(Clearwisdom.net) To assist Master with saving sentient beings over the past several years, I have distributed several thousand truth-clarification DVDs. After I clarify the truth to people, some wave goodbye, some smile and some shout, "Falun Dafa is good!" I am truly happy for them.
I started practicing Falun Gong in March 1998. Before that, I had a blood vessel disease in my brain and had to take Chinese remedies and western medications every day. I also had to have dialysis twice a year, which cost more than 8,000 yuan. After I began the practice of Falun Gong, Master purified my body, and all my illnesses disappeared. Master gave me a second life!
1. Assisting Master with Fa-rectification and Saving Sentient Beings
On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), under Jiang Zemin's leadership, began persecuting Falun Gong and fabricating lies to defame our Master. I was determined to continue practicing, and our local practitioners continued with group Fa-study. One day when our group of nine practitioners were studying the Fa together, more than ten CCP officials rushed in and attempted to confiscate our Dafa books, but we refused to give them up. Several days later, the assistant of our practice site was arrested, and we immediately transferred Master's picture and Dafa books from the assistant's home to a safer place.
I twice went to Beijing to appeal for justice for Falun Gong, and I also went there to send forth righteous thoughts on three other occasions. After the staged Tiananmen Square self-immolation incident, many people began harboring hatred towards Dafa. My close friends and coworkers stayed away from me and didn't dare to interact with me, thinking that doing so might bring them trouble. Although I clarified the truth to them, they didn't listen at the time.
Master later published the article "Hurry Up And Tell Them,"
"As Dafa disciples clarify the truth
Sharp swords shoot forth from their mouths
Tearing open the rotten demons' lies
Lose no time and save them,
hurry up and tell them"
(Hong Yin, Volume II)
I began distributing DVDs that clarified the facts about Falun Gong to street vendors. Whenever I obtained new DVDs, I distributed them to people and asked them to pass their copy to another person once they viewed it. Once in a while, I checked back with the vendors for feedback or to ask if they needed more materials for their customers. A fruit vendor once said, "Most people understood the truth after watching the DVD. They realize that they have been deceived by the CCP's lies. Many people even wanted to go and protest after watching the DVD. On the way home from work, people were still asking me if I had any DVDs left."
One day, on my way to the market to sell steamed buns, I noticed a handicapped person staring at me. I handed him a steamed bun for free. When he thanked me, I replied, "No problem. I'm a Falun Dafa practitioner." Upon hearing that, he silently stared at me for a long time and then asked in a low voice, "What is the self-immolation thing about?" When I explained the facts, he was shocked and said, "I have seen banners on trees in the past that said 'Falun Dafa is good,' but I didn't understand it. Now I know what has happened." I handed him a truth-clarification DVD, and he said he would watch it at home.
Another time, I went to the countryside to distribute truth-clarification materials. On my way back late at night, I saw a motor-tricycle parked in the middle of the road. As I came closer and turned on my flashlight, I saw two women in their thirties, one of them holding a toddler and the other repairing the vehicle in the dark. I kept the flashlight on to help them and clarified the truth. One woman said, "There are also Falun Gong practitioners in my village. They are good people, not like what the CCP propaganda says." After the driver finished fixing the vehicle, I gave her a truth-clarification DVD.
Since most of the local practitioners live in the city and relatively few live in the countryside, I have been traveling to the countryside and remote areas either by bicycle or by motorcycle with another practitioner to distribute truth-clarification materials for the past several years.
My cultivation journey has been bumpy. I was detained eight times and sent to a forced labor camp twice. With Master's help, however, I was able to get out with righteous thoughts every time.
2. Breaking Through the Test of Material Interest by Improving Xinxing and Looking Inward
People at the workplace know that I had poor health before I started practicing Falun Gong, due to a head injury from a work-related car accident. One official offered me a disability retirement package, which had better benefits than regular retirement. At the time I didn't refuse it, thinking that it was what I had originally wanted. I thought that I didn't have an attachment to illness and used this excuse to cover up my attachment to material interests. During the process of applying for disability retirement, my health condition became worse with each passing day. I could no longer sit in a double-crossed leg position while meditating, and later even the single-crossed leg position became difficult. My face began to swell, and I had difficulty walking due to the pain in my left leg. Facing this situation, I had no choice but to look within.
A month prior to the start of my retirement pension, I was asked to have a physical examination at my workplace. I told the official that I would not have the exam. Seeing my determination, the official said, "It is alright for you to skip the physical exam. Just go to the labor division and let them know that you do not have any sickness. We will take care of the rest." However, since I had intentionally applied for the disability-related retirement package, I was still trying to cover up my attachment to material interests.
Upon returning home, my physical condition worsened. Then I remembered Master's words upon waking up from a nap, "If you ask for an illness, it will come inside your body." (Zhuan Falun)
I thought: Since a practitioner's body is purified by Master, how can I still consider myself disabled? Plus, we are cultivating Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. How truthfully am I behaving by doing this?
I finally realized that I should not have applied for disability-related retirement. I went to the responsible officials and told them that I could not apply for that kind of retirement because I was a healthy person. They didn't understand this, since many people look forward to such opportunities and my application had already been processed to a large extent. However, I insisted on withdrawing my application, and they had no choice but to ask me to sign the documents verifying annulment. Just as I signed the documents, my physical condition improved, and all of the symptoms disappeared. I was at a very critical point at that time, since the old forces almost took advantage of my attachment to material interests.
From now on, I will be determined to do the three things well. I will cultivate well, remain diligent in assisting Master with Fa-rectification and saving sentient beings, and fulfill my prehistoric vows. I would like to express my gratitude to Master.
The above are my current understandings. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate. Heshi!
Category: Improving Oneself
