My Insights During a Life and Death Test

(Minghui.org) The 2024 November election was an important event in U.S. politics, so our media wanted to cover it. I was invited to be part of the program and host my own segment during the election night broadcast. I agreed, and after rehearsals and much planning by the production team, Election Day finally came.

My experience took place that day, starting around 4 p.m., as I began getting ready to go to the office for the live broadcast.

The Test Begins

While I dressed for the event I felt my world suddenly change. I felt like I was playing a role in a movie. Choosing my outfit and deciding what to wear felt monumental, just like a vivid, dramatic scene in a movie where the character is choosing his final outfit before he goes off to die.

The feeling was intense. I got on the train and began reading Hong Yin.

However, suddenly, and seemingly out of nowhere, I had the strangest (and perhaps) most intense experience of my life. My heart felt like a plastic shopping bag that’s squeezed so hard the air inside gets trapped into a bulge and then continues to be squeezed until the bag pops.

It felt like this was happening to one of my heart valves. It was squeezed and then suddenly burst. I immediately thought, “Oh, geez, that’s not good.” Within the next minute my body felt increasingly cold and clammy. I thought, “Oh man, is this the feeling of losing blood internally?”

Then I tasted blood in my mouth, and I thought, “Oh, that’s not good. That’s really not good.”

At that point, I looked up at the rest of the train car, and I realized that there was an arrangement for me to die here. I strongly felt as though there was an arrangement in place, where I collapsed in the train car—and I was either hospitalized or I died.

I tried to focus my eyes, concentrate, and continue reading Hong Yin, but I couldn’t. All these thoughts were coming into my head, like: “Oh, you’re having a straight-up heart attack.”

But then, fortunately, there was Master’s arrangement.

The day before I read, “Cultivation Insanity” in Lecture Six of Zhuan Falun, and this sentence stood out to me:

“Then they blindfolded him and scratched his wrist once. (He was not at all cut and bleeding.) A water faucet was turned on so that he could hear water dripping, and he thus thought that it was his blood that was dripping. The man died shortly afterward. In fact, he was not made to bleed one bit—it was the tap water that was dripping. His psychological factors caused his death.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)

Because I read this sentence the day before, it was strongly present in my mind. I began to repeat this part over and over in my mind. As I was repeating this Fa over and over again, thoughts kept coming into my mind, like: You know you feel the blood coming out. You can taste the blood. Don’t kid yourself. You know what this is. You just need to lean forward and get these people on the train to help you.

But I just kept repeating the Fa, and as I did, I realized that this piece of Fa was acting as a supernormal ability. The image I saw in my head was that in another dimension, an Old Force being was dragging his index finger around my heart. I could feel the exact point where his finger was making contact with my heart. He wanted to use his finger to pierce through my heart in that dimension into this human dimension. If he had been successful, I probably would have had a stroke.

All that he needed was for me to accept the notion that this was true, and he would be able to do it. If I accepted the notion that he was trying to put into my head was true, then his finger would have actually entered this dimension and cause me to have a stroke.

But because I had this piece of Fa in my mind, what I saw was that this Fa was literally preventing anything from happening. The place where the Old Force being’s finger would pierce my heart was physically blocked by the Fa like a forcefield.

As this was happening, I was having other human thoughts. The Old Forces kept sneaking in human thoughts, such as: “If I die, my child will grow up without a father.”

To that thought, I immediately responded: “Don’t think about that. My son has his own arrangement in life. That’s not why I’m here. My lifetime is devoted to saving people.”

This battle went on for a long time. I was strong for a while, and resisted the attack, and thought I overcame it, but then a “secondary thought” would come. The “secondary thought” was accepting the arrangement in a weird, different way: “Oh, wow. The test passed, but my heart is damaged.”

These “secondary thoughts” were hard to overcome, because they had the appearance of being my real thoughts. But they were actually fake. I had to reject them and remind myself that: “No, even that’s not true. Nothing is happening. This is just a completely false arrangement. There is literally no injury.”

When the train got to the next stop, I thought that I was very thirsty. I felt like I was dying of thirst, but I didn’t have water with me.

I thought about getting off the train in order to buy some water. But then I realized that this too was an evil arrangement, because if I got off the train I would arrive late to the event.

I continued sitting there. The doors closed, and the train began moving to the next stop. This again took forever, and the constant battle between myself and the Old Forces continued.

At this point, I realized that besides targeting just myself, this arrangement was also targeting the election-night production. I realized that if I passed out on the train, the program would be affected and they would have to reschedule many things. If I were hospitalized it would create a lot of additional burdens for everyone.

When I realized this part of the arrangement, I strengthened my willpower. I made it clear that I didn’t want to disturb the people who worked so hard on the program. I didn’t want to disturb the production in any way.

Eventually, the train made it to the final stop, I got off, walked to the office, got changed, and recorded my segments as if nothing happened.

My Insights

1. The test was, in my opinion, ultimately a test of my belief in the Fa. As long as I held firmly to the Fa, nothing could hurt me. However, I needed to have the Fa in my mind. If the Fa is not readily available in my mind, it’s very hard to discern that the thoughts being placed into my head are fake. Without the Fa as the standard, nothing else can help to distinguish real from fake.

2. My initial thoughts were human. This is a result of lax Fa Study. If my initial thoughts were strong rejections of the arrangement, there would have been less of a need for a test like this.

3. After reflecting on this experience, I had a deeper understanding of the supernormal abilities Master mentioned in Lecture Seven:

“With regard to the supernormal abilities for curing illnesses, I would say that there are over one thousand kinds, and that there are as many supernormal abilities as illnesses.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)

At my level, I could see that a “heart attack” manifests in another dimension as a being from that other dimension who is trying to interfere with our bodies in this human dimension. The supernormal ability that’s designed against it, is like a forcefield that blocks the finger from being able to push through. I actually felt this. It came in the form of that passage of Fa, and manifested as a shield against this “illness.”

Reflecting on it further, I think that after a practitioner reaches the realm of Arhat, he will no longer suffer from illness karma. (This is my limited understanding regarding that piece of Fa.)

4. The reason I wanted to share this experience with everyone is because, while I was on that train going through the ordeal, I remembered several other practitioners’ sharings about going through something similar. And even though I didn’t quite remember the details of their situations, it gave me some encouragement to have heard their experiences. I hope sharing my experience helps someone in the future.

Thank you, everyone!