Looking Inward When Facing Interference
(Minghui.org) On the eve before the October holidays, several practitioners and I went to a tourist site in the mountains to hang Falun Dafa banners and post truth-clarifying flyers. Because we had pure hearts of validating the Fa and saving sentient beings, Master protected and supported us along the way. We walked for more than ten hours but did not feel very tired. Things went smoothly and we handed out many copies of anti-censorship software (Freegate) and Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs that we brought with us.
I was still very excited a few days later. But in less than a week, we heard that local government officials had found out what we did, and ordered the police to investigate. A day later, a practitioner told me, “I heard the police are investigating you. They said you were not home that day. I suggest that you stay home for a few days, study the Fa, and send forth righteous thoughts.” I agreed with the practitioner, and thought that I should remain rational while I look for the source of the problem.
On the next morning, I calmed down, studied one chapter of Zhuan Falun, and sent forth righteous thoughts for an hour. In the afternoon, I studied another chapter and sent forth righteous thoughts for one hour. Dafa gave me wisdom and enlightened me. On the surface, we did a lot of truth clarification work on one of the “sensitive dates,” thus the authorities paid more attention to us. If I were moved and followed my human notions, I would have thought about hiding somewhere else or covering up all Falun Dafa items in the house. But after so many trials and hardships, I know that hiding does not solve the problem, and that would be acknowledging the old forces' arrangements and tests.
What attachments have I not let go? I looked back at my actions and words, and I remember the first thing I said upon returning home from the mountains was, “I'm so excited! I did so many things and everything went so well!” I also showed off in front of others after our Fa study.
I realized that I had an attachment to zealotry and wanting to show off. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate these attachments. I told beings in another dimensions, “I'm Master Li's disciple, and I came here to help Master with Fa-rectification. Master is watching me, so I must cultivate well. I'm negating any arrangements and tests made by others. Anyone who is making other arrangements for me are committing a big crime. Now that I've found my attachments, no one is allowed to interfere with me, and will be eliminated.” I also asked Master to help me.
I noticed that my attachments to zealotry and wanting to show off were disintegrated after I sent forth righteous thoughts. The arrangements made by the bad elements to interfere and persecute me had also been dissolved. Everything was back to normal.
As I write this article, I'm thinking about the previous times I was arrested. I have realized that one of the the reasons why I could not negate the old forces' persecution was because I didn't look inward to find my shortcomings. Although I tried to negate the interference and continue doing what I was supposed to do, I didn't have righteous thoughts, and was merely attempting to be “courageous.” I couldn't negate the arrangements, and invited more persecution.
Had I looked inward and sent forth righteous thoughts, and still could not break through the interference, I think it would be because I did not firmly believe in Master and the Fa, and my actions still acknowledged the old forces' arrangements.
The above is my own understanding on the matter. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.