Getting Over My Fear of Failure and Saving People Diligently
(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa before the persecution started in 1999. Looking back, Master has been protecting me every step of the way over the past 17 years. I want to share my experiences in clarifying the truth and how I overcame my fear of failure when it comes to talking to people in person about Dafa.
Fear Stopped Me from Talking to People about Dafa in Person
It is a Dafa practitioner's mission to clarify the truth and we should all be part of it. But when I first tried to talk to people in person, I failed miserably, again and again. I couldn't get myself to start talking about Dafa. Though I really wanted to, I just didn't know how or where to start.
Sometimes I mustered up all my courage to go up to a person, but hesitated to bring up the topic. I even tried to start with making small talk but didn't know how to change the subject. I missed a lot of opportunities because of this and was very disappointed in myself—why could other practitioners do so well in this area but I couldn't?
Strengthening Fa Study Helps Me Overcome My Fear of Failure
By strengthening my Fa study and examining myself, I found the root cause of my problem—fear of failure. Master said,
“Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in springRighteous thoughts can save the people in this world”(“The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos” in Hong Yin Volume II)
Isn't my not being able to clarify the truth in person the result of a mixture of fear and attachment to fame? That is far from being compassionate and having firm righteous thoughts. When I realized all this, my xinxing improved and I was no longer hesitant or scared of talking to people about Dafa.
When I run into people and start a conversation, I cut to the chase after a brief greeting. My heart is full of compassion and my thoughts are righteous. All I want is for that person to be saved, so most of the time they readily agree to quit the Party.
Talking about Dafa Is No Longer Hard
One time I asked a middle-aged man, “Have you heard about quitting the Party and its affiliated organizations to be safe?” He shook his head. I told him what “quitting the Party” referred to and why it was important. I told him about the giant stone in Guizhou with the characters that say, “the Communist Party of China shall perish.” We talked about how evil the Party is and that evil will inevitably incur retribution.
He listened carefully and understood what I was talking about. He smiled and said, “I finally understand now after you explained all this. I am a member of the Communist Party and have joined the Youth League. Please help me renounce both.”
I told him to say, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” as often as possible and gave him an amulet and booklets with information about Dafa. He was very happy and kept thanking me. He offered to pay me and take me to lunch. I told him, “No, thank you. Our Master told us to save people. Don't thank me, thank our Master.” He repeated, “Thanks to Master Li. Thanks to Master Li.”
Awakening People’s Knowing Side
“Make known the truth and get rid of evil spiritsSpread the Nine Commentaries and the evil Party will fadeSave the world's people with righteous thoughtsExpose the lies and open the locks in people's heartsWe don't believe consciences can't be brought back”(“To Save the World” from Hong Yin Volume III)
As Master asked of us in the Fa, I try my best to clarify the truth thoroughly, and people usually can accept it. Of course, it's possible to run into all kinds of people.
When I saw a man working in a field, I went up to him and said, “Hi there. Working hard?” He looked up and said, “Yeah. You are...?” “Oh, I'm from the next village over. Working in the fields is hard—we farmers really have to take care our health and be safe.” He nodded, “True, true.”
I said, “Let me tell you a good way to be safe—quit the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. Have you heard about that? It means to renounce the Chinese Communist Party, the Youth League, and the Young Pioneers.”
What I said really upset him. He jumped up, held his shovel up in both hands, and shouted at me, “You're against the Party! Are you from Taiwan? I don't want to listen to you. Get out of here. Go away, go away.”
I was not scared of him or moved by his hostile attitude. I remained calm and started sending righteous thoughts. I smiled and said, “Why are you so upset? I'm telling you this for your own good. I treat you with compassion, yet you return it with hostility. Is that really proper? Why is it so wrong to tell you how you could be safe?”
He paused for a moment, then smiled. He put his shovel down and seemed a little embarrassed, “Sorry, sorry. Please continue.” He listened calmly and attentively. I reminded him of the many movements the Chinese Communist Party initiated since it seized power in 1949 and they how resulted in the deaths of 80 million Chinese. I told him about the Tiananmen self-immolation hoax, organ harvesting from living practitioners, and the corruption of the Party officials.
The man got upset again, but this time he said, “The communist party is evil. I quit. I quit. I am a member of the Party and have also joined the Youth League and the Young Pioneers. I want to renounce all of them.”
I could tell that his knowing side was truly moved and I was so happy that he made the right choice. I realized that it doesn't matter who it is, that people all have their knowing side, and that, as long as we have the right attitude and truly want to save people with our compassion, we are able to awaken their knowing side and save them.
Saving People Diligently
“For this reason, all Dafa disciples, students both new and veteran, should get to work and begin comprehensively clarifying the truth. This is especially so for the Dafa disciples in mainland China: each must come out and clarify the truth, bringing it to every field and valley, mountain and hill, not omitting a single area where there are people.” (“Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World’s People” from The Essentials Of Diligent Progress Vol. III)
I clarify the truth at every opportunity—when I run into people on the street, when I visit friends and family, when I go to the market, and within my own community. I do it every single day, whether it's bitterly cold or scorching hot, windy or rainy, icy or snowy. Nothing can stop me from going out to clarify the truth.
I had swelling in my left leg one time and it felt numb. My family was very concerned and asked me to rest and not to go out that day. I knew it was interference from the old forces who were trying to stop me from saving people. I refused to go along with the old forces' plan. I told my family, “I am fine. Don't worry.” I took some fliers with Dafa information and went out as usual.
I have been babysitting my granddaughter lately, and I take her with me when I go out to clarify the truth—I can't stop clarifying the truth just because I'm babysitting. I go to my daughter's home in the morning and watch her daughter while she's at work and go home in the evening. I always talk to people about Dafa on my way home.
Because I do this, I never stay overnight at my daughter's. Sometimes she says to me, “It's getting dark out, Mom. Why don't you stay here tonight? I don't want anything to happen to you.” I tell her, “Don't worry. I know the way home like the back of my hand. I'll be fine. Master will protect me. Why are you scared? I am not scared of anything.”
In fact, I often run into people who are predestined to hear about Dafa. These are all opportunities to save people. How could I just let it pass? Who knows, I might just save a few people on my way home.
That is how I clarify the truth day after day, year after year, and help people quit the Party every day. When more people quit the Party, I don't develop the attachment to zealotry. When fewer people quit the Party on certain days, I don't feel bad and get discouraged. I study the Fa, look inside myself, find where I fall short, and learn from my experiences. With persistence and perseverance, I continually improve myself and always try to do better. I have come a long way with regard to helping Master rectify the Fa.
Fa-rectification is drawing to a close. I will be more strict with myself, be more diligent in my cultivation, and do a better job in the limited time left. Thanks to Master. Thanks to my fellow practitioners. Heshi.