(Clearwisdom.net) From the time I was a child, I was weak and had many illnesses. When I reached middle age, the number of illnesses increased. I found qigong interesting when it became popular in the 80s, but of course I ended up learning fake qigong practices. They didn't help my illnesses at all. Every day I had headaches, although I didn't know why. I had gallstones, chronic pyelonephritis, a fatty liver, high blood pressure, cerebral arterial sclerosis, and gynecological disease, which the doctor said could develop into cancer. I also had some hidden disease which hadn't been figured out yet. I frequently took medication and injections, and was hospitalized many times. The injections caused damage to the blood vessels in my hands. The doctor finally had to insert the IV into the blood vessels in my feet. Once I was hospitalized, all available antibiotics were tried, but I did not improve at all. The hospital did tests that showed that my body resisted all the antibiotics. The doctor had to inject hormones to control my illness. I also took an array of Chinese medicine. Finally I pursued qigong and prayed to gods to help me. But nothing worked. I was in a lot of pain. I was later found to have diabetes and early coronary heart disease.
In 1998, I was very fortunate to learn Falun Dafa. My initial goal was not to cure illnesses or strengthen my body. When I first read Zhuan Falun, I was astonished by the Fa's principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance that Teacher taught us. Teacher told me a truth that I had never heard or seen before. But it was what I was sincerely looking for and longing for in the depths of my heart. Teacher is not an ordinary person and the things Teacher wants to do are the most righteous and greatest things in the universe. No one else has the capability to do it, or even imagine it. I made up my mind, “I want to study Falun Gong and I want to merge my life into the Fa.”
Three days after I read Zhuan Falun, I suddenly found at work that I could easily read the small print in the newspaper without wearing my reading glasses. Teacher helped me to get rid of my presbyopia. I said goodbye to the reading glasses that I had worn for eight years. This was the second time in my whole life that I witnessed a divine miracle—the first was when I was 11 years old and saw many kinds of armored gods as tall as the sky, but I thought it was a illusion because I was poisoned by atheism. After that, I read Dafa books eagerly, watched Teacher's Fa lecture videos, and practiced the exercises at the practice site every day. Teacher's face, voice, and tone were deeply imprinted in my mind. Whenever I thought of the contents of Teacher's Fa, Teacher's expression during the Fa lecture displayed in my mind. After listening to Teacher's Fa Lecture audiotape, whenever I thought of Teacher's words, I could hear Teacher's voice in my ears.
One day at noon, just two weeks after I had started practicing the exercises, I laid on the couch to take a nap. I truly felt two rotating objects enter into my body with great power. One was at my abdomen and another was at my heart. I laughed aloud in my sleep, “I have Falun! I have Falun!” Then I gradually woke up. My family could not understand me, but I knew in my heart that Teacher had truly given me the Falun in other dimensions. One Falun was to adjust my body and the other Falun was for my cultivation. Especially when I overlapped my hands in front of my abdomen during or after meditation or when I improved my xinxing during cultivation, I could truly feel that the Falun rotating. I was so glad that Teacher had already started to help me.
By studying the Fa, I understood the true meaning of cultivation. Teacher clearly and thoroughly taught us in Zhuan Falun about why we live, why we cultivate, how to cultivate, why everyday people get sick, why practitioners don't have sickness, especially why we need to study the Fa well, how to improve our xinxing, and how to be a true practitioner. The more I study the Fa, the more firmly I believe in Teacher and Dafa.
I followed Teacher's guidance and truly considered myself as a practitioner. I continued to give up all my bad notions and attachments. I studied the Fa, and believed in Teacher and the Fa. Before I cultivated the Fa, I was obsessed with the stock market and considered gains in the stock market a sign of success. I also intended to become a stock trading specialist after I retired. During my early cultivation, the stock market was in a downturn and many stock prices dropped significantly. I was reluctant to get out of the stock market and stayed in it. I even bought more stocks and dreamed of breaking even before I left the stock market. In one hand I held the divine, but in the other, I could not let go of humanness. In the end, I not only didn't break even, but also lost a lot more money. Then one day, Teacher used a colleague’s mouth to wake me up, “You told me you no longer traded stocks. Why you are still watching the stock market?” Teacher woke me up. I sold all the stocks and pulled my mind back to the Fa and rectified my mind based on the Fa. When I visited with friends I used to trade stocks with, they told me, “You should come back to the stock market. It is a bull market right now. You should hurry up and come back and make up your loss.” I told them, “I practice Falun Gong now. You should practice Falun Gong, too. It's wonderful. Right now, even if you gave me a mountain of gold, I would still choose Zhuan Falun.”
After I understood the Fa, I kept cultivating myself, paying attention to improving my xinxing, and doing things with righteous thoughts and actions. My body and mind changed dramatically, and I really felt reborn. The changes that practitioners will experience after starting to cultivate Falun Dafa, as Teacher told us in the Fa, all happened to me.
Practitioners will go through eliminating illness karma. Teacher arranged this for us on our different levels of cultivation. It is important for us to treat it with righteous thoughts. Teacher said,
“We’d say that a good or bad outcome comes from one thought. The difference in one thought leads to different results. At her age, if she was an ordinary person, how could she not be hurt? But she wasn’t even scratched. A good or bad outcome comes from one thought. If she’d just lay there and said, 'Ohhh, I’m in trouble. This part hurts, that part hurts…' then maybe her ligaments would be torn, or her bones fractured, and maybe she’d be paralyzed. No matter how much money they give you, you’d still have to live in the hospital the rest of your life. And could you really enjoy that?” (The Fourth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
So when I was eliminating illness karma, my first thought was, “It will be fine. I will get better soon.” Certainly the old forces sometimes used illness karma to interfere with me and used illness karma to test me. I didn't pay attention to the situation and did not specifically send forth righteous thoughts for it because I didn't even acknowledge the old forces themselves. I just cherished the valuable time to do the three things well and focused on the things I needed to do well every day. I didn't care if it was pain or itching. I paid no attention to it at all, and it soon disappeared without my noticing it. Most of the time this is what happened. Sometimes the illness karma lasted for a long time and it was more severe. So it must have been that I had omissions in my xinxing and I had to look inward as soon as possible and rectify myself.
Among the thousands of people in our workplace, I was the only Falun Dafa practitioner who started to cultivate Dafa before July 20, 1999. In 2001, I was arrested by the public security police when I was handing out truth-clarifying materials. This alerted the leaders and workers in my workplace and even the upper level leaders. The leaders where I worked assured the 610 Office that I could be released. But I refused to acknowledge that I did anything wrong and refused to tell them the source of the truth-clarifying materials. I was illegally sentenced to one year of forced labor (I had already been retired for over a year at that time). Less than three months after I was imprisoned in the forced labor camp, the instructor in the forced labor camp told me that the prisoners who were in the same room with me told them I went to the restroom frequently in the night. They also noticed that I was thinner and asked if I had any illness. I said I had illness before, but now I did not have any illness. The forced labor camp told me to get examined in the hospital. I refused to agree, but they forced me to anyway. The results showed that I had diabetes and needed to be hospitalized. The labor camp released me on bail for medical treatment. I knew it was Teacher's merciful protection.
After I was imprisoned, I really forgot I had a history of diabetes before. After I was released, I asked one of my colleagues what reaction the leaders and colleagues in my workplace had to my imprisonment in the forced labor camp. He said most of them thought that Falun Gong was a belief and they should not have sent me to the forced labor camp based on that. One person said I was really foolish and would not have suffered forced labor if I had admitted my “mistake.” He also said I could just go home and continue to practice Falun Gong. I explained to my colleague that we cultivated based on the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and that we should not lie. He said, “Is it OK to lie now?” Another colleague told me when all my colleagues talked about Falun Gong in private, they said, “Whether Falun Gong is good or not, we know by looking at him (meaning me). Look at how energetic he is. He didn't pant while climbing the seven floors in the office building. Our young people cannot keep up with him.”
All along, the leaders and colleagues in my workplace did not say bad words about Falun Gong. I deeply understood that after the CCP's overwhelming rumors and slander against Dafa, every Dafa practitioners' words and actions can actually play the role of clarifying the truth. Teacher said,
“The evil CCP could save itself some trouble by not doing anything; whenever it does something bad, and particularly to Dafa disciples, it results in a scandal and fiasco for it, and ends up helping Dafa disciples with what they are doing.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference”)
I don't participate in the medical examinations that my workplace organizes once a year. People who have special illnesses can get a few thousand yuan in health care costs covered every year, but I didn't apply for it. Where I am employed, if we pay around ten yuan, we can get a hundred thousand dollars in major medical insurance. I didn't purchase that insurance, either. In my daily life, I didn't pay extra attention to the basic necessities of life. When I clarified the truth, I told people that my illnesses all disappeared when I started to practice Falun Gong and I do not need to take medicine or injections, control my diet, or be concerned about eating nutritious food. Everyone said, "It's a miracle! It's a miracle!” Some had doubts that I might secretly take medicine at home, while claiming I had no illness and took no medicine after beginning Falun Gong practice. Even my son-in-law asked me, “I heard you had diabetes. Why didn't I see it at all? I see you drink and eat sweets. Is it possible the hospital made the wrong diagnosis?" This type of thing happened a lot. One time at a class reunion, one of my classmates who was a doctor for many years and had a good relationship with me asked me quietly, "Did you go through the back door and get a false diagnosis of diabetes? “Even she did not believe I ever had severe diabetes. Some of my relatives asked my husband (not a practitioner) quietly if I took medicine or injections at home. My husband told me, “It looks like I am the only one who can prove that your illness was cured by practicing Falun Gong.”
In 2007, I was arrested again by the CCP and many of the truth-clarifying materials at my home were confiscated. The police said the materials production site in my home was the largest materials site they had confiscated during the past few years. During the confiscation, my husband told the head of the National Security Team, “My wife had severe illness before and her life was extended by practicing Falun Gong, for over five years. So I allowed her to practice Falun Gong and I can prove that her illness was cured by practicing Falun Gong. If you think I am wrong, I can grab a few clothes and toiletries and go with you to the prison.” The head of the National Security Team said, “You have misunderstood. We do not mean that. We think if she was sick, she can practice at home. Just don't expand the influence to the community. She expanded beyond the home.”
That same night, I was taken to the detention center. From the start, I sent forth righteous thoughts that I needed to go home, I had many things related to saving sentient beings that I needed to do, and I did the most righteous things in the world. I asked Teacher to strengthen me. “The evil can't touch me. Only Teacher's words count.” During the physical exam to be admitted to the detention center, I asked all the cells in my body to cooperate with me and reflect the status of severe sickness, so the exam showed I had very high blood sugar (if ordinary people had such high blood sugar, they would have already died). The detention center refused to accept me. The head of the National Security Team said my case was very serious and insisted that the detention center accept me. In the end, they even asked me if I would cooperate with the doctor of the detention center. I firmly refused. They then asked their superiors for instructions. A few hours later, they took me back to the local police station. The head of the National Security Team told me, “You have a serious illness. Considering your situation, I will allow your family to bail you out and wait for the trial.”
So I can do the three things I am supposed to do again. It also proved that my history of serious diabetes is true. It also proved to all the judicial officials that Falun Gong is good. Although I was sentenced and was in custody outside of prison, it looked like nothing had happened to me. It proved on a larger scale once again that Falun Dafa is good and no one can deny it.
The new universe is replacing the old universe and the cosmos is reorganizing. We are so fortunate to become Dafa disciples during the Fa-Rectification period. We are so fortunate to be with Teacher in the same world, assist Teacher to rectify the Fa, and save the sentient beings. We are the most glorious lives in the universe. Teacher has given all he has for all sentient beings. We will never know what Teacher has given us and all the sentient beings. Teacher gave the best to Dafa disciples and the sentient beings. We feel Teacher's boundless grace all the time, but have no way to repay such immense grace. A practitioner published an article on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website and said, “We just paid a leaf, but Teacher gave us the forest. We have no reason or excuse not to do the three things well during such a precious time and cultivate ourselves diligently.” Especially for me, Teacher and Dafa gave me a second life. Teacher trusts us and he only looks at our hearts. We must have the heart to truly cultivate ourselves. We must firmly believe in Teacher and the Fa, do the three things well steadily, and be worthy of Teacher's compassionate salvation.
