[Celebrating World Falun Dafa Day] Falun Dafa Awakened My Lost Soul
(Minghui.org) I used to be a person who was mired deeply in the filth of the world. Thankfully, Falun Dafa changed me, body and soul.
My name is Lili. Before my mother learned Falun Dafa, she used to curse me badly, saying things like: “People die every day in this world. Why don't you die? You are such a bad person.”
I seldom went to work before I practiced Falun Dafa. I was addicted to gambling, mahjong, poker and other games, as well as slot machines. I had been to every gambling venue in my city. When I didn't have money, I stole my mother's valuable stamp collections and sold them. When I was not gambling, I drank and smoked with my friends. I prostituted during the day and gambled at night. Night clubs and internet bars were the places I visited most. This was my life before I practiced Falun Dafa.
I read a story on the Minghui website about a bad girl becoming good and my mother said that I was worse than that girl. In a society where traditional moral values were damaged and pornography was rampant, I degraded myself willingly and damaged other families. My mother was so upset that she vomited blood and fainted. I was scared and cried and promised that I would change myself. But I was not able to change as long as I was surrounded with those friends.
One day my mother was very upset about me and had nowhere to go. She went to a hotel lobby, sat there and shed tears. Her friend tried to comfort her and said: “You should just live your life as if your daughter is dead.”
I was emaciated. My neck had a lump as big as an egg which looked much bigger than a male's Adam's apple. A doctor said that my thyroid function was weakening. I had no strength except when I was gambling, playing games, drinking or smoking. I was sleepy and could sleep for several days without any food.
My mother has a good heart, but she was an atheist and loved money. She showed kindness to some people she met on the street and they turned out to be Falun Dafa practitioners. They encouraged her to learn Falun Dafa, but we thought they had mental problems because they believed in the intangible--Buddhas and gods. One day my mom brought home a copy of Zhuan Falun and read it every day.
Soon I found she had changed. It was inconceivable to me. Once she said that it was easier to change rivers and mountains than to change a person's nature. How did this book change my sixty-year-old mother? She used to be hot-tempered and impatient with a strong desire to make money. But now she was completely different.
After my mother started cultivation, practitioners saw that she still worried about her wayward daughter.
Several practitioners came to talk to me. They suggested that I read Zhuan Falun with them for nine days. In order to make my mother happy, I agreed. After three days reading, I didn't want to read any more. I told them that I wanted to have a break and sleep. They said: “We will study the Fa while you are sleeping.” The next day they came to my home again. I had to put up with them and so I read with them.
While we read the first four lectures, I went to the toilet one minute and drank water the other minute or I took a break one minute and dozed off the next minute. Anyway, I used every possible way to stop reading. On the fifth day when we finished reading the Fa, I happened to touch my neck. I was shocked. I felt my neck all over and couldn't find the lump. I had been medically treating this lump for five years. It didn't grow bigger or become smaller. How did it disappear after I read Zhuan Falun for five days? I couldn't believe it and asked my mother and other practitioners to feel my neck. But they couldn't find it either. It had really disappeared!
Our great compassionate Master saved me! I was motivated and read through all of Zhuan Falun.
After that, I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises with my mother and other practitioners. But sometimes I was slack. An incident happened later on which made me believe in Falun Dafa completely and I witnessed the miracle of Dafa and Master's compassion again.
One day my mother asked me to get something from the top of a high cabinet. I put a small stool on top of a chair and stepped onto the stool. When I stretched to reach the thing, I slipped and fell. The stool had broken from my weight. I was seriously injured. But at the moment I was falling, Master's Fa teachings came into my mind.
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Zhuan Falun)
My mother kept asking me if I was all right. I said I was all right and stood up slowly. It was painful. She supported me and said: 'Let's send forth righteous thoughts.” I sat down and sent forth righteous thoughts seriously.
I had intense pain in my lower back that night. Mom said: “You will recover if you study the Fa and do the exercises seriously.” But I was doubtful and murmured to myself: “I cannot straighten my back and it is hard to breathe. Yet you still ask me to do the exercises? If it is that miraculous, why do we have hospitals? I am not able to do the exercises.” But I thought of Master's words immediately:
“When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun).
So I practiced the exercises and meditation. And the pain disappeared! I was excited beyond words. I became more diligent in studying the Fa and doing the exercises.
One day a big hot-pot restaurant opened and they had a raffle drawing activity. I won a one hundred yuan cash coupon. When I was paying the bill, the counter cashier, waitresses and the boss were all there. I thought it was a good opportunity to validate the Fa. I paid the full price. The boss said they would give me back one hundred yuan. I told them that I practiced Falun Dafa and our Master told us to be a good person wherever we are and to consider others first and be a selfless person. I said to them that it was not easy for them to do business and they had to cover costs and I did not want to take advantage of other people. They were surprised and said that there were no people like me nowadays. It was beyond their expectation that I would return the coupon to them. I told them that Falun Dafa practitioners are like that.
Can you imagine that I used to be a person who stole things from a supermarket and didn't feel guilty?
Falun Dafa has changed me and I try to let more people know that Falun Dafa is good. One day a tour guide came to to the company where I now work. I said to her: “You tour guides have to take planes and trains and go everywhere. Sometimes it is risky for you. There are so many disasters nowadays. Have you heard of 'making the three withdrawals to keep yourself safe'?” I told her that the CCP staged the Tiananmen self-immolation incident to persecute Falun Dafa and incited hatred toward Falun Dafa. She listened to me attentively and finally quit the CCP.
After practicing Falun Dafa, I realized that having an affair with a married man was a criminal act. I no longer visited pornographic websites. I was very ashamed of what I did before. I refused my boyfriend's inappropriate requests. I want to tell people through my own personal experiences that Falun Dafa has awakened my lost soul and enabled me to become a good person who values virtues and morality. The CCP damages traditional values and encourages sexual promiscuity. Recently the CCP tried to frame Falun Dafa using a non-practitioner's immoral behavior, so I decided to let people know how I was compared to how I am now to prove that Falun Dafa is good based on my personal experiences.
I wasted a lot of time, as I began cultivating in Falun Dafa late. I hope to make up for the lost time. When I make truth-clarifying materials and burn DVDs of Shen Yun and of software to break through the CCP's internet blockade, I stay up all night several days in a row and don't get tired. Gradually, I stopped being addicted to the Internet. Every morning at 6:30 a.m., my mother, my daughter, and I study the Fa and do the exercises together. I am no longer a person with all sorts of harmful habits. Master's Fa always comes into my mind when I am doing things or have bad thoughts in my mind.
I am very thankful to Master. Master has rectified my life. Our family lives a happy and meaningful life and we do what we can to help other people learn the truth about Falun Dafa.