Relatively New Practitioner: The Path Back to My True Origin
(Minghui.org) Greetings, esteemed Master and fellow practitioners:
I am a relatively new Falun Dafa practitioner and was fortunate to step into Dafa cultivation in 2018. Since then, I have followed Master on the path back home to my true origin.
Benefiting from Practicing Dafa: Recovery from Chronic Hives Within Three Days
Just as I was about to turn 30, I began to suffer from chronic hives. I had itchy red spots on my arms and legs that sometimes stung. At times I needed to scratch my skin as it was so itchy. The more I scratched, the itchier it became, and my skin started swelling. Chronic hives are hard to cure. Patients should not eat anything that might cause an allergic reaction, such as chili peppers or seafood. To get some relief, I traveled back and forth between Western and Chinese medical clinics.
When I got home, I started to boil Chinese herbal medicines. In addition to taking Chinese medicines, I also took Western medicines to control any allergic reaction. The side effect of Western medicines was insomnia. I was not able to fall asleep until around 2 a.m. or 3 a.m., so I had no energy when I went to work. I tried all kinds of medications – Chinese, Western, folk remedies, and I did physical exercises as well. None of it helped. The chronic hives lasted longer every time they occurred. I became less confident in whether I could recover.
Before I got sick, my mother had booked a plane ticket from China to visit me. She had practiced Falun Dafa for 13 years and had been very well physically. She never went to a doctor for medications or injections. She suggested that I start cultivating in Falun Dafa. This time, I carefully held Master’s book Zhuan Falun and started to read it.
“I will purify your body. The body purification will be done only for those who come to truly learn the practice and the Fa. We emphasize one point: If you cannot relinquish the attachment or concern for illness, we cannot do anything and will be unable to help you.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I decided that I wanted to study the Fa because I wanted to restore my health. This was a wrong reason. I must relinquish my attachment for treating my illness and handle myself as a cultivator, as Master only takes care of a truly cultivating disciple. Starting from the third day of studying the Fa, I did not take any anti-allergic medicine, and since then, my allergic symptoms have not returned. Within three days, the chronic hives that made me suffer for months were gone. I had experienced the power of Dafa after I began to cultivate.
Elevating Xinxing and Creating a Cultivation Environment
Before I started to cultivate, I was the boss in my marriage. Everything had to be in line with my thoughts, otherwise I would get very angry. We always quarreled, especially when he played computer games. When I got angry, I disconnected the wifi system and threw the router and computer to the ground. However, I could not make him give up playing computer games. So, my temper worsened.
After I started to cultivate, I did not do anything radical, but I still felt unsettled whenever I heard the clicking sound of his mouse. I sensed that this was not the state of a cultivator. I looked within and found many attachments. One of them was a strong competitive mentality, while another was the desire to be in control.
In my mind, playing computer games was a waste of time, and it harmed the eyes. The more my husband played computer games, the more hot-tempered he became. I thought that he should use his time to upgrade his professional knowledge, and that he should not waste his time playing computer games. In this thought was hidden an attachment for self-interest. If he increased his professional knowledge, he could get a new job, which would give him a better salary. I slowly controlled myself not to think of it, and I let go of being upset.
My husband and I had a very strong predestined relationship that had brought us together in this life – he was also a life that had come for the Fa. However, he was now lost in computer games and controlled by them.
Then, I knelt before Master’s picture, cried and begged Master to show me my attachments. If I still had a competitive mentality and other attachments, there had to be other ways to show me, instead of using my husband. He should not waste his life like this, as he also came for the Fa.
I begged Master to remove the bad substance behind him. Then, I went out of the room and said, “How about you don’t play computer games now?” At first, I could manage to be kind. Then, I said it more and more. He was not able to bear it. He smashed the mouse, said very bad words, and was getting ready to walk out of our home. I saw his demonic behavior bursting out, but was not angry. I just felt that he was very pitiful. I looked at him as if I looked at a sentient being lost in the maze of the everyday society. At that moment, I felt very sorry that he hadn’t obtained the Fa.
To stop him from leaving I pulled his arm. I asked him in a low and gentle voice why he became so angry. He said furiously, “What you have said hurt my dignity!” I thought about what he said: I agreed that I was very unkind, and I didn’t consider whether he could accept it or not. Looking at him, I said sincerely: “I am sorry; I was wrong. I shouldn’t have said that.” I did not feel any resentment at that moment. The next night, my husband deleted his computer games.
“'I'm going to go clarify the truth now', as if at that moment they're going to clarify the truth, but they don't clarify the truth normally. Saving beings should permeate every single aspect of your daily lives at this time. If you can all understand and really see its importance, I think you'll probably save more beings.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. IV)
I changed my attitude towards computer games. From the beginning, I had a competitive mentality, and attachment for self-interest when I did not allow him to play computer games. Later, I saw that a life that came to obtain the Fa was now lost in human society, and I felt sorry that he wasn’t able to find his way back to heaven. My compassion came out.
I was thinking from his point of view, and communicating with him selflessly. I respected his choice. He changed eventually. But, I knew everything was done by Master. Master said: “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun).
He had played computer games for over 10 years, and the attachment was difficult to let go. So, would it be willing to be eliminated in the other dimension? When my cultivation changed, and I viewed things based on the Fa’s principles, Master removed the bad substance of computer games behind my husband, who was not yet a practitioner.
Clarifying the Truth to Colleagues
As I studied more of Master’s teachings, I realized that it was urgent for me to go out to clarify the truth and save sentient beings, because people were poisoned by lies. I was once a victim of lies. After I started to cultivate, I experienced the beauty and glory of the Buddha Fa. Falun Dafa is so good, yet mainland Chinese hate the Buddha Fa because the CCP has been smearing and slandering Dafa. When they pass away, they will find that the Buddha Fa was near them, but they narrowly missed the opportunity. It will be too late for them to repent. I can understand that feeling, as I regret wasting 12 years and not obtaining the Fa earlier. I decided to clarify the truth about Dafa to colleagues.
I worked for a Chinese state-owned company and most of the employees were Chinese. In the past, I often asked for sick leave when I fell ill with hives, so everyone knew about my illness. I was on good terms with my colleagues, which was a good foundation for truth clarification. I told them the facts individually. Normally I had lunch with my supervisor. She’s from Hong Kong and did not join the CCP or its youth organizations. This was my first time for truth-clarification, and I felt uncertain. She understood the truth and then brought her husband to hear me talk. He came from Guangdong Province, and he quit the CCP after hearing the truth.
Then I clarified the truth to the daughter of the company’s major shareholder. At first I said that I would like to share with her my true personal experience, how my illness was healed, and how come Falun Dafa is the Buddha Fa. Then, I talked about living by the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. I talked about not using anything from the company for my personal use, and I have never asked for “fake” sick leave since I started to cultivate in Dafa. And how I took the initiative to work overtime to complete a job. Then I moved on to explain the Tiananmen self-immolation hoax, live organ harvesting, and quitting the CCP. She was touched after hearing the truth and said that she wanted to help her whole family quit the CCP. She said, “You can share your experience with other people in the company.” She reminded me that, though we were in Australia, I should be mindful of my safety.
This showed that sentient beings have chosen the compassionate side after learning the truth. I felt very happy for her. After I clarified the truth to her, she said that she would increase my salary when the Chief Financial Officer came back from China. I was the busiest person in the company, and I often worked overtime, but my salary was the lowest.
When the CFO came back, he had a meal with the finance department. During the meal, he said his wife was sick and needed an operation. I thought it was not accidental that I learned this. I planned to use this as an opportunity to clarify the truth. After the meal, I went to clarify the truth to him. He was a CCP member and quite senior ranking in a state-owned company. He had too many concerns. In the end he said, “You shouldn’t have told me this.”
Over a month passed, and he came to Australia on business again. This time he asked to talk with me, but it was not about increasing my salary. On the contrary, he said, “Due to financial reasons, the company has decided to cut jobs. You can work until June 30.” Before this talk, I vaguely felt that his attitude to me was different, so I was prepared for this already. I said, “No worries. I believe I can find another job soon.” He calmed himself and said: “I’m happy that you have such confidence.”
He probably expected me to cry upon hearing the news, so he used the meeting room that was in a remote corner of the company for this conversation. However, I was peaceful and determined. I knew my confidence came from Dafa. And I knew that telling people the facts so that they weren’t being fooled by lies is the most righteous thing in the universe. I would not lose my job because of truth clarification. I would have better job opportunities.
Though I was peaceful upon learning the news of being fired, I was thinking about what to do next. However, I firmly believed that Master had better arrangements for me.
Master said: “A cultivator cannot achieve Consummation when laden with human thoughts, laden with karmic debts, or laden with attachments.” (“To the Chicago Fa Conference”, The Essentials Of Diligent Progress, Vol. III)
I was thinking, if I was not able to find an appropriate job for the time being, I could use the time to study Master’s early teachings, or help out in the Epoch Times, or go to tourist sites to clarify the truth. In other words, I had to let go of all attachments and follow Master’s arrangements.
Within less than two weeks I got three job offers, which was beyond my expectation. My new job started on July 1, which was so well-timed that it was not a day more or a day less – just in time to link up with the date that I was fired by the previous company. I was cultivating with my celestial eyes closed, but at that moment I truly felt that Master was always by my side and taking care of me.
Clarifying the Truth to the CEO Before Leaving the Company
“Also, with those people that you run into by chance, who you run into in daily life, and the people you run into at work, you should all clarify the truth to them. Even when in your daily life you pass by people so quickly that you don't have a chance to talk to them, you should still leave them with your compassion and kindness. Don't lose those who should be saved, especially those with predestined connections.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. IV)
In my last week in the company, I realized that the CEO of the company was the only person that I had not clarified the truth to, except for colleagues who don’t work at headquarters. I wanted to tell him the facts, but I didn’t know what excuse I could use to see him. I was also worried that he would find it hard to accept, as he was a person who obtained benefits from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), otherwise he wouldn’t have agreed to sack me.
Then, I got busy, and I forgot about truth clarification. Two days later, I came across an old document dating way back to when CEO’s still signed the documents manually. Now, all documents were signed electronically, and there was no need to have management physically sign the paper. But this document strangely required his signature. I felt a bit resentful for having to go get his signature when I was so busy. But as I went into his office, I suddenly realized that it was a very good opportunity to clarify the truth to him. So I naturally started my conversation by saying: “Today will be my last day working in the company, and I really appreciate your teaching me so patiently after I came to work here.” I continued: “Could I call you uncle? I would like to share with you my true personal experience. ”
The CEO was very happy and told me to have a seat. I started to tell him that I was sick at first and became well again after practicing a qigong. I then told him what I practiced was called Falun Dafa. After that, I told him about the problems in the Tiananmen self-immolation hoax. He was very attentive and asked me, “Is what you have said true?” I answered “yes.” I also told him how I have improved my relationship with my husband after I cultivated in Dafa. In the end, I told him, “I hope you will remember the nine lucky words – they are “Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance is good” in English, and I wish you safety and happiness.” The CEO looked at me and nodded. I could see that he was convinced by what I said. I came to understand that those people who get benefits from the CCP know more clearly the evilness of the CCP than ordinary citizens and that it would be easy for them to understand the truth.
Master said: “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master. It is good enough if you have this wish. It is the master who actually does this, as you are simply unable to do it.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Master had arranged this opportunity for me because I had the heart to tell the facts to the CEO! My enlightenment level was low at that time, and I was actually sort of pushing away the opportunity. I also felt that everything has been planned by Master and that it will definitely succeed as long as we do it with righteous thoughts.
Cultivating in a Pure Land
Master said: “To tell you the truth, the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Although I have only been practicing Dafa for less than a year, I can feel all the time that Master makes use of the tribulations around me to hint at my attachments, to show Fa standards, and teach me how to elevate my xinxing in a very painstaking way. It appears that we are suffering, but with a closer look, they are turned into heavenly stairs that take us back.
I am very lucky to become a particle of the Fa in this life. I am grateful for Master’s mercy, which allows me a pure land in the maze of human society, and leads me to the path back home.
(Presented at the 2019 Australia Fa Conference)