Overcoming the Attachment of Fear and Exposing the Persecution
(Minghui.org) After I was released from a forced labor camp in 2011, I had a very strong attachment to fear. I often had nightmares about being arrested and sent back to a labor camp. I was worried that I would be persecuted again. Sometimes when a police car parked next to where I was working, I would get very nervous and take the Falun Dafa materials out of my bag and hide them.
After I got out of the labor camp, I wrote several articles to document the evil things taking place there, but I kept delaying writing to Minghui about what was going on with the persecution locally. I often looked at things with human notions and was afraid that I would be retaliated against and arrested if I exposed them. I was putting myself in the position of “to be persecuted.”
Due to the persecution I suffered in the labor camp, my blood pressure was very high and it did not go down after I got out. My cultivation state was not very good. I was dizzy and confused all day, and could not focus when I studied the Fa. I searched within to try to find my gaps that the old forces were taking advantage of. I studied the Fa more and eventually saw that I had very big attachment of fear.
I was afraid to report on the local persecution. When I wrote articles, my human notions were very strong. I worried: “Should I name the supervisors and people in the higher branches at work? Will they retaliate? Will they fire me?” All kinds of notions crowded into my mind. I continued to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference and eliminate all the evil factors that tried to keep me from exposing the persecution.
Master said in the comments to a practitioner's article “Expose the Evil Happening Locally to the Local People:”
“Exposing the wicked policemen and bad persons and publicizing their evil deeds is extremely effective at shocking and restraining those irrational, wicked people. At the same time, by clarifying the facts to the people on a local level it most directly exposes, and generates public awareness of, the wicked persecution. It is also a great way to save the people who have been poisoned and deceived by the lies. I hope all Dafa disciples and new students in Mainland China will do this well.”
I realized that, as Master's disciples, we should listen to Master, do whatever Master says, and fulfill Master's plans. So I picked up a pen and spent several days writing about how I had been persecuted, including how the police arrested me, ransacked my home, what they said to me, the financial duress, and so on. I included everyone involved.
The hardest part in writing these articles is to find people's phone numbers. However, as long as I had the wish to save sentient beings and stop the persecution, it seemed that their information and phone numbers easily came to me. Sometimes it was through friends and relatives, sometimes through fellow practitioners, and sometimes on Baidu. I even happened to find some numbers I was looking for when I went to the 610 Office to clarify the facts about the persecution. If I really couldn't find one, I would just call the person's employer, and as long as I spoke with a compassionate and pure heart, they would soon tell me the number I wanted.
After the articles were published on Minghui, practitioners at the local material site downloaded and printed them, and we distributed them throughout the city. I distributed them where the people I'd named worked. I also went to the Domestic Security Division, 610 Office, upper branches of the city government, law firms, and judicial departments to clarify the facts. I mailed letters to the families and friends of the people involved in the persecution as well.
I soon got feedback. A 610 Office staff member who monitored me called me and said, “You put my phone number on the Minghui website! I get information from you guys every day now. I did not persecute you, did I? Did you write this?” I said to him, “It is your good fortune if you can know the facts. It is good for you, so do not ask.”
My whole situation completely changed. The people who had helped arrest me now avoid me, and others try to talk to me and act friendly. My workplace is much more peaceful, and the CCP personnel no longer come to harass me. The 610 Office employee who monitored me even went to my employer to negotiate to get my withheld wages back. My dimension is much purer. My blood pressure returned to normal and my attachment of fear is gone. Much of the evil has been eliminated.
One time when I went to the police department to clarify the facts, the 610 Office director and the domestic security “instructor” did not recognize me until we sat and talked for a while. Then they said, “How can you look so young? You look like a young girl and we didn't recognize you. How old are you?” I said, “I am 46. You saw how I was when I was released from the forced labor camp. This is a reflection of the miraculous Buddha Fa.”
“While exposing the evil you are also saving all sentient beings and consummating your own paradises.” (“On 'The Dignity of Dafa,'” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
In the process of writing and exposing the persecution, I was able to eliminate my attachment of fear, as well as the hatred and resentment I had for the police and others who were involved in the persecution. With the compassion that I gained from cultivation, I tried to save them by exposing their evil actions, so that they would stop committing crimes in the future. At the same time, I tell them the principle of “good will be rewarded with good, and evil with evil.” I let them know that their evil deeds have all been recorded, that evil people will eventually face justice, and that they will only have a good future if they give up doing evil deeds.
Finally, I hope all the practitioners who were persecuted can pick up their pens and expose the evil. There were many other fellow practitioners who suffered persecution with me where I was detained, but I have not seen any articles by them. I hope that my example can encourage others to do the same.
If I have written anything inappropriate, please kindly point it out. Thank you very much!