Cultivating as Though I Just Began Practicing: Looking Within is Key to Making Breakthroughs

(Minghui.org) I am nearly 80-years-old and I was fortunate to begin practicing Falun Dafa in 1995. Before that I suffered from all kinds of illnesses and nearly died. Less than three months after I began practicing, all my illnesses were gone and my blurred vision had returned to normal. I could even read very small fonts clearly. And even more, my almost 90-degree humpback due to lumbar disc herniation was straightened.

I came to U.S. from China in 2014 and began helping at a truth-clarification site. Since the site had a fixed time and location, I felt restrained due to my habit of doing things at my own pace. I also encountered several unexpected and difficult-to-understand conflicts during the process which greatly affected me.

I did not look within as I never had conflicts with other practitioners before. This was a big omission in my xinxing. The more I looked outward when conflicts occurred, the more uncomfortable the situation became. Although I did not have any disputes with fellow practitioners on the surface, in my heart I felt unsettled. This went on for a few years—I did not truly cultivate diligently nor do the three things Master told us to do well. I really let down Master’s compassionate salvation.

Eventually the Fa enlightened me. Master said,

“Accordingly, in your future cultivation you will run into all kinds of tribulations. How could you cultivate without these hardships? If everyone is good to one another without conflicts of interest or interference from the human mind, and if all you do is just sit there, how can your xinxing improve? That wouldn’t do.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

“In fact, many people have not understood the meaning behind it. Why does the land of China produce people of great virtue and high-level gong? Many people do not understand the genuine meaning of what those high-level people have said, and neither do they understand the realm or mindset of those people at high levels and in lofty realms. Of course, we have said that we will not point out what it means. Think about it, everyone: Only by being among the most complicated group of people and in the most complicated environment can one cultivate high-level gong—it implies this.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)

My entire body was shaken by Master’s words and my mind suddenly became clear. I understood that the complicated environment was actually good for my cultivation. After I understood the Fa, Master helped me completely get rid of all my complaints and resentment. I was excited about cultivation once again, as I was in the beginning. I made up my mind to study the Fa more, rectify myself within the Fa and do the three things well.

Helping Distribute Newspapers

In 2015 I volunteered to distribute The Epoch Times and collect newspaper racks. A few other practitioners were responsible for displaying advertising boards. The head of the classified advertising department asked me to help distribute newspapers and collect display boards. I noticed it was very tiring for a group of people to pick up the boards, desks and support frames and distribute them.

I realized that with a few changes the work could be done by just one person. It would also save the practitioners’ time to do other Dafa related work. I talked to the head of the department and she was really happy. She asked me do it full time and wanted to assign two people to help me. I told her I could do it all by myself, just by working a little harder and buying a tool cart for me.

Starting from 2017, I displayed the advertising board next to the subway entrance in Flushing and distributed The Epoch Times about six to seven days a week regardless of the weather. After I returned home at night, I studied the Fa and then made phone calls to people in China on the truth-clarification platform. Although the work was challenging, I clarified the truth to many people. Many of them decided to practice Falun Dafa.

For example, a lady named Zeng decided to practice after I clarified the truth to her. She believed that Dafa is miraculous, truly great, and introduced Dafa to her family and friends. Now her mother and sister also practice. I understand as long as I go out to save people with a pure heart, Master will arrange for the right people to hear the truth and obtain the Fa.

During my over-20-year Dafa cultivation under Master’s compassionate protection, many miracles happened around me and many people witnessed the greatness of Falun Dafa.