Cultivation Experience of a New Practitioner Born in the 80s
(Minghui.org) In a casual chat with a new colleague at the beginning of 2015, I learned about some shady aspects of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Later, through Wechat, he sent me a lot of information not available in China.
I believed what I read. Not long after that, a netizen sent me the electronic version of Zhuan Falun. Because I had heard that Falun Dafa was being persecuted by the CCP, I was curious about it.
At that time, my heart was filled with anger for the CCP, but I didn't have much interest in reading the book. I only read it once every few days, and it took me over six months to finish it.
However, my whole worldview had completely changed. At that time, I didn't have any concept of cultivation. I only knew that what Zhuan Falun taught was good, but I was not sure whether or not I should cultivate. Would Master Li (Falun Dafa's founder) really take care of me?
Sometimes on the road, I suddenly recalled the contents in the book and understood what the ups and downs in life were about; I couldn't help crying. I was slowly waking up.
My Body Was Being Cleansed
More than six months later, a practitioner brought me a hard copy of Zhuan Falun. I promptly read it straight through and learned the five exercises.
During that period, I did not go to work due to physical reasons. One day when I got up, there seemed to be a thick layer of paste in my head, and I had a very painful headache.
I had neurasthenia and severe anemia for more than ten years, and there was not a day my head didn't hurt. Once I had a night of sleep, I would wake up and feel a lot better the next day.
Then after one day's work, I became exhausted without the energy to speak. But this time my headache was different. I wanted to lie down when I saw the bed, and I was not somber at all. I could hardly keep myself awake for an hour or two, then fell asleep.
Only a few hours a day I was semi-awake, and the rest of the time I was asleep. This went on for five or six days. My symptoms gradually improved, and I found my head was not as painful as it was before, and I felt lighter. I was very happy, but I also felt strange.
One day I thought: "Is this what Master Li in the book said of purifying practitioners' bodies?" Later when I was on the phone with a practitioner, he said this was a good thing. I had three such experiences, and my headache was less and less severe each time.
“Many practitioners from different places have raised this issue previously in their experience reports, "Teacher, after attending your class I was looking for a toilet all the way home." This is because all your internal organs must be purified.” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
Once, I had diarrhea for more than a week without any other discomfort. I had been suffering from hypothyroidism for nearly 20 years and it just went away after I began practicing Dafa.
I also stopped taking medicine within the year I started practicing Dafa and still have not taken, or needed to take, medicine to this day.
Improved Relationship with My Mother
Since practicing Dafa, the most difficult hurdle was my relationship with my mother. My attitude towards her was very bad, and we often argued.
My contempt for her accumulated over the years and it made me ask myself: "What kind of relationship did we have in our previous lives for things to be the way they are now?"
I also had the thought that I could repay what I owed her in some other possible way, as our relationship was so trying. Every time I thought of Master's Fa, I also blamed myself. But as soon as I faced my mother, I completely forgot Dafa.
Whenever she said something unacceptable, I would immediately lose my temper, and even chastise her with nasty words, because that made me feel better. When Master's Fa made me sensible, I would treat my mother better, but it didn’t take long to start the next quarrel. This went on until February of this year.
Because of the outbreak of the Wuhan pandemic, I became nervous. The prophesized disaster has come, and time is running out.
I have only studied a small portion of Master's lectures and scriptures, so I realized I should hurry up and study the Fa more. From that day on, I asked myself to study at least one of Master's lectures every day.
One day I realized that the reason that I was so fed up with my mother was that she kept saying things without thinking and doing unexpected things. I would correct her, but she would make the same mistake the next time.
I always stood by my own point of view, thinking about how she was always like this.
“...in practicing cultivation in ordinary human society, we should respect parents and educate our children. Under all circumstances, we must be good and kind to others, not to mention to our family members.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
This made me realize that cultivators must treat everyone well and be kind to others even when others treat you badly. Why can't I accept others as they are?
The state of a cultivator should be peaceful, and my attitude towards others shouldn't be influenced by their good or bad behavior; I must be kind to others unconditionally.
Only if I change from the inside will the environment around me become better. After I got up the next day, my mood immediately changed, and there were fewer factors in my mind that made me feel exasperated with my mother.
I promised myself I would not quarrel with her again. I spoke quietly and patiently explained why a thing was done a certain way and what was wrong with the other way.
I knew that Master had eliminated evil factors.
Learning to Look Within
A few years ago, under Master’s arrangement, I met another practitioner online. Inspired by her, I learned to find my own attachments.
When in a conflict, I can find all kinds of hidden attachments from my own reactions, changes in emotions, and thoughts. After I find my attachments, I immediately deny them.
I think, “This kind of mind is not mine, get rid of it; that thought was not mine, eliminate it.” Although the attachment may still be there, this habit keeps me alert.
Because once I relax and don’t deny it, after a long time, I think those concepts and thoughts are my own, and they can continue to be exploited by the old forces.
"There is a principle in this universe called “no loss, no gain.” To gain, one has to lose.” (“Lecture One” in Zhuan Falun)
I gradually came to care less and less about my self-interest. If someone else promised to give me something but failed to follow through, I realized that I must have owed them in a previous life.
If that is not so, and he took what should belong to me, then I would also be happy. I am a cultivator, and the most precious thing a cultivator has is “virtue.” Didn't he compensate me with virtue?
I also learned to look within myself to understand the things that happen around me. For example, to listen to Master’s lectures, I bought a player that worked very well. But the second player I purchased didn't. Sometimes it worked, and sometimes there was no sound when it was turned on. This went on for almost a year, and I thought it was due to the bad quality of the player.
Recently, I realized the issue with the player was a reminder of my cultivation state; I sometimes studied the Fa, and sometimes I did not.
After I realized this, I studied the Fa more than before. The player has worked just fine since then. I was considering whether or not to dispose of it, but I am very happy because the player is reborn due to the change in my thinking.
I often sigh at the wonders of cultivation and feel very fortunate that I was able to obtain the Fa. At the same time, I am ashamed of my lack of diligence and that I may have made Master anxious.
I was given so many hints, but I didn't get it and have wasted precious time. There are no words for me to express my gratitude to Master and Falun Dafa.