Learning to Look Inward
(Minghui.org) I am an elderly practitioner who started practicing before 1999. Although I had been cultivating for so many years, I hadn't learned how to look inward.
In 2008, a fellow practitioner suggested we recite the Fa, thus began a very difficult process of reciting the Fa. We finally finished one cycle of reciting Zhuan Falun after one year. As a result, I saw significant changes in my way of thinking.Whenever I came across a problem and wanted to avoid responsibility, I would remember Master's Fa and look inward.
"Nowadays, people behave this way and will first of all avoid responsibility upon coming across a problem, regardless of whether they are at fault." (Zhuan Falun)
I would like to share two stories in my cultivation.
Helping a Woman Who Had an Affair with My Husband to Quit CCP
I have experienced a very painful process of getting rid of attachments when my husband had an affair. When I was sharing with other practitioners, some of them reminded me to say “I am a Dafa practitioner” in my heart to control myself. When I recited the Fa, I learned how to look inward and found a strong attachment of jealousy. I envied Xiaoli (alias), the woman who was with my husband. So I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate it and was able to put down the attachment of sentimentality and overcame the tribulation.
Xiaoli's husband is my husband's friend. They would often drink together. It is questionable whether he was aware of the affair between his wife and my husband. Xiaoli's husband has liver disease and he drinks a lot. He was admitted to the hospital several times. I didn't study the Fa very much and was in a poor cultivation state.
I knew it is very urgent to save people, but I didn't think about saving them. Later, I realized that I should save them as it is fate that we know each other.
One day, my husband went to Xiaoli's home to have a drink. I also wanted to go. When we arrived, I advised Xiaoli's husband to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). He said that he had only joined the Young Pioneers. I told him that only when he quits the CCP, would god protect him. Finally he agreed to quit the CCP.
I looked at Xiaoli and wondered if I should help her quit the CCP. It was a little awkward to help her quit the CCP. But she is also a sentient being to be saved. I realized that I still have the attachment of jealousy and I should get rid of it.
“If you cannot love your enemy, then you cannot reach Consummation.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia”)
Moreover, cultivators have no enemies. I told her, “You should also quit from the CCP to be safe and peaceful.” She gladly said, “Alright.”
Clarifying the Facts to a Grocery Owner
There is a small grocery store near my home and the female owner is at the shop during the day. I frequently go to her store to talk and tell her about Falun Dafa and the persecution. Once I tried to help her quit the CCP. She said, “I don't believe it.”
After I got home, I started to look inward and found my attachment of fear. I was afraid that she would not believe. I was worried that someone would come to shop and I would not be able to finish explaining things. Therefore, I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate the attachment. Later, I went there whenever I had time. Gradually, she became receptive.
Six months later, she told me, “Yesterday, I twisted my foot when I was chopping wood. It was so painful that I could not fall asleep.”
I asked, “Why didn't you recite, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good”? She said she had recited the words and then was able to fall asleep.
I said, “As long as you believe Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good. My Master will take care of you. You should quit the Chinese Communist Youth League.” She agreed.
During over ten years of cultivation, I deeply feel that people are happy only when they live to help others. Master opened up my mind. My life is renewed and I am able to help those people who were deceived by the CCP to avoid danger.