(Minghui.org) A few days ago, my sister complained to me about someone she works with, saying that her heart was as evil as any viper or scorpion. I thought my sister went too far in her description of the woman. This woman is like a rough diamond, and my sister had often praised her. I thought it must have been my sister’s fault, as she can be very vengeful. Although I wanted to advise her to look inside herself, I did not say anything, because I knew that she would not accept it.
I could not focus while doing the fifth exercise (meditation) the next morning. A thought kept flashing into my mind: blaming my sister for only finding fault with others.
During a fit of anger, I suddenly remembered some of Master Li’s words:
“It would be good if they could manage to search within themselves for the things that they have been able to find in others.” (“A Dialogue with Time,” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
I then looked inside to see if I had the same problem that I had seen in my sister. After deeply analyzing my thoughts, I found that I did think like my sister: If someone insulted me, I often thought about getting revenge against him or her and making the person look bad.
When my boss looked down on me, I fantasized about getting revenge. When my coworker made me look bad, I often thought of how to beat and curse him; at times I even thought about hiring others to break his legs. Isn't that a display of jealousy?
Master said:
“A wicked person is born of jealousy.Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion.With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.” (“Realms,” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
I was accustomed to these evil thoughts from the grudges I had, and I never thought of myself as a bad person. When I realized that I had these attachments, I was shocked. My thoughts were so bad! How much harm would a practitioner cause if he or she is driven by such thoughts and acts on them? With those bad thoughts, I am not even a good person, let alone a practitioner! I knew I needed to remove those bad thoughts, as they did not belong to me. Master was hinting to me through my sister's mouth and helping me to find my attachments.
After I realized all this, my heart became like bright sunshine that breaks through on a cloudy day. I now think well of others. Master has cleansed the karma from my body, and I am able to connect with the universe's characteristic of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
I went out to distribute informational materials about Falun Dafa, and I was at ease. I was not afraid when a police car drove by behind me, and they did not pay attention to me. Over half of the people I approached accepted the materials, and I gave out about 60 copies within a short time. In the past, it took me several hours to give out 20 or 30 copies, as most people refused to accept flyers.
My dimensional field had become clearer and my energy field stronger. Thus, the bad thoughts of people were dissolving, and they were willing to accept materials from me. We cannot solely rely on our speaking skills while clarifying the truth. What is more important is that we cultivate ourselves well. With larger and stronger energy fields, we can more effectively help Master save sentient beings.
Thank you, Master! It is truly magical when we look inward.
Category: Improving Oneself
