Lesson Learned from Not Guarding My Speech

(Minghui.org) I was about to study the Fa one afternoon in May when I suddenly felt dizzy and lost strength in my left arm and leg. I have undergone sickness karma elimination several times since I began to cultivate Dafa, but never with such pronounced symptoms.

I put Zhuan Falun down and tried to walk, but lost my balance and ran into the wall. The symptoms appeared to be like those of a stroke. As a Falun Dafa practitioner, I knew I should not be afraid. Master Li Hongzhi (Dafa's teacher) would protect me, and I would be fine. I realized that this could be a xinxing test he arranged for me.

I wanted to lie down and take a break. I then realized that what I should do is send forth righteous thoughts and ask Master Li to help me overcome this test.

Did I have attachments that the old forces were taking advantage of? I calmed down and began to look within. What had I done in the past few days which was not in accordance with the Fa? I searched carefully, then suddenly the phrase “Guarding Your Speech” came to mind.

I remembered chatting about the neighbors to my family that day. The couple did not get along and quarreled frequently. They were planning to file for a divorce, even at their advanced age. I got excited talking about this to my family. I was badmouthing them and overzealous. This was not how a Dafa disciple should behave.

I used what strength I had to go up to Master’s portrait. I pressed my hands together in heshi (prayer pose) and said, “Dear Master, I made a mistake today. I just read the Fa, but I failed to do things according to the standards of the Fa and did not guard my speech.”

As soon as I confessed, I immediately felt heat flow through my entire body. I became relaxed. What had appeared as sickness was now gone. Tears of gratitude rolled down my cheeks.

This demonstrated to me that we must cultivate diligently. A lack of righteous thoughts will cause a practitioner to fall. The old forces exploited my loophole of not guarding speech and took advantage of me.

I am grateful for Master’s salvation. Only by cultivating diligently can I repay him! Please correct me if there is something inappropriate.