(Clearwisdom.net) As a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, doing the three things well is the main goal of my everyday life. Since the publication of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, I have realized that it is imperative to clarify the truth and ask people to quit the CCP (Chinese Communist Party) and its affiliated organizations. When the CCP's practice of harvesting organs from living Falun Gong practitioners was exposed, no words could express my feelings. I did not hesitate at all in clarifying the truth and put more of my efforts towards exposing the facts about the persecution and asking people to quit the CCP.
I come from the countryside, from a family of 13. Three of my sons are married and all of them know that Dafa is good. Everyone in the village admired our family; everyone knew that I practiced Falun Gong and there was no interference. I tried to behave well according to Dafa's requirements and presented people with a good image as a practitioner. No matter how busy I was, I continued to study the Fa, practice the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts. I put studying the Fa as first and foremost because it is my guarantee of being able to do everything well. Because I talked to people with a pure heart and my words were very pure, I could naturally and easily help people quit the CCP. This was the power and wisdom I gained from Dafa. When I distributed Falun Gong materials, I didn't feel any pressure and could do this job light-heartedly.
There were seven practitioners in my village. It was a small village but we had a lot of truth-clarification materials to be distributed. Another practitioner and I went to other villages where there were no practitioners and gave out materials. In summer, we went there at noon and in the busy season, we went to the fields to give out materials. In winter, we went out in the cold days, so there were not many people in the streets and we could distribute materials without interruption. We could distribute more than one hundred copies within an hour and we usually put them underneath doors. Under Master's protection, we did it light-heartedly.
However, since March 2006, the environment for my cultivation has changed. My son found a job for my husband and me. At the beginning, I didn't agree and didn't want to leave this environment and fellow practitioners. I couldn't eat or sleep well. After having a discussion with some practitioners, I realized that it might be arranged by Master, and there are people there that need to be saved. So I agreed.
The new place was near the forced labor camp and it was like an isolated island. It was miles away from the town and the suburbs. It was a complicated place.
When I first arrived here, I didn't know anyone so I just studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts. Because it was near the forced labor camp, the opportunities were good for me to send forth righteous thoughts. On the street there were four video cameras and I didn't dare to hand out fliers, but later on I didn't feel well and my leg ached. Some days it ached less but some days it ached severely. I thought it was sickness karma because I suffered from leg pain when I was a child. I didn't feel right though and thought it was interference. I sent forth righteous thoughts to cleanse myself but it didn't work. I looked within and found that it was fear in my heart. I realized that we are the lives of the new cosmos and the gods of the new cosmos, so what can they do to a god of the cosmos?
I was determined to dig out my fear at the root, to expose it and dissolve it. I wouldn't stop my righteous thoughts until it was disintegrated. I would completely smash the den of demons where practitioners were detained, and save more sentient beings. Suddenly I felt my heart become light and the pain in my leg disappeared. I didn't have any fear when distributing materials.
The above is just my humble experience. Master looks after us and compassionately protects us. I feel I still have a long way to go to achieve the requirements. I often have human notions and I hope my fellow practitioners will point them out to me. I sincerely hope that every practitioner will treasure every minute at this critical moment and make the best use of time to save sentient beings. Let's cultivate more diligently until the last step.
