My Attachments to Desire and Lust Are Reflected in My Surroundings
(Minghui.org) Recently a male colleague of mine kept attempting to touch me inappropriately. I felt extremely annoyed, as I had no interest in him. As a cultivator, I had even eliminated my attachment of lust toward my husband. So why did this person still want to flirt with me?
While looking inward, I discovered that my improper behavior had led to this problem. As an outgoing person, I was very casual when dealing with the opposite sex and enjoyed chitchatting and telling jokes with men. My smiles and talkativeness might have caused people to mistake me for a flirt. No wonder that male colleague behaved this way toward me.
As a matter of fact, such improper relations with the opposite sex only occurred after the human morality had slid downhill. In ancient times, a man and a woman were not allowed to see or talk to each other casually. Master once taught us that cautious and prudent contact between members of the opposite sex exemplifies true human behavior, and that modern-day male-female relations are indeed twisted. As a Dafa disciple, I should set strict requirements for myself and remember to not casually joke around with males or talk nonsense.
I actually had a similar lesson while in college a couple of years ago. Many male students showed interest in me, and their attention caused big trouble in my cultivation. The root problem was that I liked to talk to and goof around with them. Such casualness easily invited trouble and endangered my cultivation.
Master warned us that the old forces would not go easy on practitioners who had made mistakes in dealing with the opposite sex and would lead such wrongdoers to go awry and even sabotage Dafa.
A male student who I had often chatted with in college eventually became my boyfriend. He was very nice to me, and I ended up having an improper relationship with him. Around that time, I also deviated from Dafa. I knew that Dafa was good, but somehow I just couldn’t control my mind and struggled with lots of evil thoughts. Looking back now, I see that the old forces considered me a target to eliminate, since I didn’t do well in maintaining proper male-female relations. Later I broke up with my boyfriend and gradually got out of that warped mindset.
In the past, I always thought that I didn’t care much about desire and lust. However, now I realize that I need to work hard to further rectify my human side. Dealing appropriately with the opposite sex is a must for Dafa disciples.
Above is just my understanding at my current cultivation level. Please point out anything inappropriate.