(Clearwisdom.net) When I was young I looked weak and suffered from many illnesses, including kidney failure. The doctor told me I needed more than a hundred thousand yuan for a kidney transplant. I tried all sorts of qigong to rid myself of the diseases, but to no avail. In 1995, I was blessed to have the chance to learn Falun Dafa. As a result of practicing Falun Dafa, all my illnesses gradually diminished or disappeared. This is why I firmly believe in Master and Dafa and pay special attention to studying the Fa. Although I have been arrested twice during the persecution, with strong faith in Master and Dafa and steadfast righteous thoughts, under Master's protection, I overcame the danger without incident.
Because of my not yet purged attachments during Fa validation and lack of attentiveness in Fa study, I have experienced physical problems over the past few years. I regarded them as a state of sickness karma. Particularly, one day in the middle of May, I felt uncomfortable and had a hard time walking, having to catch my breath every 300-400 meters. Nonetheless, I still went out with my spouse to do distribute truth clarification flyers. Having handed out 20 copies, I could no longer walk and felt extremely uncomfortable. I took a cab home.
From the standpoint of the Fa, this must be interference from evil forces, but I mistakenly regarded this as karma elimination. I felt very sick the following day, feeling that my bones were swollen and sore, and my back hurt badly. I also had diarrhea, a fever and no appetite. I did not want to get out of bed and felt exhausted.
A week went by, and my family got anxious. My son and his wife recommended going to the hospital, if only to supplement my energy with a glucose infusion. How can anyone get by without eating? Initially I did not agree to this. But then I thought of my fear of needles prior to cultivation, thinking perhaps this was arranged to have me let go of this notion. I was wrong again and had three infusions.
Another seven or eight days went by but my condition did not improve. My family members were anxious and wondered what to do. My spouse got in touch with four other practitioners and invited them over to send righteous thoughts. They came and pointed out my loopholes. Immediately we studied the last paragraph in Master's "Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference" from 2005:
"So as a cultivator, what is truly remarkable is when you can be steadfast and have righteous thoughts so firm that nothing can sway you."
"One thought born of righteous faith is all it takes. And whoever can hold firm that righteous thought and go the distance will become a magnificent god forged by Dafa."
I recognized that receiving the infusions was a form of interference that the old forces arranged for me. It is a reflection of inadequate faith in Master and the Fa. I am a Dafa cultivator. How can a hospital solve a problem that arose in a Dafa disciple's cultivation practice? A practitioner's steadfast righteous thoughts are most important!
Since I had not clearly distinguished between the evil persecution and karma elimination, I still mistakenly thought that insufficient truth clarification work caused the "sickness karma." The situation was still worsening. The high fever persisted and climbed to a high of 40.5 0C (or 104.9 0F).
I was feverish every afternoon and evening. I would talk wild talk and became incontinent. Day after day I became skinnier and more out of shape. My family was pained to see me like this. My spouse became very anxious. I was clear on one thing: regardless of life or death, I was determined to follow the path that Master has arranged, and would not waver. I would no longer accept any infusions, nor would I go to the hospital.
My sister's son came all the way from Chenzhou and tried to talk me into going to the hospital. I declined. My condition was well publicized. Many of my coworkers knew about it, as did most of my friends and relatives. But I thought to myself: I cannot just die like this; Master's Fa rectification has reached the ending stage and there are still many sentient beings awaiting salvation. I cannot let the old forces take away my body at this key moment. I cannot accept the persecution. So, I was able to maintain basic righteous thoughts. Dafa practitioners are on the path to becoming gods. How can we fear the evil elements? We have Master and the Fa, and there is nothing for us to fear!
Now that I had uncovered this fundamental attachment, I once again invited fellow practitioners to come and send righteous thoughts for me. Three of them came to my home and after a brief discussion they said, "What concerns you, concerns us..." Right at that moment I felt a shiver. In realty, it was the evil that shivered, fearing the enormous collective power.
Sending righteous thoughts started at nine o'clock and lasted for an hour. They issued a stern warning to the forces that were persecuting me, offering a benevolent resolution.
A miracle then happened: my back stopped hurting, as if something had just been taken away. The diarrhea stopped and the fever receded. Five days later the practitioners came again to send righteous thoughts. This time the edema on my feet disappeared. My appetite suddenly improved, and I even felt hungry if my dinner was late.
I am currently in the process of a speedy recovery.
My fellow practitioners have used righteous thoughts to pull me back from near death and from the hands of the old forces. Thank you Master! Thank you for giving me another chance to continue my cultivation.
Discussions with fellow practitioners made me realize that this happened to me not because I had not done enough, but because my ability to enlighten was poor, and I did not have sufficient righteous thoughts.
Master said in "Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital" in 2006:
"Don't go to extremes with anything; do things rationally and with a clear head. That is the mighty virtue of a Dafa disciple. Whoever manages to remain steady while following this ordinary-society cultivation format, that person is truly doing what's best in this format of cultivation. If with this format someone exhibits behavior that is out of line with this format and at odds with it, then perhaps that person hasn't done well enough. Since Dafa disciples' cultivation is conducted with a format like this, this format is able to forge Dafa disciples, and it can create incredibly high future Attainment Statuses. Departing from this format or not conforming to it will obstruct your cultivation; those things are actually the product of attachments."
Since I mistakenly thought that the more truth clarification work I do, the better, I neglected the importance of Fa study and sending righteous thoughts. This resulted in the old forces zeroing in on my faults and persecuting me, which I then mistakenly regarded as karma elimination and endured. What a precarious situation!
I write this to serve as a lesson for myself and others. Please point out anything inappropriate.
