China Fahui | Master Is Always by My Side
(Minghui.org) I have read Zhuan Falun hundreds of times since receiving it, and have also recited it many times. During the past nineteen years of my cultivation, I have greatly benefited from Falun Dafa, and I have personally experienced instances of what Master said in Zhuan Falun.
Support from Unexpected Sources
My son and I had practiced Falun Dafa for a couple of years before we were persecuted. I was imprisoned for a total of six years, and my son for three years. My marriage faced a crisis, because my husband threatened me with divorce. I stood firm in my belief in Falun Dafa and continued to follow the Dafa principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. However, I did not want the breakup of my family. This was not easy to fathom after I lost my freedom and source of income. However, I strongly believed in Master and Dafa.
“My Law bodies are aware of everything. Whatever you think about, they’re aware of it, and they can do anything.” (Zhuan Falun)
I believe Master was with me and helped me overcome my dilemma. My husband came to see me in the detention center to complete his divorce documents. The director of the center disagreed and told him so. My fellow practitioners also asked my husband to refrain from filing a divorce. Inmates suggested that I write a letter to my husband and they helped revise it. Master blessed me with wisdom and compassion when I wrote the letter. My husband was touched by my letter and ended the divorce proceedings.
“Could you do that yourself? No, you can’t. The master is the one who arranges these things, it’s the master who does it. That’s why we say, 'Cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master.' All that you have is that goal, that thought, but it’s really the master who takes care of it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I am deeply grateful for Master's compassion, which saved my family from being torn apart.
Believing in Master and the Fa
I was the first Falun Dafa practitioner the authorities arrested in our area in November 1999. My family worried for my life, because I had suffered from serious illnesses and almost died before I practiced Dafa. I also was worried about being able to study the Fa in the detention center. Nevertheless, I strongly believed Master would find a way for me to cultivate. Consequently, I was able to study the Fa and do the exercises almost every morning.
Whenever Master published new articles, my fellow practitioners found a way to get them to me. Master gave me a good memory, so I could memorize them quickly and then I copied them, so fellow practitioners would get a copy. I copied the Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A., memorized it and hand-wrote copies for more than 10 practitioners.
Dafa's extraordinary power displayed itself. A guard noticed twice that I was writing something under my blanket, but nothing turned up despite a thorough search. After he left, I continued to make copies. Although the guards kept an eye on me, they could not find anything. Master protected and encouraged me.
A fellow practitioner smuggled not only Zhuan Falun, but also Master's latest scriptures, “Clearheadedness” and Hong Yin Vol. II, into the detention center, despite it going through a rigorous inspection.
During the six years of my incarceration, I gained a deep understanding of how the impossible can be accomplished when one believes in Master and the Fa.
Awakened by Master's Words
I was afraid of being arrested again after I was released. Thus, I studied the Fa at home and rarely went out. I refused to contact fellow practitioners, because three practitioners had identified me when they could not endure the mistreatment.
Master arranged for a fellow practitioner to bring me the new article, “Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World’s People.”
“From now on, the Dafa disciples in China as much as anyone, both new students and veterans alike, should let go of their long-standing human attachments and start to seize the day and comprehensively save the world’s people...For a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, personal liberation is not the goal of cultivation: when you came, saving sentient beings was your great aspiration, and that is the responsibility and mission history has bestowed upon you in Fa-rectification.” (“Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World’s People” from The Essentials for Diligent Progress Vol. III)
I was touched and awakened by Master's words. I realized that my cultivation had been limited to my “personal liberation,” and it was selfish.
The new awareness made me decide to clarify the truth about Dafa. Fellow practitioners gave me recordings of experience sharing articles from the Minghui website and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. As I continued to study, the meaning of the Fa became clearer to me and I rose in my cultivation level.
I began to clarify the truth face to face and distributed Dafa informational materials. I met with people whenever I was waiting for or riding on a bus. I helped them quit the Communist organizations. At one time, when the bus did not stop at my destination, I met with a former classmate of mine, whom I had not seen for dozens of years. She listened carefully and decided to quit the Party.
From what I understand, the ability to talk to people depends more so on one's understanding of the Fa and cultivation level rather than on one's persuasive skills.
Coordinator Task Brings Back Fear
Practitioners in our area did not form one body. Therefore, fellow practitioners suggested that I serve as the coordinator, and get in touch with former practitioners.
I hesitated, because I was afraid of being arrested again, or losing my family. All kinds of human notions blocked me from getting in touch with fellow practitioners.
“...what really interferes with a person is the attachment.” (Zhuan Falun)
When I was reading Zhuan Falun in June 2009, my heart was deeply touch by what Master said,
“All your attachments, as long as you have them, all have to be worn down in different settings. You will stumble, and from that grasp the truth. That’s how you cultivate.” (Zhuan Falun)
“If you don’t sever emotion, you won’t be able to cultivate. But if you do break out of emotion, nobody can affect you, and ordinary attachments won’t be able to sway you. What replaces it is compassion, which is more noble.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master's words touched my heart. I asked myself how could I be compassionate if I could not let go of my emotions. This spurred me into giving up my attachments and getting in touch with former practitioners.
Master Is in Control
One week after I started getting in touch with fellow practitioners, local policemen began to look for me. They monitored my family and friends in order to find me. I had to leave my home to avoid further persecution.
When I was out distributing informational materials with a fellow practitioner, I saw the director of my local police station. I thought, “Master won't let him see me.” We passed right each other, but the director did not see me. This re-affirmed that Master is in control.
I found practitioners who had lost touch with us. When I went to a town without knowing a practitioner's address, the first person I met was the mother of the practitioner I was looking for. She helped me find all practitioners in that town.
Thanks to Master, I found many fellow practitioners, including one who also had to leave her home. She helped us find another with the technical skills to establish a truth-clarification materials production site.
I couldn't help but sing a song that day, “Master, Master, you are compassionate and great! I must, I must, stay on my path... My face was covered with tears of gratefulness.
We established eight materials production sites. We also installed many satellite dishes so people could receive New Tang Dynasty television programs, a New York-based Chinese station with uncensored reporting on China.
Letting Go of Grievances Against Fellow Practitioners
After gaining experience in filing my lawsuit against Jiang Zemin, the former head of the communist regime, in July 2015, I helped many practitioners prepare the documentation for their lawsuits.
Using case verification as an excuse, Jiang's regime arrested many practitioners and confiscated their properties. Some practitioners could not face the persecution and blamed me for their troubles. Thus, I was monitored since August 2015.
Considering others' safety, I rarely contacted any practitioner. I clarified the truth by myself whenever I had the chance. I also extensively studied the Fa and enlightened to many of the Fa's principles. I looked within and found and corrected my problems.
Ever since the persecution was launched, six practitioners identified me, which caused me to be imprisoned. Two of them felt very sorry for their behavior under pressure. I used to hold grievance against them. But, I found my attachments to emotions and accomplishments. My impure thought had caused loss for the whole body. I visited these fellow practitioners, delivered Master's scriptures to them, and hoped they would resume their cultivation.
Master has enlightened us,
“In true cultivation you have to cultivate your mind, you have to cultivate inward, to look inward—you can’t look outward.” (Zhuan Falun)
Treating Tribulations as a Process of Cultivation
I passed a young practitioner's workplace one day, and saw her concentrating on reading a document. Her benevolent and compassionate smile touched my heart. I felt shaken by her compassion. The image of her smile was burned into my mind. It helped me find my own not-so-compassionate side, which had caused my imprisonment.
This practitioner told me that several police officers had come to her home with a search warrant because of her lawsuit against Jiang. She told them why she had practiced Falun Dafa, her changes, why the Communist Party had persecuted Falun Dafa, and why she had filed the lawsuit. She sincerely hoped the police would choose to stand on the side of goodness. Her compassion disintegrated the evil, and awoke the conscience in their hearts. They listened to her, and left without saying a word.
Compared to her, I wasn't kind when the police ransacked my home. They confiscated my Dafa books and detained me for a long time. I had thought they were evil, but failed to look inward for my own shortcomings. I had not treated it as a process of cultivation.
Looking back to the past years of my cultivation, every step I shows that Master has helped me. Master said,
“The cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master.” (Zhuan Falun)