Looking Inward Unconditionally
(Minghui.org) My son once told me, “Grandpa says that everything you do is nonsense.” I looked inward immediately and realized that I looked down on my father-in-law, because he was against Dafa. I told myself, “He was once a great divine being in history, and he is also a being whom Master wants to save.”
Since then, I have treated my family members and everyone else with righteous thoughts. I give them priority and always consider their needs.
If I see a conflict, no matter whether I am involved or not, I first look inward to see if I have a problem in some regard.
I once saw two people on motorcycles contending for the best position on the road. I looked inward immediately and said to Master in my heart, “Master, I also have the attachment to competitiveness, but I don't want it. I want it to go away.”
My husband does not practice Falun Gong, but my son does. They often argue, and my son never takes it well, as a practitioner should. My son once refused to eat something that I'd made. My husband told him, “Don't you know your mom works hard? You should eat whatever she makes.” My son cried and said, “If Dad is home, I won't eat!” My husband said to him, “You should look inward, and you should learn how to appreciate others.”
I overheard everything. I realized that Master was using my husband to guide our son in cultivation. My husband's behavior also reminded me that I have notions and attachments and that I often don't treat him well; that is why he yells at me.
I often remind myself that, in a conflict, no matter who is right or who is wrong, I should know that I am at fault and that I caused the conflict. It doesn't matter what the cause appears to be. What matters is that it is a test for my xinxing.
When other people become angry, I always apologize sincerely: “It is my fault, I didn't consider your feelings. I am sorry.” I also say to Master in my heart, “Master, I will do better next time. Even if somebody hits me, I will unconditionally look inward and ask myself why the person would want to hit me? Is there something I didn't do well? Even if I didn't do anything wrong, I should remember that I may owe him or her from a previous life. So I must consider others and apologize to them, because this is the requirement of the Fa.”
Nowadays, I am able to convince many people to quit the Chinese Communist Party when I clarify the truth at the local farmers market. I smile at everybody. I solidly cultivate my heart. I consider others on every trivial issue. I say to Master in my heart, “I will try my best to approach a divine state. Master, you have said you will save us. I will try my best to reach consummation.”
I reject all the arrangements put on me by the old forces. I also deny what the old forces have arranged for fellow practitioners and our family members, as well as all sentient beings. No matter what kind of difficulties fellow practitioners suffer through, I don't complain about or blame them. I treat them with righteous thoughts. I say to the old forces: “All of my fellow practitioners are great. I do not acknowledge the persecution you force on them, because my Master doesn't acknowledge it.”
I made many mistakes before and failed to pass many tests. Master has been with me every day, but I didn't realize it. When I did things that were wrong, I never thought about whether it would make Master unhappy. It was really disrespectful to Master and the Fa. I didn't take Master's compassion and cultivation seriously. I betrayed Master's guidance.
Master said in “Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference” in 1999:
“As you know, a Buddha or a God can give up his life for living beings and for the interest of the universe; they can give up anything, and even remain unmoved by it. So if you were taken up to their position, could you be like that? You couldn’t. Of course, I would say that Buddhas and Daos won’t really encounter things like that, but that is their realm of mind. A person must truly change himself before that realm can be reached.”
I want to say: “Master, I am willing to give up anything for sentient beings. I would even prioritize their salvation over my own consummation. My life was given by Master, so the purpose of my life is to save sentient beings.”
We should not acknowledge the old forces, just as we should not acknowledge and should immediately reject all the bad thoughts or notions that interfere with us. We should reject these thoughts as soon as they emerge. It is very important that we are aware of our thoughts. We should ask ourselves why these thoughts can interfere with us, and then we should look inward for our problems. We should solidly cultivate our xinxing and not follow through on thoughts that are from the old forces. We should not offer any loopholes for the old forces to use to persecute us. These loopholes could become obstacles on our path to consummation.
Please correct me with compassion if I have said anything that is incorrect.