(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 2014. I was poorly educated and thus asked a fellow practitioner to write this article for me.
My third eye had been open since childhood, and I remember seeing strange things as well as Buddhas and beautiful heavenly maidens in other dimensions. I was so naive that I thought everybody else could see them. too.
A Life of Suffering
I was born into a poor farming family and had an older and a younger brother. My health was poor, and I came down with a serious illness at the age of six, but my family couldn't afford to have me treated. My mother left me outside in an old bamboo basket to die. Some kindhearted villagers fed me, and I survived.
My mother valued males over females, so I had to do the household chores and field work while carrying my younger brother on my back, whereas my older brother didn't have to do anything. The only break I had was going to school. But with my younger brother on my back all the time, I was so exhausted that I often fell asleep in class.
For the sake of a dowry, my mother married me off when I was a teenager. Unfortunately, my husband died a few months after our son was born. To make a living, I took my son with me and left home to find work. I endured many hardships to bring up my son, and all we had was each other. When he was 21 years old, he died of an acute illness.
The Power of Dafa
A relative brought me a copy of Zhuan Falun, the main text of Falun Dafa, and told me that it was a priceless book. I couldn't even read the title--how could I start? I asked someone to help me read the book, character by character.
I was very distressed and anxious, so I held the book in my hands and thought, “I want to read! I want to read!” That night, I had a dream. In my dream, my elementary school teacher was teaching me to read. The very difficult words and phrases were imprinted in my mind until I could remember them. The dream recurred three nights in a row.
After the dreams, I could read Zhuan Falun! I had been speaking Cantonese my entire life and couldn't understand a word of Mandarin, but now, I could understand and speak Mandarin! Everyone was amazed.
I started to hand-copy Zhuan Falun at the beginning of 2018. It took me two days to copy Lunyu, the introduction to Zhuan Falun. Others witnessed this and said, “You're not writing. You're drawing.” Undeterred, I continued hand-copying, stroke by stroke, day after day. I have finished hand-copying the book now, even though my handwriting is not pretty.
Master Li Hongzhi, the founder of Falun Dafa, must have seen my hard work and steadfastness, He arranged several practitioners to come to my house for group Fa-study. The group environment has helped me understand the Fa further.
One day, I thought of my son and couldn't stop crying. Suddenly, the clock on the wall said, “What are you crying for? If you cannot let it go, aren't you just a human being?” I was shocked and stopped crying immediately.
Master's said,
“If he is able to let go of life and death, he is a god; if he isn’t able to let go of life and death, he is human.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia”)
“In the course of samsara, you have had mothers who were human and non-human, and there are too many of them to be numbered. It is also countless how many sons and daughters you have had throughout your different lifetimes. Who is your mother? Who is your son or daughter? No one knows it after one passes away. You must still pay for what you owe others. Human beings live in delusion and just cannot give up these things. Some people cannot let go of their sons and daughters and claim how good they are, and then they pass away. One may speak of how good one’s mother is, but then she also dies. This person grieves so much that he almost wants to follow her for the rest of his life. Why don’t you think about it? Aren’t they here to torment you? They use this form to make you unable to lead a good life.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun, 2000 Version)
I understood that Master Li was using the clock to give me hints - a cultivator can let go of life and death, why couldn't I let go of sentimentality? Right! I will listen to Master and let go of it. In fact, the predestined relationship between my son and I had ended. I couldn't stop him from going to where he belonged.
When I had truly let go of my son in my mind, I saw him gradually departing, circled by a large group of Buddhas. That was the last time I saw him. When I stopped missing him, he stopped appearing.
With Believe in Master and the Fa, Peril Is Averted
Following Master's requirement, material production sites sprang up everywhere. I wanted to make truth clarification materials, too. Master saw my heart and arranged for a technically savvy practitioner to help me.
I quickly learned how to download from the Minghui website and print. I operated on my own for safety considerations and was able to make nice-looking desk and wall calendars.
One day, as I was walking with truth-clarification materials on my back, two guards suddenly started walking toward me, looking furious. I was very calm and sent forth righteous thoughts. They passed me.
Master said,
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughtsMaster has the power to turn back the tide”
(“The Master-Disciple Bond,” Hong Yin Volume II, Translation Version A)
One day, more than ten people broke into my house to ransack it. I had no fear and nothing else in my mind but Master's teaching: “Just by staying unaffected you will be able to handle all situations.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference in the Midwest-U.S.)
They couldn't find anything even though my computer, printer, and materials were in plain sight. Two of them stayed to watch me. At night, I quickly walked out of my house while sending forth righteous thoughts.
I then thought, “If only a motorcycle would show up now.” Just then a motorcycle stopped right in front of me. I hopped on it and rode away.
When I returned home the next day, the guards were gone. No one has harassed me since, and everything is as if nothing had happened. I think it was a test based on an illusion.
Many such incidents have shown me that Master Li is watching over me. Even demons that were trying to hinder my studying and understanding of the Fa did not succeed. As long as we steadfastly believe in Master and the Fa, there is no test that we cannot pass.
