Being Aware of My Attachment to Browsing the Internet

(Minghui.org) I had an attachment to shopping online; it was so convenient. Unfortunately, this habit began replacing my time for cultivation.

Since I was young, my attachment to lust was also very strong. After I started to practice Falun Dafa, I became healthier and younger looking, but my lust induced me to buy clothes or other accessories to make myself look prettier.

I understand that there are old force factors behind these websites, which strengthened my attachment to lust. As this attachment grew, I also found myself seeking comfort. As a result, I could not do the three things that practitioners should do. I kept browsing those websites and became so tired. After returning from work, I went to bed rather than do the Dafa exercises.

I couldn’t sleep well, however, and often woke up at 1:30 a.m. with stomach pains. My legs, feet, back, and waist also hurt. On one occasion, after I went to the bathroom the pain intensified tremendously. I kept reciting “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!”

As the pain increased, I decided to do the exercises. It was almost 2 a.m. I vomited when I did the first exercise movement. After I cleaned myself, I continued to do the exercises. My back could not straighten however. I repeated what Master Li said:

“It’s hard to endure, but you can endure it. It’s hard to do, but you can do it.” (The Ninth Talk, Zhuan Falun)

My stomach was in pain again. I went back to bathroom, then continued to do the exercises. I went back and forth several times. My whole body was sweating. I wasn’t sure what to do, whether I needed to have a day off work or go to the emergency room. But I was afraid of having a negative impact on Dafa. It did not make sense to go to the hospital since this was not an illness.

I asked Master for help. I continued doing the exercises, but couldn’t stand for long. My hands were shaking, and my back would not straighten. I then decided to do the sitting meditation. Afterwards, my pain reduced and eventually vanished. It was 3:45 a.m.

I passed the test with Master’s support. I lost almost five pounds through the tribulation. But I went to work as normal the next day even though I still did not feel well. I recovered fully by the third day.

Master said:

“Let me put it this way, what I said just now is for all of those who have done things that are undeserving of the status of Dafa disciples. You’d better tell people about those things openly. That way, many things of yours will be eliminated, and at the same time it will make you really strengthen your resolve [to correct your behavior].” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference,” Collected Teachings Given Around the World, Vol. III)

This is a very serious lesson. I decided to disclose my attachments to lust and comfort. I will no longer be controlled by them and have decided to eliminate them.

Being addicted to the Internet was actually not my true self. Due to my attachments, this formed another body over a long period of time, which then began controlling me. It wanted to play around on the Internet. If I refused to do it, this “false” self would die. Perhaps this is one method used by the old forces to destroy practitioners.

All practitioners should be aware of my lesson. Please uninstall WeChat or other shopping apps. Don’t let the old forces exploit any loopholes. We should cultivate diligently to be righteous practitioners.