To Mom and my whole family:
How are you?
I haven't written to or seen you for a long time. Please don't worry about me.
Several of us practitioners were assigned to different teams in the labor re-education camp. I am in the X team. Li Xiaoming (pseudonym) is getting better after having fallen from a building, however he is still weak. Thanks to Master's protection, Li Xiaoming was able to survive such a terrible fall. Three people who were released from Masanjia labor camp have constantly persuaded us to recant for 7 consecutive days. The test that we are facing is whether we can firmly believe in Dafa and cultivation.
It is most important whether we believe in Dafa firmly and consistently. We must not be confused or interfered with. With the Fa in my heart, the part of me that has enlightened will rectify the Fa. I ignore all the evil everyday people's nonsense that confuses right and wrong. The evil will disappear when my heart is motionless. I just gave them a light smile when they said: " Your biggest attachment is your fear. You are afraid of saying '[slandering phrase against Falun Dafa]'."
Dafa is the basic law of the whole universe. Dafa initiated everything of the universe. No one, no life whatsoever has a right to evaluate Dafa. Whatever you say about me, good or bad, is only an everyday person's judgment. "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance" is the only standard that truly distinguishes the kind from the evil, and the good from the bad.
I feel that those "transformers" are pitiful and sad. They are feeling helpless, that's why they try to spread black Karma from their mouths to me. One even scolded me. She said that if I wanted to cultivate to a higher level, I had to listen to them, and so on. She seemed very anxious and reckless because they couldn't change me. I asked her: "Is this your manifestation at high level?" She was left without an argument. In the end, when there was noting else she could do, she said, " I am working for the government. You must listen to me!" Her words disclosed her hypocritical disguise and showed her hideous features completely.
We are indeed bearing a lot of hardships, pressure, and insults, but to a cultivator of Falun Dafa, "There is sacrifice in forbearance. Being able to make sacrifices is an upgrade in one's cultivation practice." When I treat peple with compassion, I am cheerful, and my happiness inside is beyond words. Ultimately, both happiness and sufferings come to a peaceful state, a compassionate heart.
At present, I am the only one in the X team. Other determined practitioners have been transferred to other teams. The good thing is that I have gotten used to the loneliness. The test of life and death is no longer difficult. I am ready to sacrifice my life at any time to protect Dafa and establish Dafa's mighty virtue in the human world. I once told a policeman, "Life is precious; love is more valuable. For the sake of truth, I can give up both." For Falun Dafa, I am willing to be in jail forever.
I am not able to do more things for Dafa. Facing all kinds of tribulations, dangers, and difficulties, I will never recede. I know that on the earth, most practitioners are holding fast to the righteous belief of the truth like I do. I feel warm in my heart and tears fill my eyes when I think of my fellow practitioners and those who have given their lives for Dafa. If one can sacrifice his life for his belief and truth, can we say that he was working only for his own completion? Can we say that he was selfish? No, we cannot. We were created in the universe. The universe itself carries the characteristics of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. Everything we have done for Dafa is the returning to our true self, and the manifestation of the process of returning to our origin.
We must understand the Fa on the basis of the Fa. Whatever we do, if we see the essence of the matter from Dafa's point of view, everything becomes clear at a glance. This way, aren't we protecting the Fa whenever we are doing something? Dafa is harmonizing us, while we are also harmonizing Dafa, because we are particles of Dafa, and we are meant to exist like this. Yet, an everyday person cannot give up his or her attachment to life and death. Cultivation is most serious. Not being able to give up ordinary people's attachments at the final, critical moment will result in a miserable ending.
I seem to be standing at the division between the dawn and darkness. The long night will pass; a new world is waiting for me. I have nothing to seek after. I will go to wherever I was meant to go. I feel that I am the happiest. I firmly believe that I will walk out of the gate of the labor re-education camp sooner or later. All those who will enter the new era have the predestined relationships to learn Dafa. To all my respectable fellow practitioners I say that we are assisting in a great and magnificent mission. To not fear the sacrifice of our lives for the truth of the universe is our true nature. Please give up the selfishness and attain the "righteous enlightenment of selflessness and altruism". We don't hate or carry grudges. We are so fortunate to be able to validate Dafa and protect Dafa in this special historic period and this special environment. This is from the predestined relationships over remote ages. You and I, we are cultivating. Let's work hard in our cultivation together.
Please don't be burned, entangled, or tormented by the affection of ordinary people. In the mean time, we must be careful not to give the evil any audience.
That's all this time.
A Jailed Practitioner in China
September 18, 2000
