Letting Go of Attachments During Illness Tribulation
(Minghui.org) My wife and I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. Earlier this year, I slacked off in my cultivation, and spent a lot of time and effort shopping and preparing for the New Year festival. I forgot what Master said, “Only by cultivating yourself well will you be able to fulfill well Dafa disciples’ missions.” (“A Congratulatory Message to the South America Fa Conference”)
My wife and I went to visit our son on January 12 at his newly renovated apartment. My son had purchased his materials online and got a great deal. I was excited about it and said to my daughter-in-law, “My son is a shrewd shopper. Nobody can beat him at getting a good deal.”
Suddenly my body began to shake, so we took a taxi home. At home I began to throw up a thick black substance and black blood. I felt worse afterwards and could not keep my eyes open, so I went to bed and shivered even under many blankets.
I struggled to get up the next morning for the exercises, and tried to eat, but could not keep anything down. All day I could not eat, and my stomach hurt.My sons heard about my situation, were worried, and encouraged me to see a doctor. I calmed down and looked within. As a veteran practitioner, I should correct my improper state based on the Fa. Then, my family showed up to urge me to go to the hospital.
“Let me explain,” I said. “About 20 years ago, more than one fortune-teller told me that I would not live longer than 55 years. I am 71 years old now, many more years than I was foretold. By practicing Falun Dafa, I recovered from many illnesses, including heart disease and cerebral arteriosclerosis. It's amazing. It is because I slacked off in doing the exercises and studying the Fa recently that this happened to me. If I see a doctor it is saying that I do not believe in the Fa anymore. A hospital cannot help me. Do you understand?”
Then, several practitioners visited and helped me find many of my attachments, such as showing off, zealotry, jealousy, and more. Master said: “...one should be sure to not develop the attachment of zealotry—this mentality can be very easily taken advantage of by demons.” (Zhuan Falun)
In addition, I held many human notions, including fear. For instance, I worried that eating might harm my stomach.
Practitioners took turns sending righteous thoughts for me, which made me believe in Master and the Fa more firmly. I began eating again on the second day of the lunar new year. Finally, I passed this test of life and death and recovered.