Overcoming the Idea That a Sharing Article is too Difficult to Write

(Minghui.org) When I began writing my sharing article several weeks ago for the sharing conference of the Shen Yun project in France, I immediately thought of the fact that we must not take important people and projects as “special” models, at the risk of putting them in danger.

Indeed, reading the article on Minghui entitled “Don’t Treat ‘Special’ Projects and Well-Known Practitioners with Special Human Consideration,” made me realize that I was perhaps too attached, or at least inappropriately attached, to the Shen Yun project.

The article quotes Master’s words:

“Also, after seeing the demeanor of the students who travel with me, some people will imitate them without realizing whether they are good or bad. In fact, it does not matter who the person is—there is only one Fa. Only by observing this Dafa can one meet the genuine standard. The people who work by my side have not received any special treatment and are the same as everyone else; they are just staff members of the Research Society. Do not develop those attachments. Oftentimes, upon forming these attachments, you may play the role of unintentionally undermining Dafa.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)

Awareness Before Writing My Sharing

Several months ago, I realized that I had attachments to certain aspects of the project. In particular, I watched the “Three Musketeers” videos a lot, believing them to be a healthy program, given that they were made by Dafa practitioners.

On reflection, I felt a kind of unease watching them, but I couldn’t identify what it was. Then I forgot about it, as I was too absorbed in my work and Dafa projects.

Trying to Write, But Stumbling and Giving Up

As I tried to concentrate on writing my sharing, I felt that everything that came to my mind was negativity; everything I reflected on was tinged with resentment, anger, bitterness, and bad thoughts.

I tried to change my perspective to reflect and focus on these negative points, to eliminate them, but I couldn’t, and only the negative issue remained. I had nothing positive to write about, for such a wonderful project; it was very unsettling and worried me.

I decided not to write anything, because it seemed to me that it was neither respectful to Master nor correct to write a sharing that contained very negative ideas. I took this as an “excuse,” thinking that since I had nothing positive to write, it was better not to write anything.

Receiving Help

Some time later, a fellow practitioner asked me how I was progressing with my sharing, and I confessed that I wasn’t going to write one, for the reasons mentioned above.

I wasn’t very comfortable with the idea, but I couldn’t overcome the kind of shackles that were preventing me from writing it. This fellow practitioner helped me see things more clearly and break through some of my negative thoughts, which allowed me to delve deeper into my thinking.

She told me that several of us were in the same situation, stuck in writing our sharings. I suddenly had an understanding that all this negativity, these more or less strong attachments to the project itself and to some of its actors, might have something to do with the recent attacks on Shen Yun by pro-CCP (Chinese Communist Party) media.

Indeed, we know that our thoughts are matter, so if we accumulate negative matter it could make the project a target for attacks by pro-CCP media outside of China. If, on the contrary, we reject this negativity, if we reject these bad ideas, if we eliminate this dark and harmful matter, it can only benefit our entire environment.

Furthermore, if too few people manage to write a sharing, it seems to me that this would keep us apart from one another, thus preventing us from helping one another. This is one of the evil’s goals, and we should firmly reject the old forces’ arrangements.

Questions

If we only feel negativity, the evil surely has something to do with it. If I only feel negativity, am I not acting—or rather, reacting—like a victim? Can a Dafa practitioner consider themselves a victim?

We know the responsibility we have towards our environment, whatever it may be. So, if the environment is under attack, aren’t we, at least in part, responsible? If my thinking is only negative, am I feeding the evil and its attacks?

Resolutions – Conclusion

Through this ordeal, I realized that negative thoughts are not good for us, or for projects, because they can have a decisive impact on their smooth running.

Dafa practitioners must truly help each other break the attachments that bind us. We are not puppets of the evil, who want to destroy us.

As Master told us in Zhuan Falun:

“Good or evil comes from that instant thought.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

Thinking about these words I realize that every thought I have must merge with the Fa. Likewise, I bear some responsibility for the attacks on Shen Yun, for we are a whole body.

We should not hesitate to ask for help from our fellow practitioners, for they can help us identify our shortcomings and help us rid ourselves of attachments. Master has reminded us many times to cultivate as one body, and it seems to me that asking for help or writing a sharing article, despite obstacles and difficulties, is part of this.

I sincerely apologize to Master for taking so long to identify the nature of these negative elements, which are not my true nature. I am resolved to eliminate them once and for all, and to cultivate to the end, firmly and fearlessly.

I thank Master for his immense compassion and kind help. I thank my fellow practitioners for their kind listening.