(Minghui.org) Master said:
“It is precisely because the old forces locked up the entrance, and thus nobody could enter unless they had an exceptional circumstance or I specifically needed them. That is because, based on the old forces’ logic, the test has already reached its end, and the harshest period has passed; and, having arrived at the persecution’s final stages, the most sinister and treacherous environment posed by the test has already passed, and many of the evil people who were put in place have died. With that sort of evil environment being no more, those who recently entered [Dafa] will have a hard time establishing the mighty virtue that a Dafa disciple is supposed to have, and thus [the old forces] do their utmost to control [who enters].” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference”)
I am such a lucky person. In August 2012, I stepped onto the path of Dafa cultivation. Moreover, my heritage was generations of Muslims of Hui ethnicity. As a person destined to have my own belief, it was both difficult and precious for me to obtain the Fa.
Experiencing the Power of Dafa
Before I practiced Dafa I was afflicted with a number of illnesses, the most serious being high blood pressure and heart disease. Thus, I took a lot of medicines. The worst of it was that I couldn’t do much for three or four years, not even walk down the stairs.
My sister-in-law is of Han ethnicity. She is a veteran Dafa practitioner who obtained the Fa before 1999. Eventually, my brother began to practice Dafa too. Over the past few years, they kept recommending the Fa to me, but I didn't believe what they said.
My health gradually worsened. Sometimes I was incapable of getting out of bed. One day my eldest daughter drove me to my brother's home to visit my mother, and to talk with my brother about my condition.
My brother was very worried about me. He put a Dafa amulet on the table that said, “Falun Dafa is good.” I felt inexplicably fearful inside and wanted to leave. I didn't want to stay for even one more second.
Seeing my reaction, my brother said to me, “Please pick up the amulet. Please read the words on it.” I grudgingly took the amulet but didn't dare read the words. It took a while, but, in a trembling voice, I finally read them. My brother was anxious and said to me, “I am your brother and I will not harm you.” I took the amulet home.
A few days later, my health worsened, so my daughter took me to my brother's home. My brother played a recording of Master's lectures, but I couldn't understand what Master was saying. Later, my brother had me read the book Zhuan Falun. I drowsily read a few pages and then had a dream in which two big snakes ran away from me.
I told my brother and his wife about the dream. They said happily, “Sister, this is a good sign.” After this dream, I indeed became better. All my illnesses seemed to evaporate.
My brother then taught me the Falun Dafa exercises and gave me many other Dafa books to read. From then on I seriously started cultivation.
After 20 days I could travel with my family. My family and friends were very surprised. Now, at over 70, I am able to ride a bicycle just like a young person, and I am as strong as a young man. I look at least 10 years younger than my age. My longtime neighbors who are my age have become stooped and disease-ridden and their pensions can't cover their medical expenses. They admire my good health.
Cultivating Xinxing
My marriage was very unfortunate. My husband was grumpy and selfish. Our children grew up listening to our quarrels, fights, and smashing things. Although he was a good breadwinner, especially after he started his own factory, he didn't give the money to my daughters and me. Instead, he gave a large part of his income to his parents and siblings.
My relationship with my husband worsened over time. He hadn't said a word to me for several years. He also made my life miserable and painful in different ways. With the constant mental stress and the severe heart disease, I couldn't bear loud noises and was easily startled. He knew my situation. Once, he took an ax and smashed the door of the room. My heart almost jumped out of my chest. Sometimes he would suddenly break into my room and tear apart the curtains. He did other things he knew would upset me.
I was a longtime patient at the hospital. Many doctors knew me and knew that my heart couldn't withstand a severe fright. They also knew the situation in my family, so they advised me to leave my husband. For the sake of survival, after living with him for 32 years, I ended our marriage.
At the divorce, we divided the property between us. My ex-husband quickly got remarried, and I stayed in the apartment alone. Six years later, he divorced again. At that time, he had nothing left—not even a place to live.
Just at that time, my eldest daughter wanted to buy a house near my brother's home. My daughter asked, “If I buy a house, will you live with me?” I decided to live with her because it would provide me with a good cultivation environment. I allowed my ex-husband to have the apartment. I would never have done that if I hadn't learned Dafa.
No one understood my decision. When my longtime neighbors heard about my decision, they said I was stupid to give up the apartment.
My ex-husband has been living in the apartment for over five years. If I rented it out, I could have a monthly income of over 4,000 yuan, but I didn't even consider doing that. Especially now, I care less for and have no desire for the benefits I would gain from renting the apartment. It's as if the property has nothing to do with me.
In spite of letting my ex-husband stay there, the resentment I had for him that had accumulated for decades was still heavy in my heart. While he babysat our second daughter's child, I didn't visit that daughter for three years simply because I didn't want to see him.
During those three years, my ex-husband said that he wanted to remarry me and asked many people to try to persuade me to agree. He also got my daughters to try to convince me. I simply would not. One day I was at my daughter's home and heard a knock on the door. When I opened the door, it was my ex-husband. Bang! I shut the door, trembling with anger. My ex-husband knocked for a while but left when I wouldn't open the door.
My grudge continued like this for some time. Later, when talking with fellow practitioners, I realized that this was an attachment and must therefore be eliminated. Through studying the Fa and constantly looking inward, I gradually put my feelings aside, and the resentment became weaker and weaker. Once, when I ran into my ex-husband when he was with my daughter, I was very calm and didn't feel any inner turmoil. Initially, my daughter was scared, thinking that I would get angry again. She did not expect me to stay so calm.
After giving up the resentment, my compassion was born. Not long ago when I ran into my ex-husband, I suddenly felt that his life was so pitiful. He was old and unhealthy, yet had to babysit a grandchild, which sapped his strength.
Just after I removed my resentment, I had a very clear dream. There was a big mound of dirt that I was moving one shovelful after another, until it was all removed. I looked up and saw my ex-husband standing there. I suddenly understood the dream. This pile of dirt was my resentment toward my ex-husband. I had to clear away the resentment during cultivation. If I didn't cultivate myself, no one could help me get past it.
After this, I often told my children, “You must treat him well. After all, he is your father.”
After seeing me not only in good health but also becoming more and more tolerant and generous, my second and third daughters supported my cultivation.
Because they supported me in cultivating Dafa, they had blessings. My third son-in-law was infertile, but my third daughter miraculously became pregnant and gave birth to a healthy boy, who is three years old now. This was really a medical miracle.
