What Makes Me Be Less Diligent?

(Minghui.org) I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. Yet I was feeling guilty for not being diligent in my cultivation of Dafa.

“Why can't I be diligent? Why can't I get rid of my attachments? What makes me become less diligent?” I asked myself while walking home one day.

I started to recite "Lunyu" by Master,

“Dafa is the wisdom of the Creator. It is the bedrock of creation, what the heavens, earth, and universe are built upon. It encompasses all things, from the utmost minuscule to the vastest of the vast, while manifesting differently at each of the cosmic body’s planes of existence.” (“On Dafa”, Zhuan Falun)

I looked inward and thought about how Master Li created everything. He gives me all I have and all I can do. So why do I have still all these attachments? Why can't I get rid of them? It must be because I do not fully believe in Master. This is the root cause.

I have practiced Dafa for 20 years. Why do I not fully believe in my heart? It seems impossible that this is the case. Yet, by searching within more deeply, I found my hidden shortcomings.

Because I did not fully trust this cultivation practice I could not merge into Dafa and become a particle of Dafa. I was not diligent in my Fa study, did not have strong righteous thoughts and did not make such a great effort when it came to clarifying the truth about Dafa to people. Sometimes I felt that cultivation is just so difficult!

This is the reason that I did not feel that I really elevated in my levels after the persecution began, like I did before the persecution. Dafa never changes. Master Li has higher requirements at higher levels and I could not meet the requirements.

I have found the root cause of not elevating on my cultivation path. From now on, I will trust Master Li without any conditions.

When I really don't feel like getting up early in the morning to do the exercises, I ask myself, “Do you believe in Master Li? If yes, then get up to do them right away!”

When there is a tribulation during the day, I ask myself, “Have you given all to Master Li?”

Master Li is in control of everything. I just need to do everything based on the Fa, without any preconditions.

Cultivation is so simple when we believe in Master unconditionally.