(Clearwisdom.net) For a long time I failed to study the Fa well. Prior to beginning my cultivation practice, I loved reading fictional novels. This attachment gradually became weaker, but it was not eliminated at the root. My job required me to use the Internet and so I frequently found myself reading the latest online novels. The more I read, the more my attachment grew. Sometimes I even spent the entire night reading one of them. My cultivation state deteriorated, and soon I did not even want to study the Fa.
One day last year, I read a new best selling novel until 4:00 a.m. The book ended tragically, and I was exhausted after reading it. I asked myself why I enjoyed reading these novels so much. I realized it was due to an attachment of qing. Master stated that such an attachment is harmful for practitioners, but I never completely understood this. I adjusted my cultivation state for a time, but I didn’t get rid of the attachment to reading these novels completely. Sometimes I still went to those websites to read and would later regret doing it. Luckily, I never stopped doing the exercises in the morning or attending group Fa study.
I finally enlightened to the correct principle of the Fa after reading Master's lecture given in New York in 2010. Master said,
"Whatever enters a person's mind stays there. Human beings have memory. While we call it 'memory,' and it sounds like something conceptual, it is in fact something really, truly material." ("Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference")
I finally understood the reason I could not eliminate the attachment to reading books. It was because when I read them, those bad elements existed in my body and controlled me. The more I read, the more the bad elements got into my body. So I deleted all the novels saved on my cell phone and computer and became determined to get rid of the attachment. I found a clarity within myself after sending forth righteous thoughts. Some time later, I accidentally found some novels on my cell that I thought had already been deleted. After some hesitation, I deleted them, too. I refused to allow any bad things to affect my cultivation practice.
As a result of these experiences, I have realized the importance of studying the Fa. If we do not study the Fa well, we may well be influenced by bad things present in ordinary society.
Thank you, Master, for saving me!
Category: Improving Oneself