(Minghui.org) My life before I began to practice Falun Dafa was miserable, as I was poor and suffered from illnesses that caused headaches, red eyes, itchy skin and lack of sleep.
I was fired from my job after expecting a second child, so consequently we lacked money for medicine and repairs on our older home. I had suicidal thoughts, but my children told me that they needed me, which stopped me from doing anything dramatic.
My mother told me in 2003 that to turn my life around I should practice Falun Dafa. When I read Zhuan Falun for the first time, I saw Teacher Li's photo smiling at me.
When I began to study the Fa, a fellow practitioner noticed a strange odor emanating from my body, and I experienced smelly substances leaving my body. I knew that Teacher was cleansing my body. To my surprise, my cousin, also a practitioner, had dreamed 10 years before I became a practitioner that Teacher cleansed my body.
Involved in Dafa Projects
I dreamed that the boxes in my home were covered with the phrases “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” My cousin said that Teacher might be hinting that I should clarify the truth about Dafa to people.
Despite the persecution, I established a Fa-study group at my house, and we have not had any difficulties.
Falun Dafa informational materials were in short supply, which changed when we started to produce the materials in our area. It was my responsibility to deliver the materials to practitioners' houses.
Looking Inwards
While involved with other practitioners, I learned to look inward during times of conflict. I realized that I had many deeply hidden attachments, such as jealousy, and being confrontational.
When there was a problem, I interfered and told others who was right or wrong without cultivating my mind and speech. I mistakenly thought that doing things was cultivation. I continued to complain and react furiously to comments and suggestions from others.
From reading the Fa I learned that I should cooperate with other practitioners when distributing Dafa materials, so we would not encounter any trouble.
Before distributing materials, we studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts up to nine times a day. The night prior to our material distribution trips, we sent forth righteous thoughts intensively. Thus, we did not encounter any difficulties.
I have been diligently doing the three things: studying Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and clarifying the facts about Dafa. I always felt that time was running out so I stopped taking lunch breaks. Every day went by so quickly.
My daily schedule started with sending righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m., then I went to the morning market to tell the facts of Dafa to people. Sometimes I delivered materials to practitioners and attended group Fa study.
I later went straight to the Public Security Bureau, the police station, the 610 Office, and other government agencies to send forth righteous thoughts nearby. It was important to clean the environment from anything that could cause difficulties for us.
There is so much to be done, and being an impatient person, I keep going all day long with doing what a practitioner is supposed to do. I am watchful of myself, try to find and eliminate attachments, and improve on my cultivation path.
Category: Improving Oneself
