Looking Within Over Little Things

(Minghui.org) The day before the winter solstice, my elder sister called me and asked me to buy some sweet dumplings and bring them over to her house. So I went and we chatted for a while. My sister brought up a quarrel between us sisters and our brother that happened two months ago. She said, “I thought it was over and I no longer talked about it. But some people are still upset about it.”

I thought that since my sister took the initiative to mention it, I would explain and clear things up. I didn’t expect that talking about it would reveal my attachments.

Master said, 

“Who’s Right, Who’s Wrong

As a cultivatorOne always looks for one’s own faults’Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectivelyThere’s no way to skip ordeals, big or small[During a conflict, if you can remember:]“He’s right,And I’m wrong,”What’s to dispute?” (Hong Yin III)

My sister was acting as a reflection of my long-buried attachments. My sister was acting as a mirror, clearly showing me my attachments.

I felt in low spirits after I got home and couldn’t lift myself up. My child, a little practitioner, asked me, “Mom, are you in a bad mood?” I answered, “A little bit.”

After reading the Fa in the evening, I shared my experience with my little practitioner, who responded in a serious tone, “Look within. Go study the Fa. How could anyone hold onto grudges for so many years?” I was stunned. Right! How could anyone hold grudges for so many years?

Things from the past that I had never mentioned to anyone had been churned up again because of what my sister said. After looking within, I found attachments of resentment, competitiveness, the attachment of blaming others, enjoying being angry, and not wanting to be criticized. Just as I slowly found these attachments, a cloud of black qi above my head instantly dissipated and the area became bright. My heart felt at ease.