Memorizing the Fa Leads to Elevating My Xinxing
(Minghui.org) Our local Fa-study group has been memorizing the Fa every morning after we finish doing the exercises for the last eight years. However, we have completed reciting Zhuan Falun only a few times. Compared to practitioners in other areas, we are far behind.
Master Li mentioned a long time ago that practitioners in Changchun began to recite the Fa as soon as they began the practice.
This inspired the practitioners in our local Fa-study group to work on memorizing Zhuan Falun for two hours every afternoon. After that, we read Master's new lectures or memorized Hong Yin.
We soon felt the sweetness: No one came late, we had new experiences every day, and we sensed our xinxing being uplifted. Several of us often went to the countryside to share our experiences of memorizing the Fa with practitioners there. Now, many of the practitioners in that village have started to recite the Fa.
How I Improved after Memorizing the Fa
I had been dozing off during the sitting meditation and when sending forth righteous thoughts. This was the case for a very long time, and I could not overcome it for several years. However, memorizing the Fa clearly changed me.
When I sent righteous thoughts, I was not as sleepy as before and rarely did my palm droop. While doing the sitting meditation, I did not have as much pain in my legs as before, and it felt great!
I had a comminuted fracture in my ankle and had swelling and pain there for about four years. When I sent forth righteous thoughts a few days ago, I suddenly felt a flow of cold air shooting up from the center of my feet. Later, I had much less pain when I walked. The swelling went down day by day until it was completely healed.
I began to do housework, such as washing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen, that my husband used to do. He was happy to see that.
Memorizing the Fa Removed My Resentment of My Husband
One morning, as my husband was ready to go out, the weather suddenly turned cool. I picked out a sweater for him and smoothed out the wrinkles after he put it on. He was touched by this, because we used to argue a lot, and we used to each be busy with our own things, leading separate lives.
Memorizing the Fa allowed me to calm down, find my faults, and adjust myself quickly. When I sensed any resentment toward my husband, I would eliminate it.
I could truly let go of the resentment toward my husband and treated him as kindly as his family members did. If they had any difficulties, I would help unconditionally. My notion of living separate lives disappeared.
“You cannot only pursue transformation of gong in the physical body without emphasizing improvement of your xinxing. It is waiting for you to upgrade your xinxing—only then will you make a holistic change.” (Zhuan Falun)
I used to look down on my husband because I hated him so much. He drank too much and had a bad temper. Hearing just one thing that he disliked was enough to make him lose his temper. He treated my family badly, and my mother was ill because of it. I went to court several times to file for a divorce. But after learning Dafa, I gave up the idea of getting a divorce.
I learned Falun Dafa in 1999 and worked very hard to live by its principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I considered others first whenever problems came up. But my hatred for my husband was hard to completely remove.
Sometimes I forced myself to treat him nicely just so he would not bad-mouth Dafa or stop me from validating Dafa. It made me feel bitter and tired. New feelings of hatred arose before I could eliminate the old ones.
In particular, he disrespected Dafa and Master, destroyed Dafa books, and refused to listen to my clarifying the truth. I then hated him even more. He also had some disgusting habits that really annoyed me. I could not burst out in anger; instead, I just gave him dirty looks.
My Husband Changes
Through an incident that occurred recently, I suddenly realized that my resentment was the reason why my husband refused to listen to the truth about Dafa. I looked down on him. Everything was caused by my attachment!
It was raining one morning, and my husband announced he was going to read the book Anything for Power: The Real Story of Jiang Zemin. His sudden change in behavior aroused my reflection. I carefully recalled that the atmosphere at home had indeed improved. In the last few months, we have said more to each other than we did during our whole time together.
This great change has mainly come about since I have started to memorize the Fa. During this process, I also was able to look within and have a broader outlook.
This year, my husband offered my parents our single-story house to live in. He also vowed to take care of them and pay their living expenses to reduce the burden on my younger brother and sister. He would never have done this before.
The police then came to our home to take photos of me, but I refused to let them photograph me. After they left, I said to my husband that they were trespassing and that it was illegal. He chimed in, saying that they were violating my rights as a citizen. In the past, he wouldn’t have said anything supportive and would have scolded me instead.
Now my husband and I can be concerned about each other and take care of each other. We also have had more to chat about. When I come home late, he often does not complain. Nor does he criticize me when I am working on Dafa projects.
I realized what Master said in Zhuan Falun,
“... the Buddha-light illuminates everywhere and rectifies all abnormalities.”
In fact, as long as we listen to Master and improve our xinxing, our families will change without our effort.
The above was just a tiny change in my present cultivation state. The resentment towards my husband has returned at times, and my behavior can be far from what the Fa requires. But I will continue to work hard, recite the Fa, eliminate more human notions, and act according to the standards of the Fa.
Thank you, Master!Thank you, fellow practitioners!