Illness Tribulation Alerts Me and Helps Me Cultivate Diligently

(Minghui.org) In August 2022, my sisters invited me on a tour and I thought that this was a good chance for me to tell them about the persecution. As they had diabetes, they had to routinely test their glucose level. They tested my glucose level and it was nearly 30 mmol/L. However, I had no diabetes symptoms. I just fell sleepy easily.

This shocked my son and he made me go to the hospital for a check-up. I was diagnosed with diabetes and brought back a big bag of Western and Chinese medicines. My son watched me and made sure I took the medications and injections every day. Initially, I was a bit dazed. Under my son’s watchful eye, I took the medicine. After two days I felt that this was wrong. I thought that my diabetes was a sign of getting rid of my karma. Cultivation is a serious matter. I felt the reason I had diabetes was because there was something wrong with my cultivation.

I have practiced Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. I thought that I had been cultivating myself and doing the three things. After my son got married and had a child, I looked after the child and helped them with housework. I wanted to use my behavior to show that practitioners are good people. However, I was so busy helping them that I could not keep up with my Fa study, practice the exercises, or do things to assist Master Li (Dafa’s founder) in Fa-rectification and saving people. Sometimes when I was tired and felt like relaxing, I even watched television. Slacking off and seeking comfort gave the old forces a loophole and my body showed symptoms of diabetes.

I told my son that I was not sick, I was eliminating karma. When he saw that I no longer took the medicine he got mad. He made such a fuss that my daughter-in-law and grandchild were scared and kept crying. I felt tired both mentally and physically. Friends and relatives all attempted to persuade me, saying that if I did not take the medication to control my blood glucose level, I would suffer from complications.

This constant pressure made it hard for me to breathe. I felt that at the last phase of cultivation, such serious illness symptoms actually showed up on me: Would my relatives and friends still think Falun Dafa is great?

I dreamed that I saw my son holding a piece of paper. After I woke up, I thought, my son signed an agreement with the old forces and they are making use of him to create tribulations for me. I sent righteous thoughts and I asked Master to give me a chance. I will start anew to do well, complete my mission, fulfill my vow, and follow Master home. I said to Master, “If this is my karma, I will bear the hardship and repay it. If it’s persecution by the old forces then I will definitely not accept it. If I have attachments in my cultivation and did not do well, I will correct them on my cultivation path.”

I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate all the old forces’ elements that were controlling my son. I strengthened my Fa study.

I did not take the medications or the injections. I thought that I had already let go of this attachment. My son’s attitude changed. He just said, “Just keep checking your blood glucose level.” Once, he did not go to work in the morning and watched me check my blood glucose level to be 12.7 mmol/L. Why didn’t it drop to the normal level yet? It must be because I still thought I had diabetes.

I examined my every thought to see what was behind it. Perhaps I did not believe in Master and the Fa one hundred percent. I had taken the path that the old forces arranged for me. I always thought of how I could overcome this illness tribulation as soon as possible. For example, I avoided sugar. If 0.01% of me does not believe in Master and the Fa, that will be a loophole for the old forces to make use of. Therefore, my blood glucose remained high instead of coming down.

I understood that in order to believe in Master and the Fa fully, I must change my notions. Everything is under Master’s control. All the old forces’ arrangements will not have any effect. I am handing myself to Master and Master will take charge of my everything.

While I was doing spring cleaning before the Chinese New Year, I found a big bag of injections, and Chinese and Western medicines worth over a thousand Yuan ($145). I thought: I should sell them. I immediately corrected this attachment to gain and benefit and threw all of the medicines away. Afterward, I felt so relieved.

During the Chinese New Year, friends and relatives gathered. Everyone saw my high spirits and heard that my blood glucose level returned to normal without taking any injections or medications. They all felt that Falun Dafa is really amazing.

It took me nearly six months to get rid of these fake diabetes symptoms. Master kept reminding and helping me. I looked within and found that I have attachments such as fear, complaints, and hatred, seeking comfort, fame, gains, emotions, and the elements of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture.

Some attachments are really stubborn. Although I no longer watch television, I watch some short videos on my mobile phone while I eat. I know very well that I should give up this attachment but I still do it. It was only a few days ago, I had a dream. In the dream, I just could not find my home. Only then did I really wake up. Master saw that I was not diligent in my cultivation so he knocked me awake. I know that this attachment is not the real me.

It is only now that I understand why Master kept emphasizing that Dafa practitioners must study the Fa more right from the start. We are beings from the old universe. Only through studying the Fa, cultivating ourselves based on the Fa, and cleansing ourselves with Master’s Fa can we assimilate to Falun Dafa’s principles and take a righteous cultivation path. When I slightly relax my main consciousness, I am directed by all sorts of notions and disturbed by all sorts of sentient attachments.

I studied the Fa more, sent more righteous thoughts, and persisted in practicing the exercises at 3 a.m. every morning. Thank you Master for enlightening me continuously, and helping me to become diligent in my cultivation.

We practitioners shoulder the mission to save people. Master’s article “How Humankind Came To Be” is saving mankind. I was shocked the first time I read it. I immediately printed out the 938th issue of Minghui Weekly, in which the article was included, and gave the magazine to my friends and relatives. I urged those who had not quit the CCP and its youth organizations to quickly do so.

I told my relatives’ children to not believe the lies that are promoted by the CCP. I visited my former colleagues' and classmates’ homes, including those who moved away (as many of them do not go online) to deliver Master’s articles to them.

When I tell people about the persecution and help them quit the CCP and its youth organizations, I will hand them the 938th issue of Minghui Weekly. They are very happy and say, “Thank you!” I reply, “Please remember: ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.'”

These are my recent cultivation experiences. Kindly correct me if there is any room for improvement.