Righteous Thoughts Are My Driving Force
(Clearwisdom.net) My cultivation path has been very rough and full of hardships. My life in society and my family life have also been unusual, full of troubles, and miserable. Regardless of my misfortune, during my cultivation of Dafa, I have never given up or compromised when facing difficulties. Even when I lost everything, including almost losing my life, my main consciousness was still on Dafa, and I deemed Dafa more important than my life. I never thought about what I should do, but I have always felt that there was something pushing me to do this or that, and to walk a given path. I realized that this force was my knowing side in another dimension, helping me to do things with righteous faith and righteous thoughts. It was Master who gave me hints to do things. I came to Earth for the sake of Dafa, and the vow I made might have been to bear a great responsibility.
I have two daughters, and both of them are Dafa practitioners. I was imprisoned several times while they were still students. My husband did not take care of them because he opposed our cultivation practice. I kept sending letters to my children, telling them to be diligent and not to slack off. Even when I was tortured by being tied to a death bed, or when I was in critical condition during a hunger strike to protest the persecution, I encouraged them to be diligent. Every day in prison I loudly shouted, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance is good!” In a loud voice I would tell people in the prison about the evil persecution, explain the facts about Falun Dafa, and make a stand calling for justice for Master. I never “confessed” to anything or signed my name to anything, and I finally got out of prison with righteous thoughts. I was sentenced to three years of forced labor, so I recited Master's Fa from memory and I sent righteous thoughts constantly. I made it out of the prison in just one day. I enlightened that this outcome was the result of letting go of life and death, and having righteous thoughts and actions. I felt that Master was holding my hand and walking with me.
As a result of persecution, I had a hard time finding employment. My husband did not provide our children or myself with any income. To make a living, I sold fruit from a handcart. There were times when I did not make any money all day. My husband would kick us out of our home (a dorm from his employer) from time to time. He destroyed Dafa books, interfered with our cultivation, and finally he filed for a divorce. My daughters and I became homeless. Even so, I did not stop doing the three things. I did not have any complaints, except the worry of how many beings had yet to be saved. What happened to me was a result of my own karma. These were the tests that I had to pass, and something that I had to go through to upgrade myself through cultivation. Master said,
“In cultivation practice, there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, “How can this person treat me like this?” Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work. There is another issue. In conflicts, the issue of transforming karma is involved. Therefore, in dealing with specific conflicts we should be forgiving instead of acting like ordinary people...” (Zhuan Falun)
I forgave my husband after I understood the Fa principles. The court did not grant us a divorce.
My husband died from an incurable disease. While he was sick, I would often clarify the truth to him, and encouraged him to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). After he passed way, my mother-in-law and her daughter moved into his home. We did not argue with them. We continued to live in a rental property and I ran a small business. No matter where I lived, I studied the Fa, cultivated myself, sent righteous thoughts, and went out to clarify the truth at night. I never stopped. About two years ago, I opened a small shop in the place where I lived. There were two beds in this place and one day I could not help but disassemble one of the beds. It was as if someone were holding my hands while I was taking the bed apart. Two days later, four or five practitioners came to my house to study the Fa unexpectedly. I understood that Master had me set up a Fa-study site in my home because my environment was quiet. One day, something was bothering me. I paced back and forth in my home and I did not know what to do, so I left. Unintentionally, I walked over to a practitioner's home and he took me to a small room. It was a truth-clarification materials production site. I worked on some projects with other practitioners. I enlightened that this might also be what I should do, and I became determined to produce Dafa materials and save more sentient beings.
Soon afterward, a practitioner came to me and asked me if I'd like to learn how to use a computer so that I could go online. I said that I only went to school for three or four years, and I did not understand such technical things. He said that he would teach me. He subsequently gave me a computer and taught me how to use it. I learned how to go online and make materials, and I set up a materials production site. With all my heart, I am very grateful for Master's help.
I will do my best to fulfill my historical vows, help save sentient beings, and be worthy of Master's compassionate salvation.
Thank you, Master!
Thank you, fellow practitioners!