(Minghui.org) When my son was born in the 1980s, the doctor had to use forceps to deliver him and his optic nerve was damaged. When he was three, he became blind in one eye and the doctor said his other eye was also at risk.
For many years, I felt guilty about my son. I thought that if I had only agreed to a Cesarean Section, he would be fine. As he grew up, I kept blaming myself.
After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I knew that practitioners’ families would also receive blessings. I told myself that I needed to study the Fa (teachings) and do the exercises well. I believed that by cultivating myself well, I could bring blessings to my son and make up for my mistake.
Sometimes I felt suffocated by guilt. I felt overwhelmed and couldn’t get over it. When I read articles about how Master treated practitioners’ family members, I always felt regret that my son did not have this opportunity.
For many years, I failed to realize this fundamental attachment. At the end of last year, I came across a sharing article by an Argentinian practitioner. She said, “I also thought I didn’t have a sentimental attachment to my children, but I was lying to myself. Everything to do with raising them, or disciplining them moved my heart. I even wept when my husband set limits for them.”
I was shocked to hear this. I suddenly saw my own attachment and strong pursuit to get something from Dafa. What a selfish, filthy heart!
I understood things even better when Master published the article “How Humankind Came To Be.”
Master said,
“Everything that happens in one’s life—whether it seems warranted or not—is, in reality, the karmic consequence of what one did in one’s past lives, for better or for worse. The amount of blessings and virtue that one built up in one’s past lives determine what fortune is in store in this lifetime, or perhaps the next.” (“How Humankind Came To Be”)
With this understanding of the karmic relationship of things, I was able to let go of my attachment and pursuit. To my surprise, when I changed, my son’s condition also improved.
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