My
      family attained Falun Dafa because of the April 25th incident
      in 1999.
First,
      I must express my gratitude from the bottom of my heart to the Falun Dafa
      practitioners who appealed to the central government at Zhongnanhai on
      April 25, 1999.á It was their
      utmost honesty and courage to make the ultimate sacrifice that shook open
      my heart to Dafa.á 
Salute to the Falun Dafa
      practitioners who went to Zhongnanhai to appeal!
Salute to the countless Chinese
      Falun Dafa practitioners who practiced
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance" in the past year with their blood
      and lives!
Salute to our Teacher who has
      exhausted all he has for the millions of Falun Dafa practitioners and for
      the sentient beings in the universe.á
      
I
      have not had a single, undisturbed day since I began to practice Falun
      Dafa.á The government's
      persecution of Dafa practitioners in China has been escalating.á At the beginning I was very afraid of hearing anything about
      how my fellow practitioners suffered in China.á
      I had an inexplicable fear, in addition to extremely bad and upset
      feelings.á I thought I could
      not endure that kind of inhumane torture because I had been leading a
      comfortable life.á I also
      thought that it would be better that they did not have to suffer.á
      I had hoped to come up with a high-sounding excuse that could well
      explain their sufferings and eliminate my fears.á One of the best excuses I might have was that they had
      understood the Fa [the law and principles] wrong, which then increased
      their own tribulations, or there might be karmic relationships between
      them and the persecutors.á I
      also believed that maybe since I had a better comprehension of the Fa, I
      did not have to go through that kind of tribulation; or perhaps I had a
      smaller amount of karma, so that there was no need for such a big trial
      for me.áá 
á
I.ááááááThis is a fight between the good and the evil!
When
      I saw the indifference that people all over the world had shown to the
      practitioners who were tortured to death, I realized how far the morality
      of the people in the "Dharma-ending" society had slid down.á I also realized that it was a fight between good and evil.á
      I still could not face what was happening, since I couldn't
      endure it all at that time.á Then,
      I realized that if I could not make the sacrifice for others when called
      upon, it would make me feel ashamed. How could I make comments on others'
      sacrifice?áá 
It
      is Falun Dafa that has taught me how to distinguish the good from the
      evil, the virtuous from the wicked.á 
á
II.ááááááMy Experience in China
I
      decided to go back to China to visit my family after the Hong Kong
      Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference.
      á
1.áááááááá My conversation with
      the police officers
On
      December 13, 1999, I left Hong Kong for Shenzhen, in order to purchase an
      airplane ticket from a regional airline.á
      I stayed with a friend, waiting for a December 15 ticket.á
      My friend, Mr. Zhang, was a Hong Kong businessman and also a Falun
      Dafa practitioner.á It was natural for people with the same interest to get
      together.á So, a few
      practitioners who knew Mr. Zhang came to join us and we shared cultivation
      experiences.á The visitors
      left around 11 p.m.á At about
      1 a.m., we were awaken by three police officers.á
      
The
      three officers sat down and had a talk with us.á They asked me why I practiced Falun Dafa, when I started my
      practice and why I came to China at that time.á
      They also asked me if I did not love my own country and why I did
      not abide by the laws and rules.á I
      answered their questions one by one.
I
      went to the United States in 1988 when my son, Sangsang, was a little over
      one year old.á I left my
      husband and son for one of the most prestigious institutes in the world,
      the Scripps Research Institute.á There
      were only a few Chinese researchers at that time, in the world's largest
      research facility.á I was very
      depressed because of the stress in my work, plus the unfamiliarity with
      the place and people.á What
      made it worse was that some people were prejudiced against Chinese people
      and looked down on us.á This
      made my mind unbalanced.á There
      was a person who openly scorned Chinese people, saying "you Chinese
      should not stay in the United States, if you can not even manage your own
      country well."á I
      sometimes wanted to leave the country, but was reluctant to give up the
      superior research facilities.á My
      extremely strong self-esteem as a Chinese helped me through the prejudiced
      environment, and I worked and studied awfully hard, for 16 to 17 hours a
      day on average, in the laboratory.á I
      sometimes leaned on the back of the chair to take a rest and oftentimes,
      stayed overnight in the lab.á Once
      I worked continuously for 60 hours, and fell asleep while I was driving
      home.á When I woke up, I found
      that I hit a big tree and the engine and the radiator were ruined.á
      The windshield was also smashed.á
      Since I was too tired, I was not 100 percent awake even when the
      seat belt had made a strap wound around my neck.á
      
I
      never had a vacation, a holiday, or even a weekend off during my 12 years
      in the United States.á Iá
      led my life this way to show my Chinese self-esteem and to hide the
      uncontrollable feeling of "living under someone else's roof."á
      I smiled and added, with tears in my eyes, that this was my first
      vacation in 12 years, and it was my first time in 12 years to step upon
      the soil of my motherland where I was born and brought up.á
      It is because I see hope in this country.á
      
All
      three of them listened, and one of them had wet eyes.á 
Soon,
      I was promoted to be an assistant professor.á
      It was nearly impossible for that to happen, because I did not have
      American academic degrees.á The
      American, who laughed at me then, became my student. 
This
      institute accepted as many as 200 Chinese postdoctoral students after me.á
      Many American professors said that if you knew Lili, then you would
      know the post-doc students from China are all good ones.á
      Of course, they like students who are like me.á
      Now, I have nearly $400,000 in research funds each year and I have
      acquired quite a reputation in my field.á
      These are all known facts.á 
They
      listened and remained silent; two of them had tears in their eyes. 
I
      told them that I started the cultivation practice of Falun Dafa after
      April 25, 1999.á They were
      curious and asked me why.á They
      were also surprised what was going on with Falun Dafa practitioners, a
      practitioner would give up his/her life for it even after only a short
      time of practice.
I
      sincerely told them my views of the April 25 event.á 
I
      learned about the April 25-Zhongnanhai incident from reports in the local
      newspapers.á I was shocked by
      the Falun Dafa practitioners' serene and peaceful composure.á I was shocked to see that there were people who had this
      unthinkable courage to appeal to such a ruthless government without fear
      of losing their homes and their lives!á
      It was simply inconceivable.á What
      kind of faith do these common Chinese citizens have that would make them
      so magnanimous?á I asked
      myself and knew that I could not be like that.á
      I, who was an enthusiastic person, have been exhausted by the
      cruelty of the world and the struggle to make a living.á
      Who has not been? 
When
      I found out what they believe in is
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance," I decided to practice Falun Dafa.á I did not even hesitate
      a moment.á The Fa (Great
      Law/Principle) that can change Chinese people to be so extraordinary in a
      short seven-year period must be supernormal.á
      I was a complete atheist.á But
      I believed that human nature and the characteristic of a nation couldn't
      be changed.á Now, it must be a
      miracle created by some kind of divine power.á
      
When
      I understood a little bit of the profound inner meaning of Falun Dafa, I
      soon realized what the practitioners went to Zhongnanhai for: for me, for
      you and for millions of kind people in the world who have not yet attained
      Dafa.á They did it to let more
      people live in a society where more people would be able to exercise their
      legal rights; to let more people return to the moral state where people
      speak out the truth and treat others with kindness; and to let the shining
      light of "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance" reach more people.á
      
One
      officer asked, "Why didn't you 'forbear'?" 
I
      looked at them and spoke slowly and clearly, "Silence to evil is not
      forbearance, and it would be blasphemy to the principle of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance."á
      I also said to them, "Don't you know that you and the
      government are persecuting people who are sacrificing everything they have
      to save your soul?á I feel
      grieved about the fact that even the sacrifice of Falun Dafa
      practitioners' lives would not wake you up.á
      Could a person's conscience be withered to such an extent?á
      It does not matter if you returned our kindness with enmity, but
      please wake up, for this country and also for yourselves."
After
      several stormy months I have realized clearly that the principle of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance" has been changing hundreds of
      thousands of ordinary, apathetic Chinese people, including myself, who
      follow the principle "heaven and earth will destroy him, unless he
      does everything just for himself."á
      It has also changed the hopeless Chinese national characteristics.á
      Through history, the Chinese had behaved submissively and only
      rebelled when forced by the government as in the Chen Sheng and Wu Guang
      peasant uprisings.á Since the
      suppression, Falun Dafa practitioners have unflinchingly endured
      everything, just to speak out the truth, to be allowed to practice the
      cultivation way they like and to be good people.á It would be fortunate for any country to have this kind of
      people. This is first time that I am proud to be Chinese and see hope for
      China. 
The
      officers were silent; one of them asked me not to say anymore.á
      
Later
      I told them the purpose for my returning to China.á I truly want to tell people and the Chinese government that
      Falun Dafa is good.á My first
      purpose is simple, I want to visit the grave of my second brother who died
      in a car accident 27 years ago and pay my respects.á
      In 1966, the great Cultural Revolution began. My father was labeled
      as a Pro-capitalist.á My
      12-year-old second brother stood up for my father.á
      My other two brothers and I dared not to make a sound.á As a result, my second brother was criticized and beaten at
      "criticizing meetings", sometimes as many as over 10 times a
      day.á He could not take it any
      more and in the end he went insane.á In
      1972, when he was 17, a car hit him due to his catalepsy.á I was unable to accept the fact, and I kept telling myself
      that he was not dead.á I did
      not go to the funeral and never visited his grave.á
      It was not until my practicing Falun Dafa that I could calm down
      and was able to face the fact that he was dead.á
      This time, I came back to say goodbye to him. 
They
      just sat there without saying a word for a long time. 
Later,
      I was taken to the police station where an officer-in-charge interrogated
      me.á He was unable to get what
      he wanted from me; instead I carried on a casual conversation with him
      most of the time.á I asked
      about his work, his family and his life.á
      He told me about his ideals and hopes.á
      I noticed that he smoked a lot, so I advised him to quit.á
      He said with a bitter smile, "Your fellow practitioners have
      worn me out, and I have to smoke more to get through it."á
      I smiled at him and told him not to be so attached to it.á
      He had read "Zhuan Falun" three times, in order to
      operate the suppression of Falun Dafa.á
      So, I knew he understood what I said.á
      I said to him, "You know who I am now, and you should not
      arrest me."á He said that
      he could not do anything about it and he was only a screw in a large
      machine.á I said that he
      should be a human being with emotions and thoughts first.á
      But he insisted that he was a screw first.á
      I did not compromise. In the end, he agreed that he should be a
      human with emotions and thoughts, then a screw.áá
      However, on the way to the detention center, he helplessly said
      that he had to be a screw first.á I
      was on the phone with him after I was released from my detention, he told
      me that after I was sent to the detention center, he remembered that I did
      not have enough clothes and thought about sending me some.á
      Tears came to my eyes, for he had revealed his Buddha nature.á
      I told him that I cried once in prison for him, because I suddenly
      felt that it was him who was jailed, not I.á
      He was silent for a while and then said that I might be right.á
      His heart is always sealed.á I
      was moved because he finally understood.á
      
It
      was already 5 a.m.. The officer told me to go home and pick up my passport
      at the police station the next day.á Later
      I was told that the other two practitioners from California, Zhao Chen and
      Huang Yun, were also under arrest at that time.ááááá 
2.áááááááá My experience in
      prison
The
      next day, two practitioners from Hong Kong and I went to the bureau to
      pick up our passports.á They
      officially arrested Chen Zhao, Yun Huang and me for "disturbing
      social order" and deported the other two Hong Kong practitioners.á When we were detained, the police forced us to watch an
      anti-Falun Dafa program made by the Phoenix TV station.á
      I watched with great interest because the program showed the
      picture of the April 25 Zhongnanhai event and the picture of Teacher Li
      with his family.á The police
      officers felt strange about my laughs.á
      I said that it was from this kind of program that I concluded Falun
      Dafa was good.á I analyzed the
      program for them and told them how the figure of 1,404 deaths [out of 100
      million practitioners in seven years - by translator] should make Teacher
      Li win a Noble Prize in medicine.á I
      also told them that the program was poorly produced.á
      Later, they decided to stop showing me the tapes, because I always
      could get good things out of them, and the negative materials had no
      effect "transforming" me.á 
Americans
      would never be able to imagine what it is like to be in a Chinese jail.á
      A person loses all their rights once arrested, as though they have
      disappeared from the world.á No
      phone calls and letters were allowed.á
      My husband from San Diego learned about my arrest from Mr. Zhang
      and called Shenzhen to find out at which place I was detained.á
      He was told that a criminal was not allowed to accept phone calls
      and that family members had to come in person.á
      The next few days, he tried to get help and find out where I was
      detained from local fellow practitioners, friends in Shenzhen and Hong
      Kong, and from friends who worked at the U.S. Consulate Office in
      Guangzhou, but to no avail.á The
      police were all passing the buck, and one of them even told him that the
      U.S. Consulate took me away.á It
      was Angela Lau, a reporter from the San Diego Union Tribune, who located
      me after a persistent search.á 
To
      be isolated from the outside world was just a small part of my ordeal.á
      I had no other clothes than the two shirts I wore,
      because I did not expect
      that they
      would detain me for the second time.á
      Two days later, Shenzhen was hit by record-low cold weather of the
      century.á While
      I slept on the cement floor, I
      could hear the
      cold wind howling through the broken windows and the holes on the cell walls.á
      I put on all the garments I could find, but still I was icy-cold all over and was unable to sleep all through the night.á
      ááThere
      was only one toilet with no flushing device in the cell, shared
      by forty inmates.á We had
      to scoop the water to flush it after each use, but it was impossible to flush it clean this way.á As a result,
      the cell stank badly.á To avoid smelling more of the bad odor, I had to withhold from defecation, which lead
      to constipation.á Later, I
      bled whenever I had a bowel movement, and it became worse and worse.á
      The guards were afraid that we would use our shoes for weapons, so
      we were not allowed to wear them.á There was water
      all over the floor, where
      we had to walk with bare feet.á
      Consequently,
      I a wound
      developed on my heel that was one-inch long and one-centimeter deep.á The wound did
      not heal until one month after I was released.áá
      Everyday, we had to make plastic combs from 8 a.m. to 10 p.m.á
      Our fingers bled from rubbing the plastic comb teeth due to the
      cold weather.á We would be
      beaten if we could not finish the quota set for each day.á
      I saw with my own eyes that a prostitute was beaten, because she
      was a slow worker.á There are
      endless stories about the dreadfulness inside a
      Chinese prison. 
There
      were mainly prostitutes, drug addicts, prostitutes that were also drug
      addicts, and swindlers in my cell.á The majority of them was forced into crime and was miserable.á The
      prostitutes were mostly forced or deceived into prostitution by their
      family, boyfriends or husbands.á The
      managers of the brothels forced them to take
      drugs in
      order to control them.á There
      was a swindler who was actually framed, and she had already been detained
      for over two years without being
      formally prosecuted.á However,
      nobody dared to touch those prostitutes
      who were HIV positive.á
      Every night, they would be prostituting on Badeng Street in Shenzhen.á When I told
      the police about this seriously, they said that it was none of
      their business.á 
I
      am not telling
      you these to vent my grievances.á ááRather, I'd
      like you to understand the
      impact these miseries had
      on me.á
      I used to be a spoiled woman living in ease and comfort with
      a strong self-esteem.á I was
      bad-tempered and arrogant before I practiced Falun Dafa.á
      I fired several of my secretaries for their unsatisfactory job
      performance
      and I was rude to the technicians and post doctors under my supervision.á After
      I started cultivation, I
      changed completely, but it is
      nonetheless hard to imagine that I could have
      spent 13 days incarcerated without any hard feeling whatsoever.á
      I was serene and calm, without any anxiety or agitation.á I felt sorry and sometimes even cried
      for my fellow inmates for their suffering, which made my own miseries disappear.á
      What
      I could sense instead was a spiritual uplifting and joy that I had never
      experienced before.áá I could see that I was becoming cleaner
      and prettier, as
      I gained altruism in my heart.á I knew these were all brought about by the power of Falun Dafa.á 
Without
      Falun Dafa, I could not have imagined myself being able to think of others
      under those circumstances.á As
      I mentioned before, we had quotas on the number of combs we had to make
      each day.á Most of the young
      prisoners who had just got in were unable to meet the quotas, and they
      were often beaten and sworn at by the guards.ááá
      A young prostitute complained that the Falun Dafa practitioners
      were slow, which made me a little ashamed.á
      Of course I could not do it well, because I had never made a comb
      in my whole life.áá I
      could not stand the torment the prostitutes received, so I decided to
      study how to do it faster.á I
      finally found some tricks, and I won a contest against the fastest hand in
      the cell.á I passed along my
      tricks to the young inmates so that they would suffer less torture from
      the guards.á Once again, they
      saw that Falun Dafa practitioners are good people anywhere.á
      
I
      can vividly recall my first night in jail.á
      It was about eleven o'clock.á I
      was a little afraid, when I learned that the inmates were prostitutes,
      drug addicts, or swindlers.á However,
      Chen Zhao and I had never expected that when the cell door opened, some
      inmates would call out, "Hey, here come the Falun Gong
      practitioners!"áá I
      was quite touched.á The
      inmates named me "Falun Gong Number 21", since I was the 22nd
      Falun Gong practitioner in this cell (The first one was numbered
      "0").á Falun Gong
      Number 3 was in the same cell with us.á
      She was detained for the second time.á
      No wonder the inmates were so excited when they saw us, because
      they had gotten to know the practitioners well.á
      They became more excited when they found out that we were from the
      United States.á That night, we
      chatted until the guard patrol came by our cell.á
      Later, I asked them how they could have recognized us as Falun Dafa
      practitioners right away.á They smiled, "It was easy.á
      You didn't look like drug users, petty thieves or prostitutes, and
      you looked so kind.á Who else
      could you be, if not Falun Dafa practitioners?"á
      
The
      second day in prison was the hardest for me.á
      I missed my son very much, and I cried.á
      My son is also a practitioner and a very good boy.á
      At the age of 12, he passed the SAT with a score higher than that
      of half of the students who got admitted into colleges and universities.á
      I had trouble controlling my emotions, so I asked Falun Gong Number
      3 to recite Teacher's article, "True Cultivation," for me.á
      After she recited it three times, I was able to let go of my
      sadness and stopped crying.á I
      suddenly discovered that the tears of human sentiment are completely
      different than the tears of compassion.á
      The former is turbid and bitter, while the latter is clear and
      sweet.á Later, I found out
      that my son is a better cultivator than I am.á
      When the reporter interviewed him and asked him if he worried about
      his mother, my son said, "My mom will be fine since she is protected by
      our Teacher's Fashen".á The
      reporter laughed after he found out what Fashen means, he thought my son
      was so innocent and adorable.á 
Immediately
      afterwards I was able to let go of my own sentimentality, I could feel the
      pain of the others in the cell.á Everyone
      was in this frantic state of mind like that of a constrained animal due to
      the loss of freedom.á The head
      inmate and the old inmates fought to the point where they were ready to
      kill each other.á New inmates
      trembled everyday with fear of being beaten and sworn at.á
      The drug addicts would torture themselves, use foul language and
      display rude behavior when they couldn't bare the urge to take drugs.áá All of these made my heart hurt.á I couldn't help but feel deeply: all sentient beings are
      suffering! 
After
      Chen Zhao and I talked with the inmates, I felt that many of them were
      predestined to attain Falun Dafa.á Some
      prisoners could feel the Falun rotating when they did the Falun Dafa
      exercises for the very first time.á An
      old inmate had a leg paralyzed, which made her very temperamental.á
      She often verbally abused young inmates.á
      We told her about the principle of loss and gain.á
      She really listened, and she changed a lot, which made her feel
      much better.á She said that
      the Teacher had taken care of her, because she would have discomfort in
      her body whenever she lost her temper again.á
      An inmate who might have been wrongfully accused was full of
      hatred, because she was detained for two years without formal prosecution.á
      After she started practicing Falun Dafa, she said that she would
      give up her plan for revenge and weigh everything according to Dafa, if
      she were to be sentenced.á The
      head inmate of cell 11 had a short temper and often physically and
      verbally abused younger inmates, but she was a bit afraid of us.á
      She said that the principle of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance" of Falun Gong was like an
      Incantation of the Golden Hoop around her head, it made her head ache
      whenever she cursed someone.á Once,
      she even promoted me to be the head inmate of cell 11.á
      I happily accepted, but it didn't last long.á
      Within half a day, I was removed from the position, because I was
      too lenient.á Later she
      announced at a morning gathering that she would administer the cell with
      the principle of "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance."á
      Several days thereafter, our cell became quiet and peaceful.á
      It no longer looked like a cell, but more like a female students'
      hostel. 
All
      the prisoners expressed their gratitude to Teacher Li for having sent us
      to tell them the principle of "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance" and
      how to be a good person.á All
      the changes were taking place within a few days, and everyone could feel
      the power of Falun Dafa.á I
      shed tears and rejoiced for them, because they were so fortunate to get to
      know Dafa.
There
      were touching stories everyday in the cell.á
      A young prostitute who was being transferred to a labor camp said
      to me with tears that she would never make a living by selling her body
      again, and if she were arrested again, it would be for being a Falun Dafa
      practitioner.á Another
      prostitute told me that if she were ever released, she would go to Beijing
      to tell the government that Falun Dafa practitioners are all good people.á
      One woman received a three-day detention for fighting with her
      neighbor.á She had planned to
      get revenge by burning the neighbor's face with sulfuric acid after her
      release. After attaining the Fa, she told me that she had given up the
      plan. On the day of her release, she even asked to stay in the jail for a
      few more days, so that she could be with us to learn more about Falun
      Dafa.á 
There
      were times when I did not conduct myself well in the prison and our
      Teacher would give me a hint through others' words. One night I was on
      duty, an old inmate was doing the sitting meditation exercise.á I saw a young inmate kick the quilt off, so I went up to put
      it back on her.á Suddenly, the
      guard shouted through the roof window, "Who is there
      meditating?"á I was
      afraid that they would increase the jail term for the inmate who was
      meditating, so I said to the guard a bit impulsively that no one was
      meditating here.á The guard
      muttered while leaving, "I didn't say that you were meditating.á
      Why did you talk back?"á I
      regretted what I had said.á How
      could I talk to others like that?á I
      apologized to him when he passed by later.á
      He snorted and said, "Your Teacher Li Hongzhi would discipline
      you, if he heard you had talked back."á
      My face flushed, and I was so ashamed of myself at the moment.á
      
After
      spending 13 days in jail, Chen Zhao and I were released separately before
      our jail term expired.á All
      the fellow inmates shed tears when I said goodbye to them in a hurry.á
      We all rejoiced though, because many of them had become Falun Dafa
      practitioners by then.áá 
Looking
      back on those 13 days, time just flew.á
      I abandoned a great number of attachments that I was unable to let
      go of before.á I deeply felt
      that Dafa had been leading me to move up in those days.á
      I realized that the reason why the suppression of Falun Dafa is
      taking place in China is because Dafa was spread from China.á Dafa stands like a huge tree with deep roots, and it thus has
      great endurance. I am only a small leaf and the huge tree holds me higher
      and higher. 
During
      my extradition, a policeman asked me if I made the detention center a
      Falun Dafa training class.á "Of
      course, no doubt about it," I replied.á
      The officers said with a smile that they would incarcerate me alone
      next time.á I told them to do
      whatever they pleased.á Then
      they said to me, "Go to the States to practice and don't come
      back."á I said, "I
      can't guarantee that.á The
      detention has given me an opportunity to comprehend better the true
      meanings of 'Truth-Compassion-Forbearance.' If an honest and
      accomplished person like me can be jailed, think about it, to what extent
      has the morality of this society been corrupted? You should give some
      thought on it."á 
After
      we were released, we were interviewed by dozens of newspapers and radio
      stations, including BBC, VOA, RFA and NPR, the largest American radio
      station.á Sometimes I
      encountered questions that were difficult to answer.á
      For example, a reporter from NPR asked me at the end of the
      interview, "Why did you go to visit your family in China?á Doesn't your Teacher teach you to take fame, money and
      sentiment lightly?"á I
      did not give him a direct answer.á Instead,
      I asked him, "If I could devote myself to the miserable inmates whom
      I had never met before, how would I treat my family with whom I'm closely
      associated?"á The
      reporter could not say a word.á I
      sighed that the profoundness of a practitioner is inconceivable to an
      ordinary person. A person becomes lonely when he has deep compassion.
After
      I returned, I found out that there were many kind people who had been
      caring about us.á After I was
      arrested, my husband and cousins made persistent efforts to rescue me.á
      Senator Diane Feinstein wrote a letter to request my release to Mr.
      Li Zhaoxing, the Chinese Ambassador to the United States.á
      Many scientists in our institute wrote to Mr. Li Zhaoxing and the
      embassy. There was an individual named Jessica whom I never knew before,
      together with her relatives and friends, wrote over 40 letters to Mr. Li
      Zhaoxing.á What was more interesting was that a colleague of mine, that
      was quite supportive of the Chinese government and had little contact with
      us, was roused to indignation about my arrest in China.á He had dinner with Mr. Li Zhaoxing and queried on my arrest,
      which embarrassed Mr. Li and Mr. An Wenbin.á
      The largest local newspaper made a series of reports on my arrest
      (6 times in total), which brought about great responses. What made me
      happy is that many people attained the Fa through the newspaper reports. 
á
III.áááááááááááá
      This past year is the record of practitioners' action of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance"!áá
      
The experience that the practitioners
      have in China is the record of their practice of the principle of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance".á
      Apart from appealing to defend human rights, we also want people to
      understand that what we need is not sympathy, because it is the ordinary
      people, who truly deserve sympathy, and not Falun Dafa practitioners.
      These practitioners' actions of "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance"
      belong to all sentient beings in the universe, and we should help everyone
      learn the power of Falun Dafa.á 
In the past year, it seemed that the
      practitioners had been merely demanding human rights and the
      rehabilitation of our name from the government.á
      Our tribulations received sympathy from a certain number of people.á
      Is this what we really want?á Is the recognition from governments and ordinary people so
      important to us? I think what we need is not sympathy.á
      We need to let ordinary people know why we are doing this
      and why we can do it.á While
      we are doing it, each one of us can realize the great power of Dafa deep
      down in our hearts.á This is
      because what we have done is far beyond what ordinary people can endure.á
      
During the interview in Hong Kong when
      I was just released, my description of my prison life drew a crowd of
      sympathizers.á Most female
      reporters shed tears over it.á My
      talk over the radio and my speech in the hearings were all very touching too.á But I did not know why, I was always unsatisfied with myself.á
      Later, I finally understood the
      reason.á I had
      described myself as a victim.á A
      victim is a weak person who needs
      sympathy and protection.á Why
      would a Falun Dafa practitioner need protection?á It is a joke to think like that.á
      From that point on, I no longer talked much about my miseries in
      prison.á Even when I talked
      about them, I emphasized on how these miseries brought me a spiritual uplift.á
      Also, I talked more about how the attitudes of the police
      and the prison guards had changed, how the inmates had attained Falun
      Dafa, and how Falun Dafa had transformed society.á
      Ordinary people can see only the things they want to see, but
      practitioners should see the power of the principle of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance."á
      We, the practitioners, sustain great responsibilities to awake the
      ordinary people, because they do not know the principle of
      "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance."á
      If we think of ourselves as victims, haven't we indeed reversed the
      roles?
More and more practitioners have
      learned not to judge good and bad by the standards of everyday people, of
      a society or of a government, because we know the criterion of the
      universe, "Truth-Compassion-Forbearance."á
      When Zhao Jinhua, a female peasant, would refuse to give up her
      belief even upon being tortured to death, can you say that she is pitiful?áá
      When Chen Zixiu, an old lady of nearly 60, praised Falun Dafa till
      her death, can you say that she is pitiful?á
      When hundreds of thousands of practitioners would never change
      their conviction under all means of tortures by the police, can you say
      that they are pitiful?á When a
      government has been unable to suppress our practitioners after resorting
      to all measures that its state machine has to offer, who dares to say that
      we are pitiful!á The ones that
      are truly pitiful are the ordinary people who cannot understand this realm
      of higher level.ááá We
      do not have to mention how we are being transformed in other dimensions;
      just the noble spirit of our righteousness exhibited here is enough to
      shake every soul on earth.á This
      is indeed the power of the law of the universe displayed in the human
      world.á Our Teacher praised us
      as early as the Chicago Conference, "You are truly amazing, the great
      gods!"á 
á
IV.ááááááááááááá
      Falun Dafa belongs to all sentient beings in the universe
On March 17, I was on my way back to
      San Diego after my successful speech at the congressional hearing.á When watching the passengers who have not attained Fa on the
      airplane, I was suddenly saddened and cried uncontrollably for three good
      hours.á I could not understand
      why I was so sad at that time.á Later
      I realized that it was because the secondary consciousness of the people
      on the plane were begging me, the only person aboard who attained Dafa, to
      awaken their main consciousness so that they can also attain Dafa.á 
Whenever I was a bit proud of myself
      when I did something for Dafa, my father in heaven would call my name and
      said to me: put down your pride and be more humble.á
      Only a humble heart can hold many people like a boat.á
      The more humble heart you have, the higher xinxing you will
      acquire, the more you can endure, and the more compassionate you will
      become. Thus, you can better assist Teacher to spread Dafa in this world.
Cultivation is endless, and we should
      give up everything we have for the sentient beings to be saved, including
      the sense of pride and accomplishment after the sacrifice.á
      Is that so, my Teacher?á I
      am in tears, not because I am afraid to do so, but because I am afraid
      that I am not up to that standard.á Good
      Heavens!á How holy, pure and
      beautiful it is to reach the realm of selfless devotion!á
      I want to know whether the glory of the higher beings of the
      universe is due to their giving and not taking.á
      
It becomes clearer and clearer to me
      how splendid it is in heaven. Let's all cultivate ourselves diligently to
      fulfill our initial wish, to be worthy of the teachings we have received
      from our Teacher and to help all kind-hearted and predestined people to
      attain Dafa.
á
 
               
               
               
                       
                            