Cultivating Myself Amidst Adversity

(Minghui.org) I have cultivated in Dafa for 24 years. I would like to share some of my cultivation experiences with other practitioners, mainly how I cultivated my xinxing.

I Didn’t Get Upset When My Husband Humiliated Me in Public

My husband was the head of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) committee of a state-run enterprise. He was always out eating, gambling, and drinking. My son joked, “Mom, you love someone who never comes home!” Using my husband’s own words, my son said, “I’ve drunk more than the amount of water in a lake!” With such a drunkard for a husband, one can imagine what kind of life the wife would face.

My husband has been a member of the 610 Office and often humiliated me regardless of the occasion or event. He used the power of the CCP to indulge in his perverted pleasures. Once at his birthday banquet, he had no scruples about bringing in his “mistresses” to hug him, drink, and party in public. After the brief opening ceremony at his banquet, he left me and went to flirt with his lovers.

During such a situation, no matter how reasonable I would be or how I would take the overall situation into consideration, if anything wasn’t in line with his ideas, he would recklessly slap the table, curse, and humiliate me in public. Facing a husband doing such things I had become long accustomed to it. I didn’t interpret it as him humiliating me, but rather as him demonstrating the lowliness and nastiness of a member of the CCP. Who he was really humiliating was the CCP; it was a most genuine and shameless demonstration of the character of the Communists.

I’m a Dafa cultivator, so I remained composed and faced it with a smile. During the banquet, I got away from him and found the opportunity to talk to his mistresses, “As a woman, one needs to respect oneself; otherwise, one would only be played by others!” As to relatives and friends, I thanked them one by one, and halfway through the banquet, I took a picture of each one of them while complimenting them and expressing my gratitude. People would show sincere respect towards me and be supportive of me. Looking into their eyes, I saw that deep down they knew what was right from wrong.Master said,

“Forbearance is the key to improving one’s xinxing. To endure with anger, grievance, or tears is the forbearance of an everyday person who is attached to his concerns. To endure completely without anger or grievance is the forbearance of a cultivator.” (“What is Forbearance (Ren)?” Essentials for Further Advancement)

In order to validate Dafa, I told them a story in the hope of helping them change, “After the end of the Ten Thousand Immortals Formation, Daoist Hongjun gave his three disciples Taishang Laojun, Primordial Heavenly Father, and Tongtian Sect Leader a pill to take. After they took the pill, he told them, ‘I’ve given you a time bomb, and this bomb will only explode when you’re angry!’” All those who heard the story laughed.

After my husband got drunk and was carried away from the banquet, I gave a USB drive filled with truth-clarification information to every guest, and I told them: “The contents on this drive are what you have been waiting for, it is truly precious! Please check it out when you get home! Whoever didn’t quit the CCP, please quickly quit it to ensure your safety.” I reminded them to sincerely recite: “Falun Dafa is wonderful! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is wonderful!” when facing any tribulation.

In all kinds of such events, many participants decided to quit the CCP organizations and ensure their safety. I knew it was Master and the Fa that saved them.

Slapped Hard Three Times

One time, my husband drove his gambling friend’s car to pick up our granddaughter and me. Hanging in his car I saw two pictures of Chairman Mao (the former CCP leader) from the Cultural Revolution period. For the sake of my granddaughter’s safety, and to ensure the safety of his friend’s family, as soon as my husband got out, I removed the pictures.

I told his friend the reason behind my doing so. I said: “The CCP is the most evil devil, whereas Mao was the incarnation of the demon CCP.” However, his friend, who was controlled by the CCP specter, didn’t want to let the pictures go, fought with me to get them back, and they also told my ill-tempered husband about this.

Upon hearing that, my husband went crazy, and he was upset when he saw me. He raised his hand and slapped me three times, to the point that my head was numb. I knew it was revenge from the CCP demon and I didn’t take his beating to heart. I did not feel hatred afterward, and I remembered what Master said: “...so you did not strike back when hit or talk back when cursed at.” (Lecture Given at the Conference in Sydney)

My Husband Attempted to Steal My Truth-clarification Materials

I had many opportunities to go on sightseeing trips with my husband. No matter where I went, I would bring the truth-clarifying materials with me and hand them out to give people opportunities to be saved.

One day we arrived at our destination and checked into a hotel. I then went out to hand out the truth materials. After that, I took a cab and headed back to the hotel. On this trip, I brought a lot of materials with me. With the amount I had left, I planned to give them to people with predestined relationships.

Unexpectedly, late that night, I saw my husband tiptoeing and looking into the package of the truth materials. He took out the materials, opened the window, and was about to toss them out. I saw it, and scolded him, “What are you doing?” He was so scared that he quickly went back to bed. He covered himself with a quilt and remained quiet for the entire night.

A Miraculous Printer

I set up a family materials production site in my house 17 years ago. I recall that when I first printed the materials, I didn’t even know how to tear off the seal on the ink cartridge. As soon as I put the ink cartridge into the printer, it began to work on its own. Then quickly after, eight pieces of paper with golden lotus flowers printed on them came out of the printer. I was dumbfounded and quickly pressed “Stop.” With that, only half of a golden lotus flower was printed on a page. Then the printer printed another paper with the character “workplace” on it.

My mind couldn’t keep up as my eyes gazed at the printer. I watched as it printed more than 70 copies of the truth materials in various colors. I knew it was Master who was encouraging me to distribute them at my workplace. I hung each one of them on the doorknob of the offices in my office building.

Gradually, I gained some experience, and I downloaded the materials from the Minghui website, printed them, and distributed them in the city where I lived.

Later, I found that my printer didn’t work properly sometimes, but I couldn’t find the reason. Master gave me a hint to have me look at the cord connecting the computer to the printer; it had many small holes in it. I understood it was the evil using needles to pierce the copper core wires in the connection between the computer and the printer. However, for a long time while I didn’t know that the printer, my Fa-weapon, was wounded that badly, it still displayed extraordinary capabilities. It had printed the truth messages on over 100,000 paper money bills, which contributed greatly to people learning the truth.

Later, I switched to a large-scale Epson printer with a continuous supply of color ink coming in 48 sets. It was more efficient, and the print quality was very good. I used photo paper to print some single items, and the result was just like exquisite calligraphy or a painting. They were so colorful, and the content was rich, which was well received by people. Even some government staff said, “Falun Dafa is truly smart. The materials they made are very colorful with rich content. Ours can’t compare!”

Remembering to Cultivate Myself While Saving Sentient Beings

For the past 24 years, in a complex and strict environment under the CCP, amidst complicated conflicts, facing being arrested, sentenced, harassed, having my pension deducted, as well as my relatives taking my property, my company assets being confiscated, houses being taken away, and so on, I have kept using Dafa to measure myself. When the other party appeared to have any bad thoughts and actions towards me, I would often use them as a mirror to see what kind of bad things were in me.

I constantly looked inward for my hidden attachments, rectified myself, and got rid of them.

When looking inward, I found many of my attachments. At the beginning of my cultivation, I didn’t know how to cultivate, I would often find my husband’s faults, and I would feel wronged, suffered, and desperate. I used to consider myself to be competent: I had a strong financial background and owned assets, and I treated my in-laws and siblings well. When my brother-in-laws took all my in-laws’ assets, I didn’t take it to heart. I’ve been in good health, especially since I cultivated in Dafa. But I wondered why my husband kept treating me like that! Now I understand that it was me who didn’t treat myself as a cultivator, nor did I acknowledge that whatever he did in front of me was for me to improve. I should really thank him!

I still had resentment towards people who previously harmed me, thinking it was all their fault. This wasn’t true cultivation, but rather I took myself as an ordinary person, I didn’t use the Fa to measure myself, nor did I cultivate myself. I should face adversity and unfairness from a cultivator’s perspective and cultivate myself. I would also need to eliminate the idea of escaping from China that I recently developed, and I should cultivate solidly on this land in order to save the precious Chinese people!