Finding Falun Dafa after a Near-Death Experience
(Minghui.org) At the age of 36, I started suffering from lower back pain and ulcerative colitis. I also feared the possibility of colon cancer.
Though my employer required women to wear high heels to work, I was unable to comply with this requirement due to leg pain. Before the colitis caused me any significant problems, I did not take my condition seriously. However, I became concerned when the doctor presented me with his exam results and ordered a colonoscopy to verify the extent of the disease. My ailments eventually forced me to resign from my job.
I returned to my hometown and made preparations to have the colonoscopy at the local city hospital. During this time, I felt very depressed and often cried. An invisible pressure constricted my chest, and I could hardly breathe. I could not bear to consider the possibility of leaving behind my precious son, husband, and family. The torment was indescribable and left me unable to sleep at night.
Just before I set off for the hospital, my mother-in-law, a practitioner of Falun Dafa, pulled me aside and advised me, “Whenever you feel that your life is in danger, remember to sincerely recite, ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Save me, Master Li!'” To humor her, I verbally promised to follow her advice. However, in my heart I did not believe in the goodness of Dafa--I still believed the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) media propaganda and lies.
Because it had been decided earlier that my younger brother would accompany me for this procedure, I had first visited my own family home. Just before we left for the hospital, my mother, also a Falun Dafa practitioner for many years, took me aside and told me, “Remember to silently and sincerely recite, ‘Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good. Save me, Master Li!'” I again verbally agreed, though deep down inside I knew I was deceiving her as well.
The colonoscopy was extremely painful. Throughout the process, I screamed in pain and my clothes were soaked in sweat. I started yelling at the doctor that I was going to die!
To prepare for the procedure, I had eaten virtually nothing for the previous two days. The trauma and my emotional state caused so much added stress that I fainted. At that moment, my soul floated out of my body. I felt so light and had no pain. I even saw my body clearly lying below me and thought to myself, “Wow, so this is what happens when someone dies.”
Suddenly, a faint thought jarred me, “I cannot die and leave my son and husband behind. I have to live!” My mother and mother-in-law’s advice came to mind, and I quickly seized that faint lifeline, silently reciting over and over, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Save me, Master Li! I don't want to die! I don’t want to leave my son and husband!” After reciting this a few times, my floating soul gradually fell back into my body and I woke up!
That experience truly was a wake-up call for me. It instantly cemented my belief that Falun Dafa is a righteous Way and that my mother-in-law and mother had both spoken the truth. Master Li saved me at that critical moment! I discarded my belief in the CCP’s lies and acknowledged its despicable actions in persecuting Dafa.
This experience left me with a strong epiphany that life is just an empty dream. I had worked hard to support my family for 17 years, yet when I was on my deathbed, my husband, son, parents, and in-laws were not even nearby. My husband could not afford to take a day off from work. My mother-in-law had to take care of my son and get him to school. This had not troubled me earlier, but after this near-death experience, I felt life was so empty and desolate. Death would eventually separate me from everything, leaving nothing. This experience granted me a new perspective on the meaning of life!
I stubbornly insisted that the doctors complete the procedure before I stumbled out of the exam room, doubled over and clutching my abdomen. I began to sob uncontrollably the minute I saw my younger brother, who had been patiently waiting outside.
During the ride home, I silently recited, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I always got motion sickness riding in a car, but to my surprise, this time I felt perfectly fine.
My mother had prepared a bowl of watery porridge on my bedside table. I took a sip, but the pain as the porridge went through my intestines was so bad I could only curl up in bed. When I next looked up, I found my mother crying as she stood beside me.
I quickly got up and knelt before my mother, weeping as I clung to her clothes, “Mom, I am living a life worse than death. If there is a way to cure me, no matter what it is, I will do it.” My mother replied, “To escape this suffering and be cured, you will have to cultivate Dafa.” Full of hope, I grabbed onto this lifeline. Borrowing a copy of Zhuan Falun from my mother, I returned to my in-law’s home and determinedly embarked on the road to cultivation practice.
While reading the fourth chapter of Zhuan Falun, I felt Master cleansing my body. I finished reading the book within a few days, then started over again. Gradually, I found the answers to many of my longstanding questions: Where did we come from? Where will we go? Why do we exist? Why must our lives be filled with suffering? Zhuan Falun truly teaches one to be a good person and how to succeed in cultivation. It is nothing like the CCP’s propaganda. Based on the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance, Falun Dafa helps cultivators improve themselves in order to become better people.
I have now cultivated as a Falun Dafa practitioner for over ten years. My ailments gradually vanished with no medical treatment, and I was restored to complete health. Though I am now 48, I’ve been told that I look much younger.
I am sharing my experience in hopes that those who still believe in the CCP’s lies will learn from my story, open their hearts, and truly try to understand Falun Dafa. Do not be fooled like I was and leave this world with regrets!