A Serious Lesson
(Minghui.org) I am a young Falun Dafa practitioner. I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1996 when I was very young, and have been cherished by our compassionate Master since then. However, because I was young and had many attachments, I took a big detour. I learned a serious lesson in 2004 when I failed to take cultivation seriously. My gap was taken advantage of by the old forces and I was viciously persecuted.
I bought a personal computer in 2003. With my strong attachment to video games, I soon became addicted to them. I played these games whenever I had time. One game on shooting and violence was very popular at that time. Because I played the game all the time, I spent less time studying the Fa. Even when I studied Fa, my mind was not on the Fa. Sometimes I studied the Fa first, before playing the game, since I regarded Fa study as a daily chore. I felt I had to get it over with so I could play the game with my full attention. My mind was full of the game. I shot and fought even in my dreams.
I soon realized that this was not right. Playing the game was a big attachment and I shouldn't play it. However, the attachment was so strong and my mind was so filled with the game that I couldn't stop myself.
I didn't realize the approaching danger until about a year later.
One morning in 2004, as soon as I arrived at work, I felt unwell. My stomach felt really sick. It didn't quite hurt but felt terribly wrong, a feeling hard to describe. I realized it was persecution. I sent forth righteous thoughts, but it didn't work. I had too many low-level spirits in my body. After a few minutes, I had to do something. I had only one thought—find a fellow practitioner.
I rode my motorcycle to see a practitioner who lived nearby. The sky was yellowish and everything looked weird to me. I couldn't hear sounds. In about ten minutes, I arrived at a practitioner's home that was close to where I worked. I don't know how I got myself off the motorcycle and walked upstairs to his apartment. I didn't know if he was home or not. When I pushed the door open and saw him, I laid down right away, couldn't say a word, and passed out. He was terrified. He noticed my yellowish face and immediately sat down, and sent forth righteous thoughts.
After about ten minutes, I regained consciousness. I heard the practitioner telling me, “This is persecution by low-level spirits and rotten demons.” He asked me what I had been doing lately. At first I said, “Nothing.” Then it came to me: Games.
I right away realized that it was my attachment to playing games that brought me this trouble. The low-level spirits in the game were all living beings. They were persecuting me, and I had brought them upon myself. The moment I realized this, the discomfort disappeared. I was able to talk again. I told the practitioner that I played games. He shared with me his understanding, and I was able to understand the issue better. I made up my mind that I must delete all the games in my computer and eliminate all evil spirits.
When I returned home, the discomfort returned, as the evil beings were afraid to be eliminated. I asked Master to help me. I told the low-level spirits and rotten demons, “I must eliminate all of you, you low-level spirits and rotten demons, all the way from the macroscopic to the microscopic levels.” I endured the acute pain and turned on my computer. I deleted all the games.
Then I sat down and sent forth righteous thoughts. About half an hour later, I recovered.
After this lesson, I had a deeper understanding of Master's teaching:
“There is a principle in our universe: Nobody will intervene if you want something yourself. As long as it is what you want, nobody will intervene. My fashen will stop you and give you hints. If it finds out that you are always like that, it will no longer take care of you. How can one be forced to practice cultivation? You cannot be made or forced to practice cultivation. It is up to you to truly make progress. No one can do anything about it if you do not wish to upgrade yourself. You have been taught the principles and the Fa. Who can you blame if you still don’t want to upgrade yourself? With regard to what you want, both Falun and my fashen will not intervene—this is for sure.”(Zhuan Falun)
“What we lose is actually something bad. What is it? It is karma, and it goes hand in hand with different human attachments. For example, everyday people have all kinds of bad thoughts. For self-interest, they commit various wrong deeds and will acquire this black substance, karma. This directly involves our own minds. In order to eliminate this negative thing, you must first change your mind.” (Zhuan Falun)
I should have written this down long ago. However, my human notions interfered and prevented me from writing it. I have now finally broken through my selfishness and shared my experience. I hope young practitioners who haven't let go of their attachment to video games will learn from my lesson and let go of the attachment. Let's walk well on our future path, be qualified Dafa practitioners, and fulfill the historic mission entrusted to us.
Please kindly point out my shortcomings. Heshi!