Breaking Out of the Vicious Cycle Arranged by the Old Forces
(Minghui.org) A situation inflicted on me by the old forces has been a tribulation for a long time. After I did the five sets of Falun Dafa exercises every morning I experienced fatigue, dizziness and my head felt heavy.
In addition, I was drained and lacked energy while studying the Fa in the afternoon. Whenever I was about to send forth righteous thoughts, I felt drowsy and exhausted. After a few days of this, I was close to the end of my endurance.
If I did not participate in the morning exercises, the old forces would take advantage of my loophole and fill my mind with human attachments. They also created illusions to keep me busy and tried to control my mind and thoughts, so as to not let me wake up on time. In spite of all my efforts, I failed to break out of this vicious cycle.
This was imposed on me by the old forces. I had to break through their firm grip.
“Have you ever thought of the fact that practicing cultivation is the best form of rest? You can obtain the kind of rest that can’t be obtained through sleeping. Nobody would say: “The exercises are making me so tired that I can’t do anything today.” One would only say: “The exercises are making my whole body relaxed and at ease. I don’t feel sleepy after a sleepless night. I feel full of energy.” (Lecture at the First Conference in North America)
I should have been full of energy and refreshed after doing the morning exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts.
It was high time that I negated this illusion and eliminate my human notion that I would get tired during the day if I got up too early in the morning. I also needed to overcome the laziness that prevents me from getting out of bed for the morning exercises. I was determined to deny the old forces, negate the vicious cycle and abandon the human mindset.
I sent righteous thoughts every evening before going to bed to eliminate the laziness, all the material factors that were the causes of my laziness and the dark inertia that kept me bound to the bed.
When the alarm clock rang the following morning I reminded myself of the righteous thoughts I sent the previous night and immediately jumped out of bed. However, I felt weak with fatigue in the afternoon when I was going to study the Fa.
My immediate reaction was to do the sitting meditation, but within about half-an-hour, I was too tired and sleepy to continue. I collapsed into bed and fell asleep right away. When I woke up, I looked at the clock and then fell asleep again.
It seemed that my mind and body couldn't move, as if they were being controlled by something. But my main consciousness was absolutely clear. “Master Li Hongzhi, please help me,” I called out. “Please help me Master!”
I felt that Master was clearing away some dark substances from my body, and I woke up after a fierce struggle.
Over the next few days, I got up early in the morning to do the exercises, and did the sitting meditation for over half-an-hour in the afternoon before studying the Fa. As a result, my mind felt a lot sharper and clearer, and my body became stronger, yielding more energy.
I know Master gave me a hand and saved me from the vicious cycle arranged by the old forces.