The Winding Path of a Former Lay Buddhist
(Minghui.org) I started Dafa cultivation in January 2020. I recall that in the middle of the 1990s, many older men and women were practicing Falun Dafa every morning in a small park near my home. They told me that it was very expensive to seek medical treatment, yet Falun Dafa has miraculous healing and fitness benefits and doesn’t cost a penny to practice. This was my initial understanding. At the time, I was striving vigorously for fame and personal interest; thus, health and fitness were far from my thoughts.
Later, due to a sudden change in my family, I saw the impermanence of life and felt that life was just too hard. In my hope to be liberated, I decided to give up everything in the world and converted to Buddhism.
For more than 10 years, I traveled to temples at home and abroad, and tried to practice various methods of Buddhism. However, I did not persist with any one method because I could not overcome the barriers of karma in the process of practicing. After so many failures, I suspected that my foundation was too poor, and I was almost desperate but not yet ready to give up. So I thought that I should find a capable master and support him, and when I die, I would be saved to the Western Paradise.
In 2010, I was unable to move due to herniated vertebrae in my lower back. Various treatments did not help. I was later introduced to several Chinese medicine doctors who practice Falun Dafa. They showed me how to meditate and send forth righteous thoughts every day and taught me to recite: “Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
They also used traditional Chinese medicine methods, including massage, to treat me. A few days later, my illness was cured. Not only did they have superb traditional skills, what I admire most are Dafa practitioners' noble character and compassion. So I forged an indissoluble bond with them.
In 2013, due to a landslide, I fell on a mountain and sustained multiple fractures. The most serious was a fracture in my lower back, which left me paralyzed. Western medical doctors and traditional Chinese medicine doctors all said that only surgically inserted steel plates fixed with screws could help me stand. But they were concerned that I was too old to heal well. In this predicament, I firmly decided not to have the operation.
Just when I thought everything was hopeless, I met some Dafa disciples seemingly by coincidence. Seeing my situation, they helped me practice the five Dafa exercises and told me to recite the Dafa phrases. They came to my house twice a day for three days to do the exercises.
On the fourth day, a miracle occurred. I was able to get up and walk, go to the bathroom by myself, and even cook for myself. On the sixth day, I went to the market with my friends.
I had been told by the doctors that it would take 100 days to recover from the muscle and bone injuries. Yet no one even touched me, and I was cured so quickly. People who witnessed it said Falun Dafa is amazing.
As I got better, I continued to look for relief for my other issues. I read Zhuan Falun then, but it seemed too high of a level for me to understand. I didn't believe it, and I didn't believe I could cultivate in Falun Dafa.
Many years passed in what seemed like the blink of an eye. At the end of 2019, I never expected it, but old illnesses from my youth returned. For example, when I was young I had congenital heart disease and neurosis. Now, I had cardiovascular obstruction and high blood pressure. At times my blood sugar level was as high as 178, which is diagnosed as diabetes in Western medicine. And I was again experiencing anxiety, convulsions, and mania. To address all these issues, I took medicine daily and had dizziness as a side effect. Life for me was worse than death.
At five o'clock one morning, I suddenly woke up from repeating in my sleep: “Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” For a long time, I couldn't wake up in the morning because of the medications I was taking. It was incredible to wake up this early. In my darkest hour, could it be Master Li Hongzhi [Dafa's founder] saving me again and guiding me to the path of Dafa cultivation? If this was the case, I had to seize this last opportunity!
I immediately bought a ticket to visit the Falun Dafa disciples that I'd previously known, hoping they could help me. They didn't turn me away! I lived in their home and again started Chinese medical treatment. At the same time, they guided me to practice the exercises, meditate, and study Dafa books almost all day and night. Sometimes, other Dafa disciples, whom I had never met, would come to help me send righteous thoughts and study the Fa together.
One day, some practitioners dreamed that Master arrived to clear out my energy field, and some saw many small Falun (law wheels) spinning around me.
One day at noon, several practitioners sent forth righteous thoughts with me. I felt that my heart suddenly stopped beating. It seemed that my breathing had also stopped. I thought I was going to die. At that moment, It felt like my heart burst out of my mouth. After a few seconds, my heart returned to normal and gradually calmed down. I realized that it was Master who was saving me and had helped me pass the test of life and death.
Late one night, an old problem of kidney stones surfaced again, and the pain was unbearable. At that time, the city was closed due to the Wuhan virus. I immediately begged Master Li to save me. Within two minutes, my right lower back felt warm. A few seconds later, I felt a puff of air being expelled from my back, and the pain immediately disappeared.
Master’s law bodies constantly cleansed and purified me, and removed a mountain of karma from my body, yet I also needed to bear the remaining karma. But without the compassionate and selfless help of fellow practitioners, I would not have been able to get through this tribulation by myself.
In this way, after more than 20 days of practicing cultivation at my fellow practitioner's house, I stopped all the medicines I'd been taking. The symptoms of heart disease, high blood pressure, and high blood sugar disappeared. My mood also gradually normalized.
After I read Zhuan Falun for the ninth time, I got up the next morning to meditate and suddenly saw myself seated on a lotus flower.
Over the past three months I have read Zhuan Falun 16 times and learned that Dafa is not used for healing and fitness, but for true cultivation. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is the highest principle in the universe.
I learned principles of the Fa that I had not heard about in the past 10 years of studying Buddhism: such as, what is the Main Consciousness, and what are Assistant Spirits; we were born with karma built upon karma; why exercise does not increase gong; without Master purifying our bodies layer by layer, no one can cultivate; and “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
What Master said is true. Based on my experiences during the cultivation process, I feel blessed that such a great Dafa is so very convenient. Although I hadn’t obtained the Fa until now, I think it’s actually easy to learn.
During this period, I got off antidepressant drugs, stopped all other treatments, and recovered completely. I am grateful to Master for not giving up on me after all these years. The miraculous nature of Dafa has been validated in my experiences, and I finally entered the door of Falun Dafa cultivation.