(Minghui.org) Every week I collect the names of people that other practitioners have helped quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations. I always carefully verify, classify, and summarize the lists, and then type them up and get them posted to the Quitting the CCP Center's website.
Some practitioners live far away, so they deliver the lists once a month, and each time they bring me hundreds of names. Some elderly practitioners don’t organize their lists into categories. Their papers are not organized and the writing is small. I have to separate which people quit the Party, the Youth League, or the Young Pioneers. Sometimes I’ve gotten dizzy from sorting names and even felt like throwing up. Sometimes it takes me more than a day to get the names typed and posted. I became impatient and complained in my heart about practitioners not being thoughtful.
I knew that I needed to improve my tolerance. I tried my best to control my temper. But when I saw that the handwriting was illegible I got so angry that I was short of breath. Other times, the list of names was so long that six or seven people might have the same name. I had to post those names one at a time to differentiate them.
One practitioner wrote down each word from people’s voice messages. Another’s notes were like an essay. After a very long paragraph, some people refused to quit the CCP. I got very frustrated. I told the other practitioners that it was too much work for me and that they needed to organize their lists before sending them to me. One practitioner suggested that I share my workload. I didn’t know what to say because none of the elderly practitioners knew how to use a computer or how to get on the Internet. Which one of them could help me?
Master Li said, “For a cultivator, looking within is a magical tool.” (Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference)
I realized that I was the one who had a problem, and I needed to correct my attitude. Instead of examining the other practitioners for faults, I needed to look at myself. Being impatient and fearing trouble was due to my selfishness. I should have eliminated these attachments long ago.
Master said,
“I also want to tell you that your nature in the past was actually based on egotism and selfishness. From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism.” (“Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
I had not cultivated myself; instead, I kept on blaming fellow practitioners. I forgot that this was Master’s arrangement to help me improve through the project.
One day, a practitioner told me that she listened to the voicemails of people who quit the CCP and transcribed them even though it was past midnight. She carefully listened to each one because she didn’t want to miss anyone who wished to be saved. This practitioner is nearly 80 years old. I was so moved. I haven’t done nearly as well she has. I felt so ashamed that I had complained about her. I never considered how hard it must be for her. She worked so hard, yet I wanted to share my workload. She smiled and said that she wouldn’t feel comfortable working with anyone else. I appreciated how the other practitioners trusted me, and I knew I couldn't let them down.
One day, another practitioner and I went out to talk to people about quitting the CCP. Some people were in a hurry. She followed them and kept talking to them, while I wanted to give up. She patiently persisted until the person nodded. Then she wrote down a pseudonym for the person such as “Peace” or “Happiness.” After I saw this, I realized that was why those names repeated so often. I witnessed the difficulty fellow practitioners faced and their persistence. After that day, I stopped criticizing them.
Thinking the practitioners who took detailed notes of the voicemails, weren’t they being responsible and serious? They did nothing wrong, and they intended to do things well. When there’s a problem at work, I am responsible for solving the problem, not blaming others.
Master told us,
“Whatever you experience during your cultivation—whether good or bad—is good, for it comes about only because you are cultivating.” (“To the Chicago Fa Conference” The Essentials of Diligent Progress Vol. III)
Master arranged this to improve my xinxing. My heart gradually calmed down, and I no longer complain or feel upset.
A practitioner recently gave me a list of people who’d quit the CCP. The handwriting was neat and the names were organized into categories: Quitting the CCP, the Youth League, and the Young Pioneers. I said, “Wow, that’s awesome! You saved me so much time!” I really appreciated her efforts. She then told the other practitioners how to do that and they’ve followed suit. My work is much easier now.
Another practitioner made me a special bag for my computer. I’m so grateful for their help and care. I’m especially grateful for Master’s benevolence.
Most of the practitioners who help people to quit the Party in our area are over 76 years old. Some are even over 80, but our project is going very well. Hundreds of people have quit, but no names or numbers were missed. No one has been overlooked.
Category: Improving Oneself
