
I could not reply and just felt drowsy. A thought then came into my mind, "I can not stay drowsy and let these things exist in my space. I need to eliminate them." I sat up straight and started to send forth righteous thoughts. However, the disgusting images filled my thoughts and I could not focus. I wanted to calm down, but I could not, as I felt the bad things desperately trying to disturb me. I remembered that Master said, “...each word of 'Buddha Amitabha' shows up before one's eyes." (Zhuan Falun)
I tried to recite the Fa-rectification formula, “The Fa rectifies the cosmos, the evil is completely eliminated,” but I could not recite it fluently, and the words would not show up before my eyes. I wanted to eliminate the bad thoughts, so I recited, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” However, I was interfered with so significantly that I could not even remember what these words looked like. After a while, I suddenly remembered a sticker pasted on the wall in my building that read, “Falun Dafa is Good.” The words were clearly and brightly written in red. They suddenly popped into my mind, and the bad things disappeared immediately.
I continued to think about the banners in the parades overseas. Those golden words of “Falun Dafa is Good” showed up in my mind's eye. I also thought about the banners that fellow practitioners had held in Tiananmen Square. When I thought about a banner that said, “The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos” held by a female practitioner in red, the words showed up in my mind. I immediately read the next words, “The evil is completely eliminated.” I continuously thought about these banners and stickers, and the words on the banners showed up in front of me. I felt myself become stronger and stronger, and the evil influence become weaker and weaker. I finally felt pure and at peace. My excitement was beyond words! A banner had such powerful energy! Thought of the banners had eliminated the bad thoughts in my mind at the moment when I thought about them.
When I look back at this situation, all the interference started as a result of my attachment to comfort. It is so important to cultivate our every thought. The old forces persecute us through our attachments. They want us to feel helpless against our attachments. They want to tear down our will to cultivate and force us to give up. We should deny these arrangements completely and believe in Master and the Fa. We should also remember that all truth-clarification efforts are very powerful and they can eliminate the evil and save sentient beings.