(Minghui.org) I have never thought of my enlightenment quality as good. I do not experience any special sensations, and neither can I see other dimensions when I send forth righteous thoughts.
However, a recent issue allowed me to understand that, so long as we relinquish our selfishness and look within, miracles can still occur.
I suffered from an ingrown fingernail in May 2015. Another practitioner helped me let the pus out after my finger became inflamed. Yet, my finger did not heal, and eventually it became really painful.
After midnight one evening, I made a concentrated effort to look within and wrote down all sorts of wrong thoughts I had. While writing my thoughts down, I felt and saw something drop from my finger. Immediately, my finger stopped feeling painful. I realized, more than ever, the magic of looking within, which allowed Master to help me overcome this tribulation.
Who's Right, Who's Wrong?
We bring copies of Minghui Weekly to our Fa-study group, allowing practitioners to get themselves a copy. On one occasion, I complained to another practitioner that she did not give me a copy of the Minghui Weekly. The practitioner was sure she gave me a copy, but I was a bit upset and kept saying that I did not get one. Even upon arriving at home, I was still upset about this.
That night I studied Master's lecture and came across the following:
“Cultivation is first and foremost. I just said that if you aren't able to suppress it, if you can't look inward and search within yourself when you encounter tensions or conflicts, if you can't change yourself and remove human attachments, then you won't have parts that are fully cultivated and that become divine, and what you do can't be called cultivating. So you need to constantly cultivate the part of you that hasn't been fully cultivated, such that it achieves divinity and is fully cultivated, and you must be strict with yourself--only then is it cultivation. Otherwise, what's the point of cultivation?” (Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital)
I knew Master was helping me to realize my shortcomings. And I know how crucial it is for me to act according to the Fa and to flush out all negative thoughts that don't conform with the Fa.
Master also said:
“That’s how things will be for you, starting now. Whether you are right or not is, for a cultivator, not important whatsoever. Don’t argue left and right, and don’t emphasize who’s right and who’s wrong. Some people are always stressing that they’re right, but even if you are right, even if you’re not wrong, so what? Have you improved on the basis of the Fa? The very act of using human thinking to stress who’s right and who’s wrong is in itself wrong. That’s because you are then using the logic of ordinary people to evaluate yourself, and using that logic to make demands on others. As gods see it, for a cultivator to be right or wrong in the human world is not important in the least, whereas eliminating the attachments that come from human thinking is important, and it is precisely your managing to eliminate those attachments rooted in your human thinking as you cultivate that counts as important. ”(Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan)
After I studied the above passages, I felt I had been purified of many bad thoughts and pieces of matter related to this shortcoming. I knew I was wrong, yet I had not used a cultivator's standard to measure myself—I emphasized myself too much. Would a God be like that? I decided to share about this attachment in our local Fa study group so I could eliminate it.
On the second day, without me even saying a word, the practitioner told me she found the Minghui Weekly that she thought she gave to me. I knew she found it as a result of my looking within. Master helped me realize my shortcoming of not allowing others to speak. Thank you Master.
Looking within and experiencing this kind of “magic” was a very special occurrence for me, and it strengthened my confidence in the Fa even more.
It was really like what Master said:
“For a cultivator, looking within is a magical tool.” (Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference)
Category: Improving Oneself