Cultivation Is Not Child’s Play

(Minghui.org) I am 24 years old, and I am healthy and happy. I have had unusual cultivation experiences which I would like to share with fellow practitioners, especially younger ones, in hopes that my experiences will be helpful.

My health and immune system were poor when I was little. Because of my rheumatoid arthritis, I experienced a lot of pain during season changes. When it attacked, I sometimes couldn't get out of bed. My health condition didn't improve despite growing older. My mother also had many physical problems. When the doctors couldn't find the cause, she cried on the bench at the hospital. I saw her crying many times at home.

Practicing Falun Gong with My Mother

After she was told by a friend that practicing Falun Gong can cure diseases in addition to other benefits, my mother went to a local practice site to learn it. She has persistently practiced since then, and miraculously all of her physical problems have disappeared. Every time I had physical problems or pains, she would get me to do the exercises with her. I was too little to understand why, but I just followed her because my mother said it was good for me. It was very strange, but my pain would vanish after practicing the exercises.

One time when I was doing the “Falun Standing Stance” exercise, I heard a cracking sound in my back. My mom told me that Master was purifying my body. I regained my health, but I didn't understand the importance of studying the Fa. I didn't even finish reading Zhuan Falun, and I could only memorize the first two paragraphs of Lunyu.

Sometimes, after I studied the Fa with my mother, I dreamed of myself flying in the night sky. I also went out with my mother to occasionally distribute informational materials.

As I grew older, I finally understood why Dafa was so good. I also realized the brutality of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). The CCP has employed all of their ferocious torture methods on practitioners to force them to give up their belief. Some practitioners had to leave home to escape the persecution, and some had their families torn apart. The number of practitioners who have been illegally sentenced, imprisoned and detained in forced labor camps is innumerable. The most evil act the CCP has conducted is the harvesting of organs from living Dafa practitioners to amass fortunes for its public security system, prisons, labor camps, hospitals and military.

For more than a decade, the CCP has deceived the Chinese people, slandered our revered Master, and fooled practitioners' families. Their evil acts are too numerous to describe. I renounced the CCP, and I helped produce the informational materials with my parents and sometimes clarified the truth to people face to face.

Practicing Cultivation Half-Heartedly

I still did not truly understand what cultivation was. I didn't firmly study the Fa and do the exercises. Even though I knew I had to cultivate my xinxing, I did not actually do it well.

I later went out of town to work, and I even slacked off more in my Fa study and exercise practice because of lack of a cultivation environment. I didn't upgrade my xinxing, and I spent most of my free time after work with entertainment, including TV programs and movies. At work, I didn't consider myself a cultivator and easily got angry at others.

On one occasion, my supervisor asked me to fix a broken door. I did it and then went back downstairs. Two hours later, my co-worker came and told me that the door was not fixed yet and asked me to again take a look at it. I repaired the same door three to four times, but it still was not fixed. I started getting angry and annoyed in my mind, feeling that this door was not fixable. I then complained, “Why are people always doing things like that? They don't care since this is not their own door at home. Why don't they close the door lightly?...”

The more I thought about it, the more I felt anger and resentment, and I simply did not care about it anymore. I basically didn't enlighten that this was an opportunity for me to cultivate! My xinxing thus fell further and my body started to have some abnormal symptoms, such as pain in my hands and legs and red spots on my face.

Encountering Sickness Karma

I couldn't stand up once I got home, and I couldn't walk because of the pain in my legs. I was diagnosed in the hospital as having systemic lupus erythematous. This grim news struck me hard. My parents and I cried together, and I became bedridden.

One day, my mother said to me, “You have cultivated since you were little and Master has been protecting you. You are the one at fault, as you took cultivation as child's play, leading to your tribulation today. You now have two choices, either study the Fa diligently or take medicine.” I immediately said, “I choose cultivation.”

Diligently Resuming Dafa Cultivation

From that day on, I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises every day with my mother. She would read the Fa to me when I could not sit up. I could not sit in the full lotus position, but I could sit in the half lotus position. Even doing this was very painful. However, I gritted my teeth and stayed with it and slowly I could sit in the full lotus position for 20 minutes. When I had free time, I recited in my heart, “Falun Dafa is good and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I could also recite Hong Yin Vol. III.”

I gradually became energetic a little bit at a time and felt stronger. I was fully recovered a few days later, and I could not describe how excited I was. I understand that Master has had a great deal of concern and endured a lot of tribulations in order to save me, and I am unable to express my profuse gratitude!

Some practitioner aunties (respectful title for woman of one's parents' age) also helped me a lot. I would also like to thank all of them.

I now diligently study at least one chapter of Zhuan Falun and some of Master's lectures every day. I also learned how to use a cellular phone to clarify the truth. Compared to fellow practitioners, I am still too far behind, but I will work harder.

Looking Inward

After I regained my health, I enlightened during a group Fa study that I had caused this tribulation myself because I was unbelievably wrong in my cultivation attitude. At that time, I thought that I was still very young and practiced cultivation as though it were child's play. I was very passive in Fa study and doing the exercises, and I only did what my mother told me to do and didn't take cultivation seriously. I didn't understand that cultivation is mainly about improving one's xinxing. The old forces naturally seized this as a reason to test me.

I started to thoroughly look inward for any xinxing problem after this tribulation and found that I was jealous of my older sister. I never admitted my jealousy before, but now I know that jealousy can appear in various forms. It can cause the most damage to a cultivator. I should no longer fool myself, and I have to remove it quickly.

I also found that I have attachments of indignation, grievance, resentment, gains, comfort, dependence, and especially emotional attachments. I must work hard in my cultivation path to remove all of them.

I hope that my peers that are cultivating can learn from my lessons and not take cultivation as child's play. We are so honored to be able to become Dafa practitioners. We must cherish this unprecedented opportunity that occurs only once in millions of years. Looking back on my past when I was instilled by the CCP culture, I felt so horrible! We must cultivate firmly. Let me repeat one more time, cultivation really is not child's play!

Again, I would like to thank our great compassionate Master for his salvation!

The above is my personal enlightenment. If there is anything inappropriate, please kindly correct it. Heshi.