(Minghui.org) I do sales work and there are many chances for attachments to develop, such as attachments to fame, profit, and emotion. I’m very busy with work, and I used to depend on my husband to help me clarify the truth about Falun Dafa to people. I didn’t study the Fa much, and hadn’t cultivated diligently. My mind was full of messy thoughts.
Looking Outside Instead of Inside
In September 2017, my husband got a terrible stomachache and couldn’t eat. He started to lose weight. He couldn’t go out with me to clarify the truth. Twenty days passed and he became thinner and thinner. His eyes turned yellow. I was very worried. I asked him to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts more. I didn’t seriously look within, however. Instead, I only focused on things he did that didn’t meet Dafa’s standards.
One day when I was on a business trip, my family called me asking if I could come home to help my husband because he was in so much pain that he couldn’t eat or speak. I was very anxious and worried. I could hear his painful moans as he made the effort to spit out a few words: “Send righteous thoughts for me.” I said I would.
I was so worried that I almost cried. I asked him, “Did you ask Master to help you? Hurry up and make a plea to Master to save you… If nothing works, do you want to go to the hospital?” As soon as I said this, I felt it was wrong.
After the call, I thought about what I'd said. Ordinary people go to the hospital and they are supposed to go through birth, old age, illness, and death. My husband used to have liver disease, and he recovered after practicing Falun Dafa. The hospital didn’t save him. Only Dafa's Master could save him!
I kept telling myself in my heart, “Have firm faith in Master and the Fa.” After I calmed down, I kept reciting the formula for righteous thoughts: “The Fa rectifies the Cosmos; the Evil is completely eliminated.” Even when I woke from sleep that night, I started reciting the formula.
I arrived home from my business trip the next day. After a brief talk, I sat down to send righteous thoughts with my husband. During those days, he looked dark and thin. His skin and eyes were a waxy yellow. He looked horrible. Gradually, I steadied my mind and stopped worrying. I needed to send righteous thoughts with a peaceful heart.
We are Dafa disciples in the Fa-rectification period. All appearances of illness are false. We should not acknowledge anything that interferes with our studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending righteous thoughts. It’s a critical time for saving sentient beings, and Master would not arrange for my husband to fall ill. We are protected by Master, and we only walk the path that Master has arranged for us!
I reviewed my thinking all over again and looked within to find my own deficiencies. I realized that I didn’t study the Fa enough, and I didn’t truly cultivate diligently. After cultivating for many years, my attachments to fame and profit were still very strong, as was my heart of resentment.
I had an attachment to the money in our bank account. I worried about not being able to get the money if something bad happened to my husband. Didn’t such a filthy attachment attract this tribulation? Why would I worry about money? I felt ashamed, and I sent righteous thoughts to get rid of these attachments.
It broke my heart to see that my husband, a Dafa disciple who was supposed to save others, spent most of the time lying in bed listening to Master’s teachings. In tears, I told him, “You are Master’s Dafa disciple. You have such a great Master. Countless sentient beings in your dimensional field are watching you, their god, anxiously waiting for you to save them. Master would never arrange for you to lie in bed, unable to do anything at such a critical time for saving people. You must stand up and do things you ought to do...” My husband shed tears too.
My husband started to do an extra hour of the sitting meditation at night, in addition to the morning meditation. He looked within, started doing Dafa projects on his phone, and tried his best to do whatever he should every day. Gradually, I noticed some changes. He could eat more and more, and his eyes were not as yellow. He became more energetic.
Within two weeks, he had recovered without using any medicine or going to the hospital. Dafa is amazing.
Getting Rid of Human Notions
Every winter in recent years, I have displayed the symptoms of a cold. It first started with a headache and fever. Then I had coughing, with mucus in my throat. After that I had a runny nose and teary eyes. Finally, I couldn’t sleep well due to a stuffy nose. The series of symptoms appeared one after another. Once the symptoms of a cold started, I had a hard time speaking and felt miserable.
When winter started in 2016, I wore a lot of clothes to avoid catching a cold. Since I didn’t cultivate myself solidly, I was afraid of getting a cold. I didn’t realize that I needed to get rid of human notions and deny interference by the old forces. Therefore, the symptoms started all over again and I got a cold. The symptoms lasted for almost a month. It seemed like a tribulation that I couldn’t avoid.
In the winter of 2017, the symptoms started again, and I felt I was going to catch a cold. However, I was very alert this time. I thought, as a practitioner who has cultivated for so many years, how could I catch a cold? Isn't thinking that I would get a cold an unrighteous thought? It was a human notion that I needed to change. This time is for saving sentient beings, and I’m catching a cold here? I deny such a human notion that was forced on me by the old forces!
I understood that the notion of “getting a cold” was arranged and pressed into my mind and dimensional field by the old forces. It made me believe that I had caught a cold. As a practitioner, we should understand what illness karma is. It’s nothing, and I should not even have the notion of “catching a cold.” I will bear whatever I am supposed to bear, but I would firmly deny the arrangements that I am not supposed to go through!
I continued to do everything I was supposed to do: studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending righteous thoughts. Once the symptoms or thought of catching a cold appeared, I immediately denied it and did not acknowledge it, thinking that it wasn’t the real me and that I should correct such a state!
I broke through the old mindset. In less than a week, I felt perfectly fine without any symptoms.
Category: Improving Oneself
