A Practitioner's Triumph Over Adversity: “I Have No Regrets!”
(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1998. Since then, I have studied the treasured book Zhuan Falun every day; worked hard to be a good person according to the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance; and improved my character to be someone who thinks of others before myself.
However, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) prevents us from being good people. They persecute Dafa ruthlessly, causing countless practitioners to be illegally arrested, sentenced to prison, and even persecuted to death.
On June 28, 2016, I was arrested and taken to a detention center. I took every opportunity to tell the other prisoners the truth about Falun Dafa and the many benefits of cultivating.
Earning a Fellow Prisoner's Respect
I had been talking to a prisoner about how good Dafa is and tried to convince her to quit the CCP to be safe. She didn't believe me.
At mealtime, the prisoners were required to sit face-to-face. She sat opposite me and usually complained about having a stomachache when she ate rice.
I had a steamed bun for every meal, so I gave her my bun in exchange for her rice. I also let her have my main entree, while I just drank the soup.
Once, when I gave her my bun for dinner, she started to cry and said, “You are so kind. I agree with what you said earlier.”
I asked, “What do you understand?” She said, “Since the two of us have been eating together, I’ve realized that you are different from the other prisoners. You are good to everyone. I am a CCP member, so I quit! Several people told me about it before, but I didn't quit, nor did I believe it mattered. But because of how you are, I believe it.”
“It's not really about how good I am,” I said. “Master Li taught us to live this way. We must consider others first so that we become selfless cultivators.”
I was illegally sentenced to three years in the provincial women’s prison, which was notorious for its cruelty and boasted about being able to successfully “transform” Dafa disciples.
If practitioners did not “transform,” they were not allowed to sleep or to have any bedding. They were often not allowed to use the toilet. And when they were, there was no toilet paper.
They were also prohibited from washing and were forced to stand or sit on small stools for extended periods. All the prisoners in the cell were ordered to monitor the practitioners.
My Kindness Impresses the Guards
After three months, I was transferred to another ward. On the way back from my first visit with my family, I wanted to clarify the truth to the prison captain.
When I didn’t know how to begin, the captain asked me why I practiced Falun Dafa. When I heard this, I knew Master Li was by my side. Master knew everything in my heart and encouraged me to tell her the truth.
I told her, “I suffered from all kinds of health problems and went to many hospitals. But I was not cured, and in the end, I even prepared for my funeral. Then I was introduced to Falun Dafa. After I began practicing, I didn't take any medications yet I was completely healed.
“Many people can’t afford medical care, and their illnesses often can’t be cured. So I knew it was my obligation to tell others about Falun Dafa. But then I was apprehended by the police and brought here. It’s really hard to be a good person!”
The captain asked if my family objected to my practicing. I said, “My family is very supportive. They saw me before and after I started practicing Falun Dafa. They are all grateful that Dafa saved my life.”
The captain smiled. She understood the truth and told me we are all good people.
After that, I got up early every morning to do the Falun Dafa exercises and send righteous thoughts.
Once we were asked to write a “thought report.” I refused to write it and told the cell head I was not guilty of anything, so it had nothing to do with me.
She said she could write it for me and I just needed to sign it. I said, “I won’t sign it, either. It wouldn’t be good for you if I did, because it would mean you were participating in the persecution. By the end of this persecution, everyone who has participated in it will be punished by law!” She reported this to the captain.
I kept sending righteous thoughts and the captain never said anything about me.
Once, a practitioner in another team was being yelled at and abused. She was forced to stand and not allowed to sit on the bench when she was working.
I was stationed close to her team, so I stood up and told the four practitioners in our team to send righteous thoughts together to negate the evil elements that were persecuting our fellow practitioner.
As soon as we sent righteous thoughts, the inmates who’d been yelling left. After that, we sent righteous thoughts for every practitioner who was being mistreated and focused on preventing the inmates from committing more crimes.
One day, the captain asked me to write the so-called “Guarantee Statements” (to renounce Falun Dafa) so that I could apply for a reduced sentence and go home three months early.
I knew the corrupt administrators had instructed the captain to tempt me like this to test my firm belief in Dafa. I told her, “Thank you for your kindness. I will not write it. I will go home when I should go home!”
The captain told me what I wrote the last time was a false confession. I said, “I already made a mistake once when you forced me to write that. I can't do it a second time. Dafa saved my life, but I said Dafa was not good. I went against my conscience. Could you do that?”
The captain then let me return to my team. I didn't know why, but I was just very happy. When I came back from work in the evening, I realized I’d done the right thing.
Master encouraged me and my main soul (the real me) was happy.
My Daughters Are Blessed
My unjust sentence ended in June 2019. When I returned home, I found out that my husband, who’d been imprisoned for three years, had stopped practicing after he was released.
Not only that, my youngest daughter was hospitalized just a few days after I was arrested and taken to the detention center. She was diagnosed with uremia.
She was hospitalized five times in three years and kept on dialysis. We sold our big house and bought a small one so we could pay her medical expenses. Now, we’d almost run out of money. My husband complained about me and called me stupid, saying I would be persecuted if I insisted on practicing.
He even drove me away and often made trouble for me. The suffering in my heart at that time was beyond imagination. I just remembered thinking that there was nothing wrong with cultivating a righteous path. The evil CCP just wants to destroy people!
My youngest daughter comforted me, saying, “Father is helping you cultivate! Mom, do you regret cultivating Dafa?”
“I have no regrets. This is the most righteous thing I have ever done! I know the value of life, and I feel that I am the luckiest and happiest person in the world, nothing else!”
A few days later, fellow practitioners sent me Dafa books and the exercise music. I studied the Fa and did the exercises every day, including the “Falun Standing Stance” for one hour.
After studying the Fa, I started to reflect on myself. My husband had endured a lot during the three years I was detained and persecuted. He had to be both Father and a Mother, and our youngest daughter was hospitalized five times. He had also taken the children to visit me every month.
Every visit, he appeared happy, as he didn't want me to see how difficult it was for him. I really needed to thank him; what else could I complain about?
In the process of changing myself, my husband is also changing. He is cultivating Dafa again. Our youngest daughter has also improved a lot by studying the Fa and doing the exercises.
She can now stand on her own again. When I first came home, she couldn't walk up to the fifth floor when she came home. She can now go out and buy groceries.
My eldest daughter had two miscarriages in three years. When her dad and I were being persecuted, she got pregnant again. Not only did she have to take care of her sister who was hospitalized, but she also secured a lawyer to represent us.
The lawyer told me, “Your daughter is really good. She went to the court several times on snowy days even though she was pregnant!” The judge did not have the guts to see her.
My daughter also went to the police station and asked for the things that were stolen from our house and retrieved my computer.
The school where my eldest daughter works told her to pay her Party dues. She said, “I don’t want to be a CCP member. I want to quit! My mother was arrested for practicing Falun Dafa. I want to quit!”
The school told her to write an application to quit the CCP, and she really wrote a public declaration. After quitting the CCP, my daughter gave birth to a healthy boy.
Our whole family is happy. I asked her, “Do you know that this is a blessing for supporting your mother in practicing Dafa?”
She replied, “Yes, I do. thank you, Master Li! Thank you, Falun Dafa!”